Kisses Don't Lie

Just a Beautiful Tragedy...

[ttrajeudi]

me: wants to be healthy and recovered 

also me: actively enjoys self destructive behaviour

[lisasyl-deactivated20190922]

stop being cute or come be cute in my bed

[homesickfawn]

i've been dead for years yet somehow i'm still breathing

[cranessingforyou]

Fuck everyone saying they hope I have a nice winter break. Fuck everyone saying "at least you will get to be with family, that should help you". Fuck everyone. And fuck my family. Fuck them so much. Selfish fucking pricks. Every last one of them. They cannot fucking step out of themselves for even one fucking second. They care more about brooding in their own trauma soup than about people in their lives now. FUCK THEM AND FUCK THEM FOR NOT EVER FUCKING GIVING A SHIT ABOUT ME. FUCK ALL OF THEM. FUCKING FART BAGS.

[sa-dnesss]

[perfectfeelings]

[cranessingforyou]

It's really strange....

once you're in your late 20s

and you're one of the few people left with

Severe mental illness

And.....

....

....you just don't really have those genuine connections to people anymore....

No one

No one

Understands

The constellations of misery

That are in your soul.

Where stars should be

There are black holes;

Where life should be

There is a vacuum...

....

....

....and unlike earlier in life....

...you are now

completely

And utterly

Alone

In this vaccum. And because you are

Alone

The demons

The demons can get to you faster

And can drag you deeper

And nothing helps

While you drown

Alone

Like an astraunaut in the ocean.

[metamorphesque]

― Andrei Tarkovsky

[feral-ballad]

Safia Elhillo, from Home Is Not a Country; “Haitham”

[flowerytale]

Anne Carson, from Autobiography of Red

[seraphimrot]

i am just an unhealed wound that is constantly being picked open again

[traumatizeddfox]

i’m stuck

[thehowlingowl-deactivated202309]

hw // vent

[bellemused-moved-blog]

my soul feels sick and i wish i knew what to do

[destinymarie]

i’m scared i’ll never be able to fully heal and that i’ll have to carry the weight of everything forever

[defaeter]

 Beartooth - The Lines 

[aseaofquotes]

Lawrence Durrell, Justine