Thanks Lum.

I know. I can’t say things’ll be all peachy from the get-go, but it’ll be okay. Cross my pusher and hope to, idk. Something unpleasant.

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.. i see…

Let’s talk about this more later, okay? I’ll still be here for you to yell at me after you get some rest.

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It would’ve been better off that way, though. I wouldn’t have dragged you into my bullshit, and everyone would just be mad at me now, not you. This shouldn’t have had anything to do with you.

I fail to see how it would’ve been better. Either I would’ve been as just in the dark as everyone else, or I would’ve been the only one who knew, and, honestly?? Neither of those scenarios would have ended very well.

We’ll figure this out, okay?

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… I d9n’t kn9w… I just… I d9n’t understand…

I’ll try my best to explain it, then. Feel free to ask if you don’t understand anything, okay?

HIR contacted Lum and I, saying she’d found out some things involving the people who’d been behind previous attacks against him. She was going to use the information to retaliate against them, but that would put him at risk if they decided to strike back in turn, so. We left. Turns out there was a good chance they were tracking, uh... Everything. What we were doing, what we were saying, who we were talking to. That’s why neither of us could say anything about what happened or where we were headed. We had to go off the grid so that they wouldn’t take the chance to try to like, kill him, or something. No internet, no talking to other people at all. Fun stuff.

...I realize it sounds incredibly exaggerated when I put it like that, but uh. That’s really it. We just got the news that it was okay for us to go back a couple hours ago. You’re really the first person I’ve talked to, so. Finger guns!

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Fuck, I should have at least not taken Sed with me.

Do you really think I would’ve just let you leave me behind?

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… What if I want the details n9w? W9uld I have t9 wait f9r them?

No. I’d give them to you as fast as I could type them. ...Which isn’t actually very fast, but uh, it’s the thought that counts? I’m incredibly out of practice with keyboards... Anyway!

Whatever you want to know.

9h, n9, d9n’t w9rry. I’m n9t 9wed ANYTHING.

I might want it, sure, 6ut it’s far fr9m 9wed.

A 6it heart 6reaking, perhaps, t9 n9t get a hell9. 9r a menti9n. Any indicati9n that I might’ve slid acr9ss y9ur pan at all.

I mean, it’s n9t as if we were matesprits 9r anything.

At the very least, you’re owed an explanation, right? I just. I want you to know first of all that I didn’t leave to go off on a grand old adventure or whatever. I didn’t stop talking to you, I didn’t drop off the face of Beforus, because I wanted to. And it’s not because of anything you did. Okay?

Long story short, we found out some things regarding Really Bad People that have been wanting to hurt my moirail for ages, and we had to book it while things were taken care of. We couldn’t say anything. We couldn’t tell anybody. It...there was a bit more to it than that, but I’ll spare you the details for now.

I’m so, so sorry it hurt you. I’m so sorry I couldn’t say anything until now. The last thing I’ll ask is for you to forgive me. But you’re free to judge me however you want.

If y9u’re w9ndering, y9u’d d9 much w9rse t9 c9ntinue n9t talking t9 me at all. N9t that I’m 9wed a hell9 9r anything. N9t like it’s 6een perigees since y9u’ve even seen me.

6ut, y9u kn9w. Y9u c9uld d9 w9rse than talking t9 me…

Like. N9t.

...I owe you a lot more than a hello, I think. Like, “I’m sorry,” for example, or “You have every right to be upset". Just as, uh. You know. Examples.

But, um. Hi. Sorry.

...You didn’t deserve that.