All I am surrounded by, is fear and dead men

[corruptedforce]

This blog is the main blog for Anakin Skywalker and by extension, Darth Vader, but also has my multimuse sideblog crowsandmurder attached to it as well as my sideblogs, aelfred and louisleroisoleil.  So, follows from here may be for any of them, as well.

I write on Discord as well.  Feel free to ask for my Discord.  Anakin started on crowsandmurder in June and moved here in September of 2022. Affiliated with moonofiego, bchemianrhapscody and mayxthexforce.

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[corruptedforce]

I know I have some insanely late replies and starters but who wants something from Anakin or Vader?

[corruptedforce]

@mayxthexforce gets Chosen One/Force Ghost Anakin bugging Obi-Wan

Being the Chosen One was incredibly boring sometimes. Anakin didn't get to just become one with the force energy like everyone else, eventually. He was some sort of guardian, who still watched over Ahsoka and people who he cared about, who quite frankly did not always make the best decisions. He had retained every bit of his memories too, and it was all a part of who he was now. Obi-Wan had helped him become a force ghost, but he didn't stay long. He had fulfilled his purpose and told him that his journey was still ahead. Why did he have to be so cryptic about everything? That never stopped.

But, he was the Chosen One. He had a ton of power in many different ways. So, he was in Obi-Wan's old cave in Tatooine. What possessed him to live here? He hated this place when he was a force ghost as much as he had a child. This was just weird. Him and his nomadic Jedi ways.

Finally, he focused his force powers and enjoyed the meditation. Those feelings always made him feel so connected to the force and the force was truly everything to him, and eventually, he found his old mentor's energy, and metaphorically knocked, while pulling him out of probably peace and quiet, summoning his force ghost essence. He was bored and he had questions for Obi-Wan.

[corruptedforce]

@mayxthexforce gets post ROTJ Vader who doesn't know what he wants to be called

Surgery. He hadn't liked it the last time or this time, although this time, he at least got to be asleep. When he woke up, he really could see. His hearing was better. A lot of things were better, more natural, but he wasn't sure how he felt about that. He'd been recovering at the Rebel Base for quite some time now. These things took time. His breathing wasn't perfect. He sometimes needed a rebreather collar, sometimes a mask, sometimes needed to be in a meditation chamber. His lungs were regenerating or something fancy like that. Apparently, there had been advances in medicine or maybe he was just never allowed near it.

He hated looking at himself. His self-hate was so deep, so palpable, that sometimes he thought he'd lunge at the image. But, he had felt that way since before he had become a Sith. What was he now? He wasn't a Sith? He damn well wasn't a Jedi? He actually threw something at Luke earlier, when Luke asked if maybe, he wanted to be a Jedi.

Technically, he supposed he was the last man standing of the original Jedi Council, but no. His hypocrisy only went so far. It had gone better for Luke, than the Rebel Pilot, who asked him if he was a Rebel Pilot. They had to have a conversation about why force choking people was not good behavior. He was trying, and had chosen to turn back to the light, but that didn't mean he was perfect.

He was lurking in the corners of the Rebel base today. He lurked a lot. It was especially easy, when he didn't have anything loud breathing for him. He had a hood up, but he was watching. He felt anger. Her anger. She was angry at him. Her anger came off of her, the way that his always had. Did he get angry like that anymore? Maybe once or twice.

He should leave her alone and not speak to her. He should. But, he was Anakin Skywalker. He always had to have the last word. He was fixing a ship for them, anyway. He spoke as he walked by. "You know, the longer you stay angry at me, the more you are like me. We have similar anger patterns. But then again, you're a Rebel. Oh and if that idiot you're fond of says that I tried to break his stupid ship on purpose to sabotage him, he is lying. He just doesn't know how to fly a ship."

[sidestuiff]

Touch my muse! Touching is a quiet way of conveying your feelings, so tell me how you feel with your touch!

Top of head: Sibling affection/parental affection

Hair: Yearning

Ear: "I want you to hear me out."

Nose: "You're so cute."

Cheek: "I want to tell you I love you."/Deep affection/Devotion

Neck: Dislike/Hate/Disdain

Shoulder: Worry/Concern for other/Fear

Waist: Possessiveness/"You are mine."

Over the heart: "I love you."

Butt: Sexual attractiveness/lust

Hip: Interest

Back: Wanting to kill/will betray you one day

Stomach: Fun!/Silliness/"Wanna go cause some trouble?"

Forearm: Indifference/Don't particularly care for

Biceps: Aggravation/Irritation/"You are an idiot."

Fingers: Friendship/amicable

Wrist: Fear of losing you

Knee: "Don't worry, I'm here for you."

Chin: Beauty/attractiveness

Thigh: Sympathy/empathy

Calves: "I will cause you pain."

Feet: "I will serve you forever."/Deep devotion and and feelings of servitude/extreme fealty

[bassettmemes]

i dont care if we have 10 threads together. i dont care if we have 20. send the meme. write the starter. scream in my inbox. lets start another one. we have six ships? make it seven. canon characters? lets give them an au. i want all. the. things.

[bisexualvader]

"It is a story of love and loss, brotherhood and betrayal, courage and sacrifice and the death of dreams. It is a story of the blurred line between our best and our worst."

Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith Novelization by Matthew Stover

[corruptedforce]

I am on my I am analyzing every single part of Darth Vader shit right now, which means I will likely be here. I am so damn tired of Christmas Break.

[thunderousmemes]

𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏-𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 & 𝐏𝐎𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 (bleary eyes, tangled sheets, and minds that won’t stop)

Insomnia

❝ Can’t sleep again… do you ever feel like your brain just won’t let you rest? ❞

❝ It’s 3 a.m. and I swear the walls are whispering my name. ❞

❝ Another sleepless night. I think I’m starting to forget what normal feels like. ❞

❝ I’ve counted sheep, read books, stared at the ceiling… nothing works. ❞

❝ You awake too? Maybe insomnia is contagious. ❞

Groggy Mornings

❝ Don’t talk to me before coffee. Actually… don’t talk to me at all. ❞

❝ How is it morning already? I feel like I just closed my eyes. ❞

❝ I think I slept with my eyes open again. ❞

❝ Why does the world insist on being awake while I’m still half-dead? ❞

❝ I’m running on three hours of sleep and too much caffeine. Help me. ❞

Late-night Wandering

❝ I shouldn’t be awake, but here I am… wandering the streets like a zombie. ❞

❝ Why do my thoughts sound louder at night? ❞

❝ I can’t stop pacing… maybe someone should stop me before I go insane. ❞

❝ The world is quiet at night… except in my head. ❞

❝ I don’t even remember what it’s like to just sleep. ❞

Coffee & Desperation

❝ I need caffeine… yesterday. ❞

❝ Don’t judge me for three cups before 9 a.m. I need survival tactics. ❞

❝ I may be awake, but I’m definitely not functioning. ❞

❝ You feel that? That’s me vibrating from too much energy and too little sleep. ❞

❝ Coffee is my lifeline… don’t take it away. ❞

Bed & Chaos

❝ I think I just slept in the wrong position… my body hates me. ❞

❝ Half my blankets are on the floor, but I can’t bother moving. ❞

❝ I just fell asleep sitting up… should I be proud or worried? ❞

❝ My alarm went off an hour ago. I’m still not moving. ❞

❝ I swear my pillow is judging me for failing to rest properly. ❞

Mind Racing

❝ Why am I thinking about that moment from ten years ago? At 2 a.m.? ❞

❝ I can’t sleep because my brain decided to rewatch every embarrassing thing I’ve ever done. ❞

❝ Sleep would be nice… if only my thoughts would stop arguing. ❞

❝ My imagination refuses to shut off. Can someone hit “pause” for me? ❞

❝ I’m wide awake and it’s entirely the fault of my overthinking. ❞

[thunderousmemes]

𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐂 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 & 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓-𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒

(love dies slow, silence lingers, and not every goodbye is clean.)

Broken Promises

❝ don’t go—please, not yet. ❞

❝ you’re bleeding—don’t you dare close your eyes. ❞

❝ we both knew this day would come. ❞

❝ tell me you love me, even if it’s a lie. ❞

❝ why couldn’t it have been me instead? ❞

❝ i can’t hate you, no matter how much i want to. ❞

❝ don’t you dare die on me. ❞

❝ this isn’t how our story was supposed to end. ❞

The Things we Couldn’t Save

❝ you made me believe in forever—how cruel of you. ❞

❝ they said it would hurt less if i let you go. they lied. ❞

❝ we were supposed to save each other. ❞

❝ say goodbye, and make it sound like you mean it. ❞

❝ you’re all i ever wanted… and all i can never have. ❞

❝ don’t waste your tears. i don’t deserve them. ❞

❝ the worst part is knowing you’ll move on. ❞

❝ i’d trade the whole world just to have one more day with you. ❞

If Only / Maybe / What if

❝ you promised me you’d come back. ❞

❝ how many times can a heart break before it stops trying? ❞

❝ you don’t have to forgive me—just don’t forget me. ❞

❝ i wish i’d told you sooner. ❞

❝ it was always going to be you. ❞

❝ i can’t lose you. not again. ❞

❝ if this is the end, let me die with you. ❞

❝ maybe in another life, we get it right. ❞

Final Words

❝ say something. anything. don’t leave me in silence. ❞

❝ you were my reason to fight… and now you’re gone. ❞

❝ it’s not fair—after everything we’ve survived, it ends like this? ❞

❝ don’t look back. i want the last thing you see to be hope. ❞

❝ i kept your name on my lips long after you stopped saying mine. ❞

❝ they told me to forget you. i tried. ❞

❝ i loved you too much to let you stay. ❞

❝ if i make it out, i’ll tell them how you smiled at the end. ❞

The Quiet After

❝ it’s not the dying that hurts—it’s leaving you behind. ❞

❝ you deserved better than me. ❞

❝ don’t wait for me. i won’t be coming back. ❞

❝ we could’ve had forever, if only we’d met at a different time. ❞

❝ the stars look the same, but they don’t feel like ours anymore. ❞

❝ i’ll haunt you if that’s what it takes to be remembered. ❞

❝ even now, you’re still breaking my heart. ❞

❝ you were the best mistake i ever made. ❞

[bisexualvader]

"It is only natural. He cut off your arm, you wanted revenge. It wasn't the first time, Anakin."

[bisexualvader]

"It is a story of love and loss, brotherhood and betrayal, courage and sacrifice and the death of dreams. It is a story of the blurred line between our best and our worst."

Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith Novelization by Matthew Stover

[corruptedforce]

Many of you know I lost my husband last year.

Things I say to @mayxthexforce:

"I have a huge portrait of him in the living room. I keep it next to my poster of Vader storming the temple."

[mayxthexforce]

Sabé huffed in amusement. Even when he was having a career crisis —or more like an identity crisis, given that being a Jedi was far more than a career—, Anakin couldn't help but be goofy. She loved that about him, even if the mention of Obi-Wan and his need to compare himself to his General Kenobi made her roll her eyes.

"You are you and Obi-Wan is Obi-Wan, both of you have your strengths and your weaknesses," she said, because she wasn't about to go into an Obi-Wan debate. "Obviously I like you more, or I wouldn't be pregnant with your child. I care about you, regardless of what path you take in life. I knew what I was signing up for when I married you and I am not going to walk away or feel less love for you just because you decide that the Jedi path is no longer for you. Besides... I do like a man who can make choices for himself."

He'd explained what the chosen one prophecy involved more than once and while Sabé understood the significance it held for the Jedi, it meant nothing to her. It seemed wild for one man to be destined since birth to bring balance to something as big and all-encompassing as the force.

But she understood all too well what it felt like not to know how to be her own person, losing the purpose she had dedicated her entire life to since a very young age. That was something she knew all too well.

"You improvise," she pointed out. "That is what I did and it turned out pretty good for me. You are far better than me at improvising, Mr. Land Half A Ship. You'll be fine." her hand rested on his forearm, tracing the lines on the prosthetic. "Besides, you will still have Obi-Wan. He's not going to leave you to figure things out on your own just because you're not a Jedi anymore, you two are family. Who knows? Maybe stepping away from the war and the order will fix some of the tension between you two."

[corruptedforce]

He had a bit of an inferiority complex when it came to Obi-Wan, even though he knew that he was better than him and far more powerful. It wasn't that he hated Obi-Wan. It was just, he was tired of all of it. He was tired of being told what to do, having to live within rules of the Jedi Council, without having their respect. They all knew what his power was, that he was the Chosen One. But, he was tired of being part of the Jedi.

"I have never been allowed to make choices for myself. Slavery, Jedi, and whatever else I decide. I am not stupid. I feel a pull towards the Dark Side and whoever the Sith Lord is, I am sure is trying to pull me towards it. But, I don't even know if the Sith Life is for me, either. I'm intrigued by that side of the force, as well, but I am so tired of these groups."

He smiled at her. "I know, but stepping away from the war is the hard part. I am proud of the General part of me, just tired of the Jedi part and I cannot be a Separatist. Separatists disgust me."

[resourcesofaqueen]

Spicy Secrets: 45 Questions to Bare It All A series of bold, bedroom-ready questions for every canon and original character.

Which position makes you feel the most powerful during sex?

Do you prefer to be in control, or do you like letting someone else take the lead?

What’s the one spot on your body that drives you wild when touched?

Have you ever faked an orgasm? Be honest.

What’s your favorite way to tease a partner before things get serious?

Are you satisfied with your body, or is there one feature you’d change if you could?

Do you like dirty talk? If yes, what kind of words get you going?

What’s the most public place you’ve ever been intimate, or wanted to be?

Do you prefer slow, sensual sex or fast and rough?

What’s one fantasy you’ve never told anyone?

Do you like being watched, or do you prefer total privacy?

What’s the sexiest thing someone has ever said to you?

Do you enjoy giving or receiving more?

Have you ever had a one-night stand? Would you do it again?

What’s your favorite piece of lingerie or lack thereof?

Do you like using toys in the bedroom?

What’s the longest you’ve gone without sex, and how did it affect your mood?

Do you prefer morning sex, midnight passion, or something in between?

What’s one thing you’ve done in bed that surprised even you?

Do you like leaving marks on your partner or having them leave marks on you?

What’s your biggest turn-on that most people wouldn’t guess?

Have you ever been caught in the act? spill the details.

Do you like role-playing? If so, what scenario gets you going?

What’s the most sensitive part of your body that isn’t obvious?

Do you prefer eye contact during intimacy, or do you like to close your eyes and feel?

What’s one thing you’d never try in bed, no matter what?

Do you like being praised or degraded during sex?

What’s the best kiss you’ve ever had and what made it so good?

Do you enjoy foreplay more than the main event, or is it just a means to an end?

If you could have sex with anyone (real or fictional, past or present), who would it be, and why?

Which scent on a lover makes you lose control instantly?

Do you prefer silk sheets, leather cuffs, or nothing at all?

What’s the one sound you make that you hope no one ever records?

Have you ever used your powers, or lack thereof, in bed?

What’s the riskiest text you’ve ever sent mid-foreplay?

Do you like your hair pulled, or are you the one doing the pulling?

What’s the most unexpected place your hands have wandered?

Do you keep a secret toy hidden somewhere no one would guess?

What’s one rule you’d break for the right person?

Do you prefer whispered promises or loud commands?

What’s the fastest you’ve ever gone from “hello” to skin on skin?

Have you ever left a lover begging for more and walked away?

What’s the one body part you’re secretly obsessed with on someone else?

Do you like tasting yourself on someone else’s lips?

What’s the filthiest thought you’ve had in the middle of a boring day?

[corruptedforce]

No matter how long I am gone, I can always count on coming back and someone debating if it would have been better for Anakin not to fall.

Anakin's path was predetermined, and to achieve balance in the Force, he needed to understand all its elements. force, he needed to know all elements. Balancing the force was not about Jedi and/or Sith. It's about the force. Anakin never lost faith in the force. Even when he was more about the Dark Side, Imperial officers ridiculed his belief in the force.

We've seen in series like Ahsoka, that his path is still not over. He is the chosen one and everything that happened, had to happen. He was never going to be an average guy. He is more or less a demigod and while his mortal body failed him eventually, he still has purpose vs becoming one with the force, like other force ghosts.

There is a specific reason why he was and continues to be regarded as the Chosen One. Even though it was in the World between Worlds, it is our first time seeing just how powerful he is when every part of his power is altogether.

He was never meant to be merely a father and husband. He could have been that too, had he been trusted. But, it didn't go that way.

As Matthew Stover said,

"This story happened a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away. It is already over. Nothing can be done to change it."

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄, 𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄, 𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 .    (  a collection of  dialogue prompts centered around saying "please".   feel free to modify phrasing as desired.  )

please just be honest with me.

oh, please explain how this is my fault.

please don't look at me like that.

please, let's not do this here.

for once, could you please stop pretending?

please just kiss me, i can't stand it.

please don't walk away from this.

all you have to do is say please.

please, i dare you to try and stop me.

please don't tell anyone i said that.

i said please, so technically you have to say yes.

please tell me you brought snacks.

please don't take this the wrong way.

please, i've waited so long to hear you say it.

i said i'm fine, please just drop it.

please don't lie just to make me feel better.

please don't judge me for what i'm about to do.

please just let me help you.

if you love me, say it. please.

just stay here with me all day. pleaase?

please don't ruin this for me.

please just leave me out of it.

tell me you love me ... please.

can you please slow down?

please tell me there's still a chance.

can you please just get some sleep?

please, i don't want to lose you again.

i'm not asking– i'm begging you. please.

please don't make fun of me.

i want you to leave. please leave right now.

please, it's nothing.

i don't like to beg, but... please.

pleaase? i promise it'll be fun.

tell me it's a lie. please.

come on, please? just this once?

please don't jump to assumptions.

please, [ name ], just stay here.

you promised ... please.

please. i need you to trust me.

please don't go.

i know i don't deserve it, but please forgive me.

please, let me fix this.

did i hear a 'please' in there somewhere?

please. one more minute, that's all i'm asking.

oh please, as if you've never done it.

don't ask me to choose. please.

please don't tell them where i am.

saying 'please' over and over won't change my mind.

please? ... pretty please?

please don't make me beg.

please tell me i'm wrong.

can you please give me a hand with this?