It's been a brutal two weeks. My girlfriend and I broke up and I feel like I've lost my best friend and one of the biggest longest time parts of my support system. I'm so ducking angry and sad all the time. My other best pal has been blowing me off for a couple weeks now. I'm just feeling so fucking lonely.
My boss is constantly low key undermining my shirt because she is so caught up in her ego that she doesn't pay attention to my work until it all has to be redone despite the fact that I asked for her approval multiple times before now. Then takes credit for my shit and what she wants from me literally seems to change week to week.
My roommate always gets home right as I'm trying to sleep and our walls are paper thin. So they always at least briefly wake me up or keep me up. I want to find a sub leaser but I fucking hate living here and it feels wrong to ask someone else to take my place.
I feel so exhausted and irritated as all hell constantly. I feel like all the places I thought I belonged and the people I thought I belonged with are either evaporated or estranged.
I know my relationship with v was toxic as hell and that leaving it gives me a better chance at growth or whatever. But so often, it feels worth it. Like I'd take all the drama and lack of empathy back just to 1. Have someone I was close to back 2. Have all the positives of our relationship back. I genuinely miss her a lot. On some level I'm glad I know there's no chance of us talking again for a long time. I know I'd run back, it would be too easy.
I know this shit's temporary and that it's only going to get better. I've got the whole self care and recovery thing down pat by now but Jesus is it fucking hell right now
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