I think I'll Love You Better Now

Corbin Ashton | 26 | Behavioural Psychologist I'm cocky, egotistical, arrogant, a narsacist and just about every other dirty word you can think of, but that doesn't mean I don't get the job done.

[ccavill]

[candice-fuller-blog]

"It is my fault." Candy wasn’t even trying to deny it. Everything that was happening right now was her fault, no one else’s. He was right, he couldn’t blame Stace, because he wasn’t in a relationship with Stace, he was in one with her. "None of this if your fault, okay? You didn’t make me sleep with St—him. You’re a great boyfriend, I was just dumb enough to take you for granted." Letting out a soft sigh, she pushed some of her curly red hair behind her ear. "You were enough, I just….." Shaking her head, Candy wasn’t too sure if she had the words to explain what the fuck was wrong with because not even she knew. "I-I…I don’t know Corbin. Maybe I should leave alone. I don’t want to but maybe I should because all I’ve managed to do is fuck you up since the moment we met. Maybe you’re better off without me."

[corbin-ashton]

He could tell just by listening to her that she'd grown and done some soul searching, but that didn't make him any less angry at himself and her. Brushing his unbloodied thumb across her neck and looking into her eyes, he knew he missed her for sure. He'd tried to play it off and move on, but he knew he still loved her. "You say that, but I'll always feel like I wasn't enough. Like if I gave you more attention that anybody else's wouldn't matter." he admitted. "All I wanted was you but you wanted everything... And I couldn't give you that. I couldn't give the person I loved the most what she wanted and I don't feel like I can give anybody anything now. If you have all the answers, tell me why I still want you..."

[teen-wolf-archive]

[candice-fuller-blog]

Not caring about the expensive dress she had slaved over and made herself for the wedding, Candice dropped to her knees before Corbin as he slid down the wall. “No, I did this to you.” She shook her head, eyes shifting from the had she had been assessing to the man she had broken into pieces. “You didn’t do anything wrong, Corbin. You’re an amazing man—hell, you’re actually too good for me.” Candice said, her voice soft as she spoke. “I didn’t cheat on you because something is wrong with you, something is wrong with me. I took you for granted and I always seemed to fuck things up when it came to us and I went too far this time.” Sighing softly, she let go of the hand she was holding. “I’m sorry, I know that doesn’t at all fix what I did but I’m sorry and if I can go back and undo it, I would in a heartbeat. You were the best thing that ever happen to me…” Trailing off, she watched as Corbin stood onto his face and put back on the cold demeanor he had been sporting. “Do you want me to go?” She asked, looking up at him. 

[corbin-ashton]

He listened to her as he leaned back against the wall, wincing slightly and sighing with frustration."The thing that --" he chuckled,though there was no amusement in his voice."The thing that pisses me off the most is that I don't." Every time you... It is your fault -- I don't know how to control myself when it comes to you. Last time you did this,  I ended up in the hospital..." he said with a sigh, this time, at his own pathetic behavior. First a group of men, now he picked a fight with a wall. He shook his head at himself. "I can't even blame that ...asshole. I should blame you-- I do blame you-- but I also blame myself. I'm always wanting the impossible... Things I shouldn't try for... things I can't ever have...  I know I'm not perfect, but I love you and I was faithful. I never hurt you. Why wasnt that enough?" he asked, his eyes full of tears as he moved his hand to her neck. "Why couldn't that have been enough? Don't you know how to love somebody?"

[corbin-ashton]

WTF?!DONT DIE CAUSE I GAVE YOU HUGS AND SNACKS.THIS IS WHY I DONT BE NICE TO YOU PEOPLE

[corbin-ashton]

@ Andrew * hugs and gives snacks*

@ Miya you little shit

[candice-fuller-blog]

"What do you want from me?! You say you want me to leave you alone and yet you come here anyways. I try to give you the space that you want and yet, I’m getting screamed at for turning my back on you! What the fuck do you want from me?!” Candice snapped back quickly turning around as Corbin followed and shouted after her. “I have every right to be your verbal punching back because I get it, Corbin, I’m a whore and I fucked up. You don’t have to keep reminding me every single day, I’ve caught onto that fact very quickly, thank you very much.” While she knew she had no right to be, she was angry. “I’m a whore, a slut, I’m selfish, I’m careless, spoiled, reckless, and every other bad thing there is out in this world. I know, trust me, I know but that—Christ." Candice cut herself off the second Corbin punched the nearby wall. "What the fuck, Corbin!" She shrieked, rushing over to him and although she knew he’d try and fight her, she grabbed his hand anyways to assess the damage. "Oh my God, what have I done to you…." She muttered softly to herself. "You should…you need to get this cleaned up." 

[corbin-ashton]

His tough guy act went out the door as the pain short through his hand and arm, making him sink to the ground with his back against the wall he'd just attacked. He wasn't about to let the tears that threatened to spill from the pain,anger and frustration show, but through gritted teeth, he did swear to ease the pain. As she reached for him, he flinched,leaned away from her touch, but she pulled anyway. He winced,looking at her shaking his head as he tried to keep a brave face."You didn't do this to me, I did this to myself.I'm always doing things that I know are bad ideas.I'm not good enough for anyone.That's why I'm always losing not matter how much I win. That's why I could never keep you or anyone else happy enough to..." he stopped himself, biting his lip as he tried to rise to his feet and be manly, shaking off the hand as if the blood with a tiny bug."It's fine. I'll handle it.Don't you have a party to get back to? Don't let me stop you from turning away again.

[corbin-ashton]

Andino! *pounces*

[candice-fuller-blog]

Letting out a cough, Candice waved her hand around to get the smoke out of her face. She wanted to glare at Corbin, but she knew how he was acting was something that she deserved and had brought upon herself. “I may have a shitty way of showing it, but i still do care about you…” Candice uttered softly, letting out a deep sigh at Corbin’s words which still cut her to the core. “Right..of course you do…” She nodded, not wanting to fight with Corbin because there’d be no point. “I just—nevermind…I’ll…um—I’ll let you get back to…this.” She sighed again, turning on her heels and feeling defeated as she made her way back to the reception.

[corbin-ashton]

"Like fucking around?" he interjected, angry and bitter. He had a right to be, after all, but he was growing more angry at himself as they spoke, because apart from her betrayal,seeing her confirmed how he still felt about her. He gritted his teeth, trying to hold his words inside. She turned to walkaway and he felt that pull towards her, which he tried so hard to fight."Big surprise, you're waling away from me again.You know , I'm surprised I even recognize you with how much I see your back. he hiss. Anger boiled in his blood as his hands shook slightly. He tossed his cigarette to the ground and followed a few paces behind her as he yelled."You know , I blame myself for being such a fucking idiot and coming here to see you when I know that I'm just being a glutton for fucking punishment every time I try to be with you because you'll never change.You're spoiled,you're selfish, and you think people are toys you can play with until you're bored and get a new one like a dress or a pair of shoes and I just keep letting you --shit!" Corbin didn't realize when his fist clenched and raised, slamming into the nearby wall of stone. The ivy twisted up the white bricks beautiful, though now stained with the blood from his open knuckles as he gripped his hand in pain.

[candice-fuller-blog]

In a way, Candy was happy that Corbin had decided to show up to the wedding. While she had convinced herself that there wasn’t a chance in hell he’d ever forgive or take her back (not that she could blame him) that still didn’t make her miss him any less. Just seeing him was enough, even though Candy could tell there break up had been wearing on him. Which made this reunion somewhat bittersweet because she was the one who made him like this—she broke him. When he got up from the table, Candy could feel her body slump in defeat. God she had fucked this up badly. Running her fingers through her hair, she fought the urge to look too rejected. It was a wedding after all. Out of the corner of her eye she could see Cal giving her look that said ‘get off your ass and go after him’. Taking her glass of champagne, she downed the contents before getting out of her seat and following in the direction she had seen Corbin going in which lead her to the garden. “Since when did you start smoking?” Candy responded, answering his question with a question of her own.

[corbin-ashton]

He blew out the smoke as he turned to look at her , a brow cocked to enhance his skepticism as he bitterly asked"Since when do you care what I do?And since when did you start following me around? Last time I checked your taste was std carrying perverted old rockers who didn't know what a cut off age was and Hugh Hefner and his billion dollar boat."he scoffed. It was childish,but all he could do was be mean.He didn't want to breakdown and cry,not again.She'd already gotten the better of him that way once.Blowing smoke in her direction, Cobrin shrugged."I'm an adult,I do what I want. You know that better than anyone since you do who you want too, right?"

[corbin-ashton]

I don't know what to eat for breakfast. I want salad but I also want cereal but I also want that leftover pasta.

[ur-gorgeous]

[wtfcoltonhaynes]

[candice-fuller-blog]

To say things were awkward and tense between Candy and Corbin would be an understatement. The former couple hadn’t seen or talked to one another since Candy’s infidelity came to light. Candy had completely forgotten they had rsvp’d together for Caleb and Danielle’s wedding until she was reminded of the wedding. She didn’t think Corbin would go and yet…he was there, although the two barely spoke or looked at one another for a majority of the day. For such a loving occasion, no love was spared between the former flames. With the ceremony over, Candy timidly made her way over to the table, spotting Corbin already. Taking a seat, she cleared her throat before chancing a look at him. “I…um…you don’t have to…y’know stay for the rest of the reception if you don’t want.”

[corbin-ashton]

"Don't, Candice. Just don't." Why did he show up here? Because he wanted to see her.She was treacherous and low and he couldn't have hated her more for cheating on him, but he also loved her. She hadn't been around in the last two months and there wasn't a night that he didn't spend on the couch in his office wondering who she was with and what she was doing. He was hurt, and he wanted to hurt her the way she hurt him, but nothing came to mind."I didn't come here for you." he lied."Cal and Danny have done a lot for me lately. I came her to be respectful. Some  people know how to treat people they care about.Or at least claim to. "he bit back in a low tone.It was true that Danny had taken time to bring him a meal or two and tried to talk to him while Cal tried to help out Candy. Even Fae kept texting him. He wasn't dumb,he knew they were all trying to get him back with Candy, that they were all on her side and wanted him to be forgiving. Why should he? Why did he have to be the mature and forgiving one? Why wasn't he ruthless and mean? Why did he still love her. The good didn't outweigh the bad for him and yet, he still wanted her. He still felt that spark of love and that pull between them, like they were meant to be together, even if she kept fucking it up. The pull was so strong that Corbin sighed and rose from his seat, fishing in his pocket for a cigarette to calm his nerves as he left the dining area and looked for space in the garden. Lighting up on the way. "Why are you following me?" he asked, pausing but not turning to face her.

[corbin-ashton]

They had stared awkwardly at each other for hours, avoiding talking or even getting to close,but as the reception gathered, Corbin wasn't surprised to find that his seat was next to Candy's.He wasn't going to cause a scene,but there was a visible discomfort that he guessed Danny and Caleb didn't take into account when they planned this little reunion. With a sigh, he sat down, staring blankly ahead as Candy joined him.

[corbin-ashton]

Future Week: Canbin

[candice-fuller-blog]

"How am I horrible?! Getting pregnant is basically the closest thing to Ebola out there!" Candice dramatically retorted. "Well good, I’m happy when I’m around her too. Like I said, she really does help me out a lot when it comes to work, so it’s kinda hard for me to treat her as anything else. Plus, she’s family, you don’t do that to family—you accept them no matter what." She smiled back. "No…not exactly. Is that bad? I mean, I know a lot of people, especially girls my age, are mothers or want to be one. But I kinda like…don’t. Besides the whole pregnancy and giving birth thing, I’d be a horrible mother, I’m selfish and not that nurturing and I can barely take care of myself. How can I expect to take care of a kid?"

[corbin-ashton]

"Seriously? Candice,you've grownup a lot.You don't give yourself enough credit for it.You're not the same person you were when we first met,and you sure arent' as selfish as you think.Maybe being a mother isn't for you,maybe you just don't want kids -- a lot of women don't in this day and age, that's normal. Even if you do't feel particularly maternal,  you can't still think of yourself as that immature ans selfish girl you were all those year ago. You take care of me, Steph,Fae, you care about the girls you help raise awareness for, you do more for people than you let on.  You're not that girl.You're a woman. A smart, mature, sophisticated,kind-hearted woman  who grew up the hardest way she could.I'm actually proud of who you are, Candice.You can take care of yourself better than you think."

[corbin-ashton]

If we every do au ship week I'm gonna man whore the fuck out of Corbin