That watch became everything the outside world was. Delia had the capability to inject poetry into simple tragedy. Meaning provided to the smallest things. His thumb ran over the crack in the glass Cordelia pointed out. “Alright. So it didn’t walk itself out here to the beach. And you’re certain Tao never made it here either.” And if Alex took it and thoughtlessly left the watch in the sand, well. He didn’t mean anything by it– fucking hell. A rush of air hissed between his teeth. “Oh? And here I am just learning you two are besties.” Actual stealing and potential stealing apparently now both acceptable on Meridium. Typical.
Not that Kaz shared any of Alex’s ransacking with Cordelia for her to understand his sudden irritation. “Wouldn’t say he’s good or bad. A clueless dickhead is all.” Still, it did not make a whole hell of a lot of sense. If Alex took a dead man’s watch, what was it doing out on the beach. Beyond that, Cordelia’s eyes stayed wild and open. He heard her heart as it continued to thump unbearably fast.
At first, Kaz expected the mention of Wren to go as usual. A cute island baby who bopped happily around. The soft crinkle of an adorable button nose, the sweet as cane sugar smile. Impressions of Wren did not waver in his experience. Cordelia told him before that Mei died in the labyrinth too, but… “Wait, wait. What are you telling me?” This entire time, the body– it was Mei?
“I mean. The ring was here with the watch.” Made sense in his mind. She was still rattled, so Kaz left those conclusions there in the sand too. And perhaps things hadn’t been so rosy for Tao and Cordelia. Everyone has problems. He heard his mother say the same thing to Ani once. Did Tao treat a stupid old broken watch with more care and concern than he did Cordelia– was that what she was trying to say?
He went silent. She elaborated without giving much more away. Kaz’s jaw locked tight for a few seconds. “You wouldn’t have to go back to anything.” Firm and final. “But you’ve been so certain too. That he’s gone.” Fingers curled over the watch. Then, his hand opened again. “I’m guessing you don’t want this. So let’s see what happens to it.” Kaz tossed the piece back into the shifting sand.
He laughed, short and clipped. “There’s a chance, yeah. This could all be the island fucking with you. I’ve seen shit that wasn’t there before. Or, like. The beast. Made me think it was Carmen.” And Ani, but he’d rather forget it. “Made me think my night terrors were following me in the daytime. It’s what I was getting at while ago. It’s not the labyrinth. But it’s not harmless out here either.” Far from it.
“I’d check around. See if anyone found the watch and, I dunno. Left it here for some fucked up reason.” He stared blankly at the watch. “Maybe we should fucking destroy it, hm? We’d know for sure it’s gone then.”
“If Tao would have made it here, I’d know. People would know. If nobody else, the other castaways would know and would have told me. Redirected him to me,” Cordelia shook her head. There was no way she could not know if Tao got to the beach. There was just simply no possible way. (Was she also trying to convince herself? Maybe.)
Her eyebrows rose at the sudden animosity towards Alex and the apparent bestie statues, as Kaz put it. “I’m allowed friends, Kaz,” she said, her voice sharp, strict - even though probably calling anyone a friend of Cordelia was a stretch, considering how she has kept everyone at an arm’s length, even in the Labyrinth and she had to now figure out how to actually make friends, wanted to make the connections she hasn’t in the past. But if anyone was her friend, it was Alex, and just because the two of them didn’t get along, that didn’t mean she wanted to hear them bash at each other. “Don’t talk about him like that. You don’t know him, sure, and he told me you aren’t the best of friends, but then just don’t assume the worst of him, please.”
The conversation shifted from Alex to Wren and Cordelia rubbed her face. “She killed Mei,” she said it quietly. Wasn’t even sure why she was keeping her voice down, but part of her felt like she should have done something about the information instead of just-- letting it go. But after the initial shock of the revelation, that feeling of relief got to her that she felt right after. And it wasn’t really Wren’s fault, she recognize the fire craze from a mile away. “I don’t even know how it all happened, it was so fast, but it was her thinking-- thinking she was protecting me, that she was fighting a monster. I didn’t know who it was until I ran into her on the beach.”
The ring was here with the watch. But Cordelia didn’t want to believe it. Because the watch could be explained away. It could have some kind of logical explanation, even if it was unlucky. But the watch with the ring? Why would anyone steal a wedding ring from somebody? It would have to mean-- so no, the ring was probably just her mind playing tricks on her.
She let out a bitter, breathless chuckle. “I wouldn’t have to go back to anything, yeah, sure. I kept telling myself that I didn’t have to do certain things, Kaz, for most of my life. And then eventually, mostly sooner than later, I did the thing I was telling myself I didn’t have to anyway.” Would she go back to Tao after all this time? Would she have ever seperated from him if he didn’t try to kill her in a fire craze and she found herself completely alone for the first time in her life, or would she still be with him if she wasn’t forced not to be? Was she still a coward, just thrust into a whole different situation? Probably.
She didn’t want to think about it, though, and instead she focused on his statement afterward and gave a nod. “He is gone. He has to be gone, Kaz, the state he was in. There was no way there is any coming back from it.” But her voice didn’t sound so certain anymore, more like she was trying to convince herself of her own words, not just Kaz.
The island was prone to make people see tihngs, believe what wasn’t the truth. “If this is all just that - the island making me believe, as bad as it sounds, I’m going to be happy. I-- if this is all just some kind of hallucination, somehow, both of us tripping the same thing, I am good with that. I can accept that.” There was more harm in Tao actually being here, she felt that. “It’s probably either the island, or somebody got it somehow. That must be it.” It was a decision as much as a statement - she’d believe it was either, and not worry about the other possibility.
Still, when he suggested destroying the watch, Cordelia was all for it. For a second her stomach lurched, that instinct of what would Tao say, but she quickly pushed it away and raised her hands, pulled her palms apart and created a pressurized air around the watch - held it there for a moment, an inch above the sand, and then pushed her palms together and pushed the pressure in, destroying the watch. “That-- that actually felt really good.”