failure by design

here's a little piece of my heart, mind and soul.

[redeemed-renewed-restored]

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[thebiblestudychristian]

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Martvili, Georgia by Vruyr Martirosyan

[couragetogr0w]

You know, I don’t have any real friends. I realize this more every day. I’m not a real friend anyways, so why should it matter? I never found someone that I could be so in sync with through all phases of life. I never found someone I could tell everything to and not be afraid that they would gossip about me later. I see intentions in peoples eyes. I see the way they’re judging my awkwardness that I’m trying to make normal. Life isn’t easy coming back as a recovered drug addict. I’m not okay today. I feel dark and drained. Lord, please help me be okay.

[heart-for-god]

Psalms 105:1

[heart-for-god]

Psalm 34:4

[heart-for-god]

Psalm 139:14

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[couragetogr0w]

I dream of relapse.

Sweet numbness and vacant echoes of laughter. Disaster and darkness look so glamorous in my wandering mind.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, accept and learn from it.”

— powerofpositivity.com

[couragetogr0w]

Why do I have to love someone who pains me so deeply? Is that love here on this earth? He's a drug, a rush of my feelings and imagination. He gives me hope to shatter my dreams. Yet, he provides the glue that put back together the seams. Oh god, he's bold. Bold in the color of his personality. His wild heart bounds me in chains, yet sets me free. It's what we'd call a beautiful disaster. So amazing to the heart and mind, but yet so unclean.

[faith-and-dreams]

“Seek the Lord while you can find him. Call on him now while he is near. Let the wicked change their ways and banish the very thought of doing wrong. Let them turn to the Lord that he may have mercy on them. Yes, turn to our God, for he will forgive generously.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭55:6-7‬ ‭

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