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He could tell just by listening to her that she’d grown and done some soul searching, but that didn’t make him any less angry at himself and her. Brushing his unbloodied thumb across her neck and looking into her eyes, he knew he missed her for sure. He’d tried to play it off and move on, but he knew he still loved her. “You say that, but I’ll always feel like I wasn’t enough. Like if I gave you more attention that anybody else’s wouldn’t matter.” he admitted. “All I wanted was you but you wanted everything… And I couldn’t give you that. I couldn’t give the person I loved the most what she wanted and I don’t feel like I can give anybody anything now. If you have all the answers, tell me why I still want you…”

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When he reached out to her, Candy briefly flinched, unsure of what he was going to do until she felt his thumb brush against her skin. That simple touch made her break as she felt the tears well up in her eyes because she missed his embrace so much. Turning her head away from him slightly because she felt she had no right to cry, Candy’s eyes closed as she tried to hold in the tears that threatened to fall. “I am so, so so sorry.” She whispered, her voice laced with remorse and regret. “I don’t know why I did it. I really don’t because you’re amazing and you’ve been so good to me and I love you. I just--....” Pausing, Candy sucked in a deep breath and forced her eyes to reopen and look at him again. “I don’t have all the answers, Corbin. Just don’t blame yourself for me being a fuck up. I know I don’t have a right to ask you for anything but I need you to not blame yourself for what I did because none of it was your fault. I did this to us, not you, and knowing me, I probably didn’t even need a reason to do so.” With a sigh, she realized just how horrible this was. “I’m a terrible person--like I am literally the shittiest person in the world. I don’t know why you still want me, but you shouldn’t, you can...and you deserve someone who is way better than me.” Reluctantly, Candy pulled away from his touch and stood onto her feet. “I really should go, I think I’ve caused you enough pain for not only a day but a lifetime.”

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He listened to her as he leaned back against the wall, wincing slightly and sighing with frustration.”The thing that —” he chuckled,though there was no amusement in his voice.”The thing that pisses me off the most is that I don’t.” Every time you… It is your fault — I don’t know how to control myself when it comes to you. Last time you did this, I ended up in the hospital…” he said with a sigh, this time, at his own pathetic behavior. First a group of men, now he picked a fight with a wall. He shook his head at himself. “I can’t even blame that …asshole. I should blame you— I do blame you— but I also blame myself. I’m always wanting the impossible… Things I shouldn’t try for… things I can’t ever have… I know I’m not perfect, but I love you and I was faithful. I never hurt you. Why wasnt that enough?” he asked, his eyes full of tears as he moved his hand to her neck. “Why couldn’t that have been enough? Don’t you know how to love somebody?”

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"It is my fault." Candy wasn't even trying to deny it. Everything that was happening right now was her fault, no one else's. He was right, he couldn't blame Stace, because he wasn't in a relationship with Stace, he was in one with her. "None of this if your fault, okay? You didn't make me sleep with St--him. You're a great boyfriend, I was just dumb enough to take you for granted." Letting out a soft sigh, she pushed some of her curly red hair behind her ear. "You were enough, I just....." Shaking her head, Candy wasn't too sure if she had the words to explain what the fuck was wrong with because not even she knew. "I-I...I don't know Corbin. Maybe I should leave alone. I don't want to but maybe I should because all I've managed to do is fuck you up since the moment we met. Maybe you're better off without me."

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[canons that candy's look has been more natural than more done up as of late.]

like she's been wearing her hair curly and the makeup isn't as heavy as it normally is and i'm sobbing at the image of her with flowers in her hair at canielle's wedding.

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His tough guy act went out the door as the pain short through his hand and arm, making him sink to the ground with his back against the wall he’d just attacked. He wasn’t about to let the tears that threatened to spill from the pain,anger and frustration show, but through gritted teeth, he did swear to ease the pain. As she reached for him, he flinched,leaned away from her touch, but she pulled anyway. He winced,looking at her shaking his head as he tried to keep a brave face.”You didn’t do this to me, I did this to myself.I’m always doing things that I know are bad ideas.I’m not good enough for anyone.That’s why I’m always losing not matter how much I win. That’s why I could never keep you or anyone else happy enough to…” he stopped himself, biting his lip as he tried to rise to his feet and be manly, shaking off the hand as if the blood with a tiny bug.”It’s fine. I’ll handle it.Don’t you have a party to get back to? Don’t let me stop you from turning away again.

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Not caring about the expensive dress she had slaved over and made herself for the wedding, Candice dropped to her knees before Corbin as he slid down the wall. "No, I did this to you." She shook her head, eyes shifting from the had she had been assessing to the man she had broken into pieces. "You didn't do anything wrong, Corbin. You're an amazing man--hell, you're actually too good for me." Candice said, her voice soft as she spoke. "I didn't cheat on you because something is wrong with you, something is wrong with me. I took you for granted and I always seemed to fuck things up when it came to us and I went too far this time." Sighing softly, she let go of the hand she was holding. "I'm sorry, I know that doesn't at all fix what I did but I'm sorry and if I can go back and undo it, I would in a heartbeat. You were the best thing that ever happen to me..." Trailing off, she watched as Corbin stood onto his face and put back on the cold demeanor he had been sporting. "Do you want me to go?" She asked, looking up at him.

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"Like fucking around?" he interjected, angry and bitter. He had a right to be, after all, but he was growing more angry at himself as they spoke, because apart from her betrayal,seeing her confirmed how he still felt about her. He gritted his teeth, trying to hold his words inside. She turned to walkaway and he felt that pull towards her, which he tried so hard to fight."Big surprise, you’re waling away from me again.You know , I’m surprised I even recognize you with how much I see your back. he hiss. Anger boiled in his blood as his hands shook slightly. He tossed his cigarette to the ground and followed a few paces behind her as he yelled."You know , I blame myself for being such a fucking idiot and coming here to see you when I know that I’m just being a glutton for fucking punishment every time I try to be with you because you’ll never change.You’re spoiled,you’re selfish, and you think people are toys you can play with until you’re bored and get a new one like a dress or a pair of shoes and I just keep letting you —shit!" Corbin didn’t realize when his fist clenched and raised, slamming into the nearby wall of stone. The ivy twisted up the white bricks beautiful, though now stained with the blood from his open knuckles as he gripped his hand in pain.

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"What do you want from me?! You say you want me to leave you alone and yet you come here anyways. I try to give you the space that you want and yet, I'm getting screamed at for turning my back on you! What the fuck do you want from me?!" Candice snapped back quickly turning around as Corbin followed and shouted after her. "I have every right to be your verbal punching back because I get it, Corbin, I'm a whore and I fucked up. You don't have to keep reminding me every single day, I've caught onto that fact very quickly, thank you very much." While she knew she had no right to be, she was angry. "I'm a whore, a slut, I'm selfish, I'm careless, spoiled, reckless, and every other bad thing there is out in this world. I know, trust me, I know but that--Christ." Candice cut herself off the second Corbin punched the nearby wall. "What the fuck, Corbin!" She shrieked, rushing over to him and although she knew he'd try and fight her, she grabbed his hand anyways to assess the damage. "Oh my God, what have I done to you...." She muttered softly to herself. "You should...you need to get this cleaned up."

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He blew out the smoke as he turned to look at her , a brow cocked to enhance his skepticism as he bitterly asked”Since when do you care what I do?And since when did you start following me around? Last time I checked your taste was std carrying perverted old rockers who didn’t know what a cut off age was and Hugh Hefner and his billion dollar boat.”he scoffed. It was childish,but all he could do was be mean.He didn’t want to breakdown and cry,not again.She’d already gotten the better of him that way once.Blowing smoke in her direction, Cobrin shrugged.”I’m an adult,I do what I want. You know that better than anyone since you do who you want too, right?”

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Letting out a cough, Candice waved her hand around to get the smoke out of her face. She wanted to glare at Corbin, but she knew how he was acting was something that she deserved and had brought upon herself. "I may have a shitty way of showing it, but i still do care about you..." Candice uttered softly, letting out a deep sigh at Corbin's words which still cut her to the core. "Right..of course you do..." She nodded, not wanting to fight with Corbin because there'd be no point. "I just--nevermind...I'll...um--I'll let you get back to...this." She sighed again, turning on her heels and feeling defeated as she made her way back to the reception.

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"Don’t, Candice. Just don’t." Why did he show up here? Because he wanted to see her.She was treacherous and low and he couldn’t have hated her more for cheating on him, but he also loved her. She hadn’t been around in the last two months and there wasn’t a night that he didn’t spend on the couch in his office wondering who she was with and what she was doing. He was hurt, and he wanted to hurt her the way she hurt him, but nothing came to mind."I didn’t come here for you." he lied."Cal and Danny have done a lot for me lately. I came her to be respectful. Some people know how to treat people they care about.Or at least claim to. "he bit back in a low tone.It was true that Danny had taken time to bring him a meal or two and tried to talk to him while Cal tried to help out Candy. Even Fae kept texting him. He wasn’t dumb,he knew they were all trying to get him back with Candy, that they were all on her side and wanted him to be forgiving. Why should he? Why did he have to be the mature and forgiving one? Why wasn’t he ruthless and mean? Why did he still love her. The good didn’t outweigh the bad for him and yet, he still wanted her. He still felt that spark of love and that pull between them, like they were meant to be together, even if she kept fucking it up. The pull was so strong that Corbin sighed and rose from his seat, fishing in his pocket for a cigarette to calm his nerves as he left the dining area and looked for space in the garden. Lighting up on the way. "Why are you following me?" he asked, pausing but not turning to face her.

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In a way, Candy was happy that Corbin had decided to show up to the wedding. While she had convinced herself that there wasn't a chance in hell he'd ever forgive or take her back (not that she could blame him) that still didn't make her miss him any less. Just seeing him was enough, even though Candy could tell there break up had been wearing on him. Which made this reunion somewhat bittersweet because she was the one who made him like this--she broke him. When he got up from the table, Candy could feel her body slump in defeat. God she had fucked this up badly. Running her fingers through her hair, she fought the urge to look too rejected. It was a wedding after all. Out of the corner of her eye she could see Cal giving her look that said 'get off your ass and go after him'. Taking her glass of champagne, she downed the contents before getting out of her seat and following in the direction she had seen Corbin going in which lead her to the garden. "Since when did you start smoking?" Candy responded, answering his question with a question of her own.