All flames in this world are under my command

Indie RP blog for Totomaru as of X791/X792 from Fairy Tail. Mun and muse are over 18. NSFW due to violence and gore. -- Highly selective multishipping -- M!A: none allowed -- Tracking the tag: conflxgration

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[火 – ‘cause I got one more match

                                       – two strikes left –

                                                  you got to three to get out of my way – 火]

火 – Semi-selective Independent Totomaru RP blog

火 – 3 years roleplaying experience on Tumblr (plus 2 years on DeviantArt [yes, I’m a dork for rping on DA]) (same mun behind ferrosdracul and sireniagravitas)

火 – One-liners up to multi-paragraph (I do prefer to keep things short as I do have other RP blogs to tend to)

火 – OC-, AU-, and multifandom-friendly

火 – Willing to rp outside of Fairy Tail fandom

火 – Very selective multi-ship

火 – Skype available upon request off anon and if we have interacted before

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[火 – ‘cause I got one more match

                                       – two strikes left –

                                                  you got to three to get out of my way – 火]

火 – Semi-selective Independent Totomaru RP blog

火 – 3 years roleplaying experience on Tumblr (plus 2 years on DeviantArt [yes, I’m a dork for rping on DA]) (same mun behind ferrosdracul and sireniagravitas)

火 – One-liners up to multi-paragraph (I do prefer to keep things short as I do have other RP blogs to tend to)

火 – OC-, AU-, and multifandom-friendly

火 – Willing to rp outside of Fairy Tail fandom

火 – Very selective multi-ship

火 – Skype available upon request off anon and if we have interacted before

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//Tumblr STILL won’t let me make the blog like wtf

[skydragxn]

conflxgration-archive said: [火] – “Nah, it’s fine. And you don’t need to add the ‘sir’. It makes me feel old.” He chuckled at that, but it really did make him feel old.

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  “O-oh i’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make    you feel old or anything! I-I apologize.” Well this was awkward for her. Already ruining a nice moment. She smiled at him nervously. 

[火] -- “It’s quite alright.” He patted her head. “Come on. You wanted to snuggle, right? Just a warning though, I’m like a space heater, I run warm.”

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//okay, since Tumblr is still being a dick and not letting me make the blog, imma call it quits for tonight and go to bed.

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//registration error, my ass. Just let me make the fucking blog, goddammit Tumblr.

[fiyeroooooo]

[mllesouthernbelle]

I will ALWAYS reblog this

[pardonmyfrench-bitch]

Spirit animal.

[tsunderephan-deactivated2017073]

IT IS BACK

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//okay I’m feeling a lot better, so I’ll be making Toto’s new blog after I shower.

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//also, for those of you who are paying attention, my mood has changed from miserable and shitty to angry and shitty. I think I’ll just go offline for today. I don’t want to burden you guys with my piss-poor attitude and make you feel secondhand misery. Oh, and I also don’t want any pity; I don’t need people to feel sorry for me, because it doesn’t help.

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//I thought today would be okay, but she just had to make it hell. Can we go one day without her being a colossal bitch for once? Apparently that’s too much to ask. And I’ll give her attitude if I wanna because she deserves every ounce of my ire. I can promise you that by the end of the summer, I am so out of here. I seriously can’t take it anymore.

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//oh, and one more thing: I have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome type 3, which means I’m in pain 24/7 (the degree of pain varies from day to day), and yet being yelled at and crying hurts worse. Go figure.

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//still didn’t get anything done on Totomaru’s new blog. Fuck it all. I’ll do it tomorrow. For now, I’m gonna sleep; I’ve got a pounding headache from all the crying.

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I've been watching your interactions with some of the other people I follow for a little while now, and I just wanted to say that I love your Totomaru!

//thank you, nonnie. I’ll be moving to a new blog soon, but the url will stay the same. I’ll still be around.

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//guys, thank you so much. I’m feeling better now, but today was a really long, really hard day, both workwise and emotionally. I’m sorry for making you guys worry. I’d never go through killing myself, but at that moment it seemed like a good option. I’d never leave behind all the people who love me because I know what it’s like to have someone close to you commit suicide. I’ll be fine. I just need some sleep.

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Ever been in a blizzard? Its ridiculously scary. You can barely see in any direction. It seems like it'll go on and on forever. Eventually it calms down and the snow falls like in the movies. Its really pretty and everything is blanketed in white. Super gorgeous. Just like you. Dont let the blizzard blind you. Youre beautiful and wonderful and special. Dont let any force make you forget that. Sometimes, progress means leaving behind those we call family. Stay strong beautiful.

//thank you.

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slayerofthelightninggod replied to your post:[[MOR] //I just got blamed and yelled at for...

*HUGS* You may not be wanted by her but you wanted by lots of other people. It sounds like the best thing you can do is focus on finding ways to get out of her house. Either way, we’re here if you need it.

//the problem is that our relationship is so incredibly bipolar. One minute we’re best friends and planning to do awesome stuff together, and the next we’re at each other’s throats and I wind up crying and miserable. I want to stay but she’s making it very difficult. It’s like fucking Jekyll and Hyde with her. I just don’t want to do this anymore. I’m just...done.

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//I just got blamed and yelled at for something I didn’t fucking do and it was not my fault at all since I had not a fucking thing to do with it. This is the third time this month I’ve been yelled at and I feel like absolute fucking shit. I I can’t stop crying and I don’t want to be here anymore. She told me to shut up and stop crying because it wasn’t helping find whatever I supposedly lost. I want to kill myself so badly to escape this torment. I don’t want to live in this world if I have to deal with my mother one more fucking day. She makes me so miserable that death would be better than her.