May the force be with my 20s

[confessitallunique]

2017 YEAR GOALS

ALRIGHT, this shit is like really important. I want to make this year the year that I come out on top. I want to save money, rebuild my credit, be debt free, and LOOK SO FUCKING GOOD WHILE DOING IT. AGAIN, this shit takes patience the one fucking thing I lack (Lord, please bless my poor adolescent brain with patience pls) 

Okay well, here it goes:

Maintain a GPA over 3.8- As some of you may know, I aspire to be a surgeon which required my dumbass to go to medical school. I (Me being my competitive ass) really want to put myself in the position where I do not have to worry about which school I get accepted to (like lets be honest, getting denied somewhere because you are not that fucking intelligent really sucks ass) So yeah, I want to put myself in the position to excel. 

Go to Michigan, San Francisco, Sacramento, Las Vegas, Seattle, Canada, South Dakota, New York, Hawaii, and Massachusetts-I am YOUNG and I need to travel more so that I can experience NEW things. Plus I really enjoy traveling so if I can go to at least 4 of these places then fuck yeah!! 

Be myself- This means the world to me, I have always felt like I was holding back ya know? But this year, (So far) I have seen myself really be open plus I’ve been smiling more, that’s always a plus right? :)

Receive 3 Scholarships- School is not cheap and I do not want to be drowned in debt by the time I am 25 so here’s a big fuck yeah to scholarships!! I need or well want to get 3 by the 2017-2018 school year. 

Come home for the holidays- Holidays are important to me, especially thanksgiving so it would mean the world to me if I could come home for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years so that I am able to spend time with my family and friends. 

Go to MEC- Okay, this is a MUST I will be 21 and the race is in VEGAS. Yup, a MUST.

Pay off all of my bills and rebuild my credit- This matters a lot to me, over the years I have been extremely careless about how I spend my money, how much I save, and etc. I think it primarily has a lot to do with being so impulsive, I am the type of person that if I see it I want it and I do not think about the consequences. I hope this year I learn to manage that and save up for a rainy day when I actually need it. I also want to rebuild my credit so that I can buy a car when I need one and not need a cosigner. 

Make my Mom proud- Me being fucking classic me, I really screwed over my mom and I know that hurt her tremendously. I really fucking betrayed her and if i could go back and redo things I would just so that I did not have to hurt her. I love my mom and I want nothing but the best for her so by the end of 2017 I want to get her back into GCU and make sure she gets her Degree. 

Lose 130 pounds- This is something that I feel like I need for myself. Sure, I am perfect the way I am but I still feel like I can be BETTER than that. I’ve struggled so much with my weight for as long as I possibly can remember but I know that this is something that I have been longing for. I have always had a better image of myself in my head. I picture me smiling more and laughing more and that is what I want ya know? I want to not be so ashamed when I look in the mirror, I want to be as happy as I picture myself being. I can do this, I know I can. Its going to take a lot of patience but it will be worth it all in the end. 

So, here it is, all of my dearest goals of 2017. I am so ready for this. 

[confessitallunique]

Monthly Goals: January

I know what you’re thinking, “Unique, how the fuck are you going to set monthly goals when we are already 12 fucking days in?? C’mon girl!” 

Well surprise motherfuckers, I’ve actually made these goals New Years day in my fitness planner I’m just posting them here for personal satisfaction. I know, I’m annoying as fuck. ANYWAYS, lets list these shits so I can get on with telling you guys my YEAR GOALS (Aka goals we set but we forget about 6 months into the year and completely say fuck it)

 **JK, I am hoping to keep up with these goals like I am hoping to keep up with this diet, my three instagrams, and this blog thing. 

Okay, here they go:

Accept my flaws- We all have them, yeah I know but I want to really fucking be happy with them.

Learn that this “diet” isn’t a temporary fix, it is a LIFESTYLE change- my senior year of high school I was getting really fucking good at eating right and working out but I seen it more as something I HAD to do rather than something I WANTED to do. I think that is what really threw me off and how I “fell off” 

Consume more or less 1,500 calories a day- okay this is iffy lol I looked it up and apparently this is how many calories I should be eating so I am just rolling with it.

Portion Control- This is big for me, I am so used to eating rather large portions but by portion controlling I know I can really just in take less because I need to lol 

Trust that things take time- This is HUGE for me because I am such and IMPATIENT person. If I don’t see progress I immediately get discouraged and really do not wish to continue (this is also why a lot of my previous diets have failed) In my planner I put “Rome wasn’t built overnight unique suck that shit up” LMAO  

In the end I wrote myself a note that says:

        “Unique, Be patient and believe you can! Remember why you started” 

I’m kinda cute sometimes. 

Oh I also want to lose 10 pounds this months, Idk how that will go but I’m hopeful. 

[cwote]

So what if you’re alone right now. Embrace it. Go get coffee alone. Shop alone. Drive alone. Watch movies alone. Get to know yourself. Nothing bad can come from riding whatever wave to self improvement you’re blessed with in the moment.

[samxcamargo]

[words-of-emotion]

“ Be so busy loving your life that you have no time for hate, regret or fear. ”

https://twitter.com/goodquoteco (via words-of-emotion)

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[confessitallunique]

Things I’ve learned about being 20..so far

Being 20 is fucking weird, I could’ve sworn I was 16 like 5 months ago or at least I feel like I am still 16. I wish I would’ve waited to go to the University of Oregon or well at least until I was financially stable. This is where shit gets rough, its like I am at the age where I should be building my finances but please note that I fucking ruined my credit and everything PRIOR to coming. I should’ve made sure that I fixed that shit before I jumped the bus to come here. But fuck me because my ass is already here. SO, what am I going to do to fix it? Well, I am going to try and do everything in my power to make sure that I can fix it. I want to be debt free and start to rebuild my credit by the end of 2017. Boring shit, I know but like I said being 20 is fucking weird because it is like I should but shouldn’t be worrying about this shit. So yeah, if there is anything I’ve learned it is that finances are fucking important.

Another thing I’ve learned is that I’m technically a grown up, kinda fucking sorta because I still want my parents to pay for everything and schedule my appointments. (lol I also call for permission sometimes but yeah fucking weird) My parents see it as I am 20 so I am more or less able to take care of myself?? Like hello guys, I AM A BROKE BITCH THAT STILL NEEDS YOU, DON’T CUT ME OFF PLS. I can barely make it to my 8 a.m’s on time and you expect me to be able to be a grown up? Psh, yeah right.

Also, I’ve learned that time does indeed fly by so I need to really cherish those around me. I am currently regretting every time I was 10 or 9 or whatever and would say “wow I can’t wait until I am 20″ because lord knows I would go back to being 10 or whatever and do so much differently. I think I am starting to realize that I shouldn’t dwell on the “what if’s” along with the “I would’ves” because that too holds me back from “living”.

I don’t know, maybe I just think too much but I know I am so afraid of what’s to come. Although, I know in the end I will be alright.

[arabwife]

2017 the year of the “go for it”. There’s nothing to lose, everything to gain

[serious]

I hope you meet the right people in 2017, those who will appreciate you and won’t take you for granted. But if you happen to come across people who just want to use you, I hope you know when to walk away.

TW (via serious)

[confessitallunique]

2017, pls be good to me

New year, same me! Well, kinda I feel a lot bolder and care free which is new to me. My smile is a lot wider and my voice a whole lot louder. New Years Eve/New Years Day is what really started it I think. I have always been really shy, laid back, and never went out of my way to get a guys attention until that night. I was looking for a good night with my friends but I honestly hoped he (he meaning this fine ass boyyyyyy)

would be there just because I wanted to try and make a move. Jaz and Onica spent most of their night with me which was refreshing lol We walked in I seen james and immediately went to anyssas room so we could “Hide” the beer (also so I could hide because lord knows I luv that boy and the LAST THING I wanted on my mind was him). After doing that, we went to the kitchen and guess who was right there, Anthony (Laaaaawd, he is so freaking cute lol) Anyways, he was cutting up some lime and threw them in my beer (at this point I am trying so hard not to get all smiley and shit because wtf unique PLAY IT COOL BITCH!!!) At this point I was like fuck it, i need to throw these beers back as fast as I fucking can so I can get wasted and maybe try and make a move. 5 beers or so deep and onicas little turnt ass want me to beer bong a beer with her and I’m just thinking “is this bitch craazy???!!”

We proceed to bong the beer and I'm like fuck it lets get lit, so I decided right there and then that I wanted to get high (because he was outside and who doesn't love free weed???) I take MULTIPLE fucking hits from scooters one hitter quitter shit and I AM DONE. I don't remember much from that point on but we did take some cute ass pictures. *End of part one