Dont Let It Get Me

Im a junior and vocal major. Im the sweetest person you will ever get to meet so you know, give me a chance. Im taken by the most amazing curly headed, green eyed boy in the whole world, Max Stiller. I have the bestest best friends named Tommy and Trinity. They are my life. -Max <3

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Truly Madly Deeply|| Max and Conner.

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Max laughed along with him. The funny thing was that he was going to eventually have to propose to him and he loved the idea of it. He pushed closer to him, just wanting to stay in this moment forever. Not wanting to leave the comfort of his arms or his soft lips. Max smiled at him. "You really are the best." He chuckled, rubbing his nose against his. "Forever will be perfect as long as it's with you."

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Conner felt Max get closer to him and he just moved his arms tight around the boy and looked into his eyes with the biggest smile he had in awhile on his face. "No thats you baby, you are best ive ever met in my whole entire life." He rubbed his nose against the other boys and blushed slightly. "Forever wont be long enough if i get you.." He said honestly. He kissed Max;s nose and let out a soft breath. "I love you Max..More than you will ever know." he muttered before he leaned back and looked straight into his eyes and bit down on his lip. "I dont knwo what i would had done if i lost you, i cant do that again."

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Truly Madly Deeply|| Max and Conner.

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“Well give me a kiss then!” He demanded as he strutted over to Conner, taking his face in his hands and crushing his lips against his. “God, I’ve missed you.” Max whispered as he pulled away from him. “I’m just saying  that I’m really sorry and I like to leave that behind us because I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” He looked at him straight in the eyes. “I’m not proposing right now but I just thought you needed to hear something like that to know that I do care.” Max smiled, a little proud of himself for finding someone that he was so in love with.

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When Conner heard thse worlds come out of his mouth an even bigger smile moved onto his lips. He almost ran over into Max and slipped his arms around his waist and kissed him just just as much passion as he could let out. When Max pulled away a small frown moved onto his lips. "You dont even understand how much i missed you.." Conner moved one of his hands up to Max's face and rubbed his thumb across the boys cheek. "I love you..and i want to spend the rest of my life with you too." He couldnt help but laugh and he nodded. "Its a good thing you are proposing right now, cause honestly, i dont know what i would do..probably pass out, ive had enough excitement today." He leaned back into the boy and muttered softly. "Kiss me again?" he asked before he pressed his lips softly against Max's and kissed him sweetly. Boy had he missed that boy more than anything in the whole world. He wish that moment could just last forever. 

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Truly Madly Deeply|| Max and Conner.

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Max was scared to face Conner. He still felt bad for leaving unannounced and not even at least telling him he was alive and ok and that he loved him. He wondered if Conner thought if he would just repeat what Logan did and run away when it got serious. Fortunately, Max was in it for the long run or at least until Conner got sick of him. He opened the door shyly, peering in through the slim crack. Not like his usual entrance. “Conner my love!” He exclaimed, suddenly back to his normal self. The door threw open and he stood their with a wide grin on his face. He closed it behind him before looking for Conner.

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Conner had changed into basketball shorts and a white v neck when he heard the door softly open. His bright blue eyes faced the door and a smile moved onto his lips. He slipped behind his bedroom door and then jumped out and smiled when he saw the curly headed boy. "Baby!" Conner squealed when he saw him. He bit down on his lip and played with his fingers. Boy had he missed Max. It felt like it had been forever since he saw those green eyes, that curly brown hair, those perfect lips, he missed him more than anything in this whole world and he wasnt sure what he was gonna do if Max ever left him cause he got bored of him. Conner slipped his hands into his basketball shorts pockets and just looked at him with a smile. "I missed you..alot.' he said softly, his blue eyes looked up from the floor and into Max's green ones. He wasnt too sure what to say or do, he was just awe struck. It was like he was too happy to move or touch him or anything. 

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I Want You To Rock Me..Rock Me..Rock Me Yeah.

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Truly Madly Deeply|| Max and Conner.

The words of the song that Max wrote him was running through Conner's head. I wanna be last, yeah, baby let me be your, let me be your last first kiss. I wanna be first, yeah, wanna be the first to take it all the way like this and if you, only knew, i wanna be last, yeah baby let me be your last, your last first kiss. Those words meant more than anything else in the world to him. Conner couldnt help but fall in love with Max, he was just everything he ever wanted. Sometimes he had a feeling in the pit of his stomach though that Max didnt love him as much as Conner loved Max. They talked about their future and everything but there was something in Conner's mind that made him wonder if it was just Max being Max or if he actually meant every thing that he said. Conner sat down on his bed and pulled his legs up to his chest, leaving the door unlocked for Max. For not seeing him for awhile, Conner was ready to see him, he missed him more than anything in the world. He missed his lips on his, the way he got sparks when Maxs hands touched his, how warm he got when his boyfriends arms went around him. He just wanted him there with him, always and forever, but he knew not to make a promise on that right now. 

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  Can we agree to disagree? Yeah, that’s just cause I will have the same maturity level as them.

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Yeah we can do that. But its perfect on you babe, cause you know, you are just too cute not to. 

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  Yours is cute and lovely and beautiful. I sound stupid compared to you. Nah, I won’t be worried ‘cause apparently I was exactly like that when I was little.

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Oh my gosh baby shush. I look horrible when im as red as a tomato. No you dont, you sound perfect right next to me, cause your voice is perfect. Haha, i can see it now. You running after them with a crayon up your nose too..i love you Max.

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  I would. I don’t feel the same without you either but if I told you where I went you would of just worried far too much. You have a perfect voice yourself. Our kids will so be the type to eat dirt and shove crayons up their nose haha. I’d love that.

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Yeah i probably would had freaked out cause you were down there and i didnt want you hurt. No i dont, yours is so raspy and perfect and i love it so much, mine is almost like girly. Oh lord, i can see it now..or kids running around eating play dough and dirt and shoving crayons in the dvd player and everything. Ima be a worried dad.

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You’re not stupid, I would of worried and jumped to conclusions if you had left like I did. We are going to have all that stuff, ok? As well as a awesome recording contract with the band. We’ll be those cool rock dads. Yeah, I’m fine. Well not really ‘cause of the whole memory/panic attack thing…

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People dont just freak out when their boyfriends leave Max. I have issues..i just..i dont know. I dont feel like im myself when you arent here. Maybe thats whats wrong with me..i have separation issues or something. I--i sure hope so. Thanks to your beautiful voice im sure we will. You can be the cool rock dad..ill be the one freaking out cause our little girl ate dirt or something. Wa-wanna come see me and i can make you feel better? If--if you want?

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I’d never do what Logan did to you, you know that baby. Um, well I was involved in a car crash a year ago…. The guy driving the truck got given like a 8 year jail sentence.

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I just,i thought i lost you. I dont know why it hurt me so bad but it did and all that talk about the little house with the white pickett fence, and a dog, and little curly headed blue eyed kids running around kept going through my head and it just made me cry..im stupid i know. Oh wow, thats great, im glad he got something for what he did. You are okay right?

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I know. I just thought that you’d hate me leaving unannounced again and that I was doing it because I didn’t love you, which I really do, but honestly it was for a court hearing and I um.. panicked. But I’m back now, that’s ok?

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I could never hate you Max, thats the honest truth. Im way too in love with you to hate you..i just..i dont know. I did think thats why you left..you know what Logan did to me, he just up and left me and i thought thats what you were going to do..i wouldnt be able to live through it again. A Co--court hearing? What happened? Are you okay? At least your back..

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I’m sorry. I really am. I don’t want you to hurt anymore.

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Im not gonna hurt once im in your arms forever..thats the thing. 

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I didn’t have a choice, I had to go. It’s just-t I feel so bad that I didn’t tell you I was going but I wasn’t allowed to. I’m sorry.

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...Dont cry please. I hate seeing you cry. Its fine, i understand i just missed you was all. We barely see eachother anymore, and it hurts..

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  You hate me, don’t you?

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i could never hate you. 

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  Hi…

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H--hey.

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I disappear too much.

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