Complicated.

My name is Marisa. I'm 21 and my life is anything but ordinary. I love my life. I'm glad to be alive. I love being happy but I have my struggles and downfalls. Thats why I'm here. To share my thoughts that are too hard to say out loud, to rant, to get everything out. Something I've always loved is writing and now I'm finally getting the chance to show the world how I really feel. No filtering, no edits, just pure thoughts.

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

https://thoughtcatalog.com/kirsten-corley/2017/02/what-being-just-friends-actually-is-because-it-isnt-really-friendship/

This hit me so fucking hard.

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

Because the ugly truth behind all of this is you don’t like me or care about me or respect me enough to commit to me.

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

I'll never understand how God handed me the one I've always wanted and doesnt allow me to have absolutely everything with him.

I found a man that is truly perfect for me in everyway, and he doesnt want to be with me. We are so close and I love him and he loves me but he doesnt have feelings for me in that way. But we do everything together and that's where things get complicated. Every time I see him I find reasons why hes even more perfect. It's not fair but then I remember God has a plan for everything. So maybe hes not the right one, and i'm just waiting for him.

[endlesslyyy-forrrevrr666-blog]

I can feel my pain slowly sucking the happiness outta me and no one can save me; not even my own fucking self.

don’t bother saving me (via endlesslyyy-forrrevrr666)

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

Love is gross. Love is nasty. This is why I believed love doesn’t exist. Until I fell in love and I believed, I really did until my heart got ripped out of my fucking chest.

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[dangerously-depressed]

[cute-n-pastel]

[thepersonalquotes]

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

He's out his head, I'm out my mind

And I wouldnt have it any other god damn way.

[poemswords]

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

You just arent that lucky girlfriend

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I'm always going to be second best to anyone and everything. I was second best for 6 years to a computer. I'm second best now till something better comes around. I'm second best to the other one. And the next one. I'm never anyone's first choice.

[poemswords]

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

Life isnt fair. It hands me you and I dont get to have you.

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

First comes happiness, then comes regret.

[confessionsofmyeverydaylife]

Just remember Marisa, sex isnt love.