Contemplating Self

[contemplatingself]

He moved in with an alcoholic drug addict.

His girlfriend with a beard calls/texts him when he isn't home.

They go shopping together.

How is this much different from being in a relationship?

He is a co-dependent addict.

[contemplatingself]

Excuses.

That's all he gave me.

Excuses.

"I need a place to clear my head."

Excuses.

"We want different things."

Excuses.

Distance.

That's what he gave me.

Distance.

"I'm a different person now."

Distance.

"I still consider you my good friend."

Distance.

A Child.

That's what we made.

A Child.

"I'm not much of a Family man."

A Child.

"I don't want a restraining order because it will make it hard to get my stuff out."

A Child.

Plans.

That's what I had before.

Plans.

"Give me a chance! I want to move to NY too!"

Plans.

"I'm leaving you and our child, you're stuck here."

Plans.

Drained.

That's what he left me.

Drained.

"I will have all the free time in the world with no kid to care for."

Drained.

"I will be doing all of the things you wanted to do!"

Drained.

Lame.

You are so lame.

Coward.

You learned to run from your Mother.

Father.

You are Biological, not physical, not emotional.