Dead By Daylight - Thank you from huntress and a message to clickers
Feng Min, Nea, Mikaela and I think the 4th was Meg if im not mistaken.. Thank you so much. I was the Huntress you got at 5:40AM EST on May 16 2022. I didn't get a single hook or hit in, I didn't throw my axes for most the match except at the ground and at you Nea. Sorry Didn't know you were a SWF so I was going to use you as practice then take you to the gates. Feng Min and Mikaela gave me hooks. I tried to get you both out the gate but you refused, I didn't want you guys to die I knew we didn't have time. Thank you for the hooks but I really wish you both didn't die. It both warmed my heart at how sweet you two were, and broke it because you two didn't deserve to "Lose" and go down in mmr. Your whole group was so sweet to me a baby as huntress.
I am a new huntress, that was my first match. I truthfully didn't even know HOW to throw an axe lmao much less aim at something 1 foot infront of me. I had a bad night and you guys actually made it so much better.
I had 4 matches in a row as other killers (Wraith for 1 match and Nemesis for the rest) I was new to Nemesis. Also relearning Wraith after not playing him for 5 months. So I was clumsy and awkward. All 4 matches had a flashlight clicker, MACRO clicker who followed me around just to get in my face and flash me constantly, not even to blind me but to harass me.
I have minor epilepsy and I have night blindness. Just like some others who do play the game. I can already hear all the ableism. I have heard it all before, trust me it isn't new "Don't play video games then" "Play Epileptic safe games" Problem is there is next to no Epileptic safe games. I'm not going to give up something I've done since I was a child that got me through PTSD and Trauma as a child just because of a medical condition that CAN be accommodated for with accessibility OPTIONS in games. Just like motion sickness and color blindness can be accommodated for, so can epilepsy if a company actually CARES and their fans stop enabling ableism and exclusion. A huge problem DBD has.
Color Blindness, people had to fight for. It had to go public and turn into a HUGE scandal in journalism and media for anything to be done about it in DBD. That kind of inaction for any disability IS a problem.
My epilepsy on its own would not be so bad. I can handle flashing lights at certain speeds in certain levels of lighting. I also have no issues with the flashlights themselves, but with the way they are being used. Use it to blind me thats A-Okay. But when you click you are risking someones health JUST to be an asshole and be annoying. Some people even do it and admit they do it, with intentions to CAUSE a deadly epileptic attack. Thats not right, that is SICK and wrong.
Now with a high light level and the clicking? I only get sick, dizzy and end up in pain. No risk of seizure or blackouts.
With a DARK environment? I get blackouts.
With a VERY dark environment like a foggy dark swamp with the thickest mist or the preschool with the thickest mist which are the two maps I have the issue the worst on? That causes me seizures because the BEAM of light from the flashlight contrasts TOO much.
How Do I suggest it be fixed? Simple, its quite an easy fix that wouldn't harm ANYONE's gameplay except people who do it to try to HARM others.
Add in accessibility the option to turn off the BEAM visual or options to control how bright it and the blind is. Maybe let us even turn the blind into a black screen instead or somewhere inbetween. We still get blinded, they still serve their intended purpose but our health is taken into consideration this way aswell. Maybe add in for those with sound epilepsy options with the sound too. Talk to them, actually listen to them and find out what works for them. Its really not that hard if you're not too lazy to do it.
Moving back to the main point. As you four could see from this post. I have had a bad time on dead by daylight since day 1. As a survivor and a killer. I have suffered from flashlights on BOTH sides it doesn't matter which side im on, clickers always harass other people.
You guys turned my night from "I want to cry and I hate myself for being disabled" to "Its not all bad, I can have fun even WITH my disability" which is a BIG difference to me.
The match just before you guys I had one of the worst clickers. She came to the corner I was in just to click me in the face when I was throwing the match BECAUSE of her because I almost blacked out.
It was the swamp, darkest it can be, fog and the thickest mist possible. I almost had a seizure because of that claudette.
The Mikaela, Dwight and Zarina in that match though were sweet hearts when I was playing Nemmy. But that claudette, almost put me into a seizure. I'm up alone, at the time no one would be awake for 8 hours because my family is sick and literally can't keep awake / wake up early. I've been better for a week now, I was the first one better. Point is I could of had a seizure possibly passed away because that CAN happen, because of one asshole who thought it was funny and a company who refuses to do shit all to help, and the fact theres no one to help me makes that all the more dangerous.
You guys, People like you, are the reason I still play. Despite all the ableism on the forums, reddit and from a lot of people I met on the game. Its worth sticking around to make sure you guys get one less toxic killer / game and get to have fun too.Z
To the claudette who harassed me. FUCK YOU. Sincerely.
To flashlight clickers in general. PLEASE reconsider, for the sake of those with epilepsy. Click at the ground, click slow and / or don't click at all. Do not click in someones face for the love of humanity. Have some empathy and consideration, you could very well take a life by trolling or trying to get attention in that way. Most killers are going to ignore you because you are trying to get their attention. It doesn't work most the time anyways. All you are doing is harming other real people. They aren't AI they are real people behind the screen. You could take a teenagers life in seconds or a young adults lives or someones grandparent or parent just because you wanted to fuck around and find out.
And if you can be okay with someone dying because it IS a real possibility and if you are able-bodied with able-bodied relatives you won't EVER know what that is like, if you can be okay with killing someone like that? You are a lost cause, you have no humanity left in you and your soul is as black as coal and your heart a shard of ice. We're all human, act like it. What if it was your sister? Brother? Mother? Father? Child? Grandparent? Cousin? Aunt? Uncle? Nephew? Niece? How would you feel if they had a condition they couldn't help? If someone didn't care and did something they have been told over and over again is dangerous, and killed them?
You might not be a murderer in the eyes of the law. But socially and morally you are one, if someone dies because you fucked around too hard KNOWING this is a real and dangerous problem.
To the people who try to protect the killers by blocking the beam with their characters or body blocking around them so clickers cant get n their face? You have so much empathy, humanity and love in your hearts. Trust me we really appreciate and adore you. Thank you, thank you for protecting us and possibly saving some lives.
Quitting the game isn't a proper solution. Its patronizing and dismissive when thats what "Solution" people offer as they brush it off as a non issue. Yes we have a responsibility to protect our own health, but the game is fine for us. Its people using flashlight NOT for intended purpose that is the problem. And it doesn't mean you have no responsibility for your own actions and assholery. Especially when you KNOW what you could cause to happen. You have been warned time and time again, post after post every month every year about this issue. You will kill someone some day or hospitalize an innocent person, thats something you'll have to live with, something you can never be forgiven for. So stop and think about it, can you live if you know you caused a death? Or can you live without knowing if that last match you had hospitalized someone? To know you are leaving people without a child or parent? If you can't handle that, then rethink what you are doing. Its never too late to have empathy for others.
