Hopefully Hopeless

So many thoughts, so many emotions. I'm alone with the demons in my head and they're telling me I'm worthless.

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I kinda want to post pictures of my cuts here but that seems morbid and horrible, but I still wanna do it ya know? I’m an idiot

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I'm never on here and it's horrible but I'm not dead so I think that's a plus.

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i suffer silently on the inside while I smile on the outside, no one has noticed I'm not okay anymore, while they look at my healed scars and think 'those are old, look at that smile. No need to worry'

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I'm getting real sick of being put down or talked shit about for being me.

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I constantly tell myself I'm better, that I'm a new, better person this year; but it's a lie. I'm sad, I drink all the time, I find myself thinking of people that probably never think of me. In reality, I'm not okay. I'm far from it. I'm just believing the lie.

[yiqie]

Thank you for following me. Thank you for reblogging from me. Thank you for liking my posts. Thank you for sending me nice messages. Thank you for staying followed to me. Thank you for making my Tumblr experience amazing. Thank you.

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I'm seriously done with 2016. 2017 better be a better year or I'm gonna bite the fucking bullet.

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Guess who's gonna fuck up the best relationship ever because they're stupid? Me!!

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I just love being blamed for shit that you do to me as well. Can I just kill my self and get it over with?

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I'm gonna vomit and I can't sleep and fuck I high key wanna die

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Well there goes my good day.

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I see your name and boom; I'm back to square one of feeling like shit and I bet you don't give two shits about me.

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I'm about to have a complete and total breakdown, like I feel like shit and I'm so so tempted to relapse because my chest feels heavy and I feel alone and I hate myself and I hate this and I'm going crazy.

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I hate overthinking.

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Can anyone help?

If anyone is good at relationship advice, can you please send me a message, I have a few questions and could use some advice.

[sadlittleladybird]

lowkey want a boyfriend to make me feel special but then also don’t

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That moment when I have one and I lowkey wish I had my shitty ass ex back:

I’m pathetic.

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I'm horrible. What is wrong with me. Why do I care about someone who doesn't care about me? Why do I want to be with someone who literally gives no shits about me? Why do I think of someone like that when I have someone who treats me like I'm the most important person and who makes me smile and makes me feel special and like I actually mean something to them. What is wrong with me? Why can't I fucking get over you?