[4evamc]

Well hello there!I have been murdered😌

Cr:https://twitter.com/mishasdiary/

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Hm

My last two years have been pretty uneventful, besides finally getting divorced. Well, and being contacted by my psycho ex-husbands new wife about how he is traumatizing her and she legitimately thought I was dead. But before that.... What lead to divorce. While it is a long story culminating in some utter craziness, the final moments were noteworthy. The final breaking point: 3 yearsish ago. We tried to make it work one more time but both knew it wouldnt. I was numb and had no feelings for him at that point. And I know he was utterly repulsed by me. We split, planning on a divorce but living in the same house. Which quite honestly wasnt all that weird sharing the same space. Our house had 4 bedrooms, and plenty of other miscellaneous ones to hide in. There wasnt a problem until it looked like I would actually survive, and maybe even thrive on my own. I was working, hanging out with friends, spending time with family, and finally enjoying life without fear of anger or repurcussions from my spouse. But he didnt like that. He thought I would wilt and whither and fall flat on my face without him and the "stability" he could offer. That Night. That night, I was planning to go to a friends house, coworkers. A guy and a girl who were dating. We all liked the same kind of things, listened to the same kind of music. I was planning to bring my guitar and play a bit then hang out with people I've known for years. As a testiment to how fucked up my life really was at that point, when my ex left the house and I went into the shared bedroom I found a loaded gun next to his bed. Immediately I knew those rounds in the chamber were not meant for him but were meant for me. Or maybe even to just scare me. His family was so reigious, and was so anti-siucide I knew that couldnt be the explanation. And with how horribly he treated me when I was close to the edge and made mistakes and did things that could be mistaken for a suicide attempt, I knew that was not the purpose of the loaded pistol. Murder. That was the first thought that entered in my mind. Followed closely by murder suicide. That would be the only suicide by him that would make any sense. Well, fuck that noise, I thought. I took his loaded gun and hid it and then loaded and prepared my own. I kept it on me in my holster and went about my daily life. I thought he would still be out, doing God knows what, when I left for my friends house. But I was wrong. He yelled and pressured me and told me how insane and crazy I was. How all of my actions showed just how mentally instable I had become. He demanded I give him his gun back. I didnt want to break any laws and felt that hiding his and not giving it to him would be an action against me. So I did. We were then both armed. But I still felt in control and aware of the situation. I thought being armed would be enough. But he did not want to give up his control so easily. He lunged for my gun, I was slow to react and only just got my hands on it as he did. We tussled over it. A loaded gun. I made the call to play the long game. I gave in. Becuase in my mind it was too fuking stupid to tussle over a loaded gun when I knew my death wasnt what would give him the most satisfaction. But evidentally I wasnt allowed. My soon to be ex husband thought I was too fragile and would be taken advantage of or would do something stupid if I left the house.

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Sorry not sorry! September's close enough! 🤷‍♀️😂

[destieldrabblesdaily]

looking for new fanfic to read like…

‘Major Character Death’

‘OTP but also NOTP on the side’

‘not finished yet but also not updated since the year 1957′

‘Minor Character Death (but spoilers it’s a dog that dies)’

‘Unrequited Love’

[drrexdexter-deactivated20211029]

URGENT ALERT: LAKE CONROE DAM OPENED—TAKE SHELTER IMMEDIATELY. [https://youtu.be/qacX3b9KLt4] Aug 28, 2017 -  Started streaming 5 hours ago. NATIONAL WEATHER STUDIO

[thetreacherouskind]

I don’t know all the people who follow me who live in Texas but please stay safe. If you’re aren’t from Texas, reblog anyway. Thank you!

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Guys.... I was wrong. 🤣🤣

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Harry Potter themed escape room!?! Of course I have to dress up! #slytherinpride

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

if black people raise their voice they could get SHOT, but running down people who dont agree with you is okay?

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

So I noticed my glasses were super dirty and looked around for something to wipe them when my eyes caught my sheets. And in my head I said "oh good! I can use these shits to clean my glasses" and then I was revolted with the mental image my internal autocorrect created

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Rebel!!! With a sweet smile and a sharp tongue.

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Music and a fluffy puppy to heal the soul 💜#dogsofinstgram

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

My baby boy!

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Keep doubting. Ignite my fire.

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Lime palm tree!

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Happy birthday Hailey!!!

[colorsbrighterinafantasy]

Miss you @mermaidkirsten needed to read this today! 😘Love you hun.