Hey unsure if this goes against me saying I'd no longer post but it's specifically about shit that I haven't said about me, to either Fatal or Legs too, I have you both blocked now on discord and like you both I'm sure, do not wish to speak anymore about all of this.
But I wanna make a confession because I know I have been a liar and deceiving, maybe not the things you guys thought I'd be lying about but yeah.
Think I should start off by first saying that the account TheStrawberryShortcakeQueen that I have now deleted both the Tumblr and discord for, alongside setting the Instagram up to be deleted, was me, there's also a twitter account however I don't know if that is gone since Girlypop is the one that has access to it, being that she didn't have to deal with certain restrictions.
I think you can all already tell why I made that account but I'll say it anyway, I was trying to infiltrate the fandom to see if anything was being done behind closed doors, even though that is done a lot in investigative cases, I am glad I wasn't successful as I feel uncomfortable at deceiving people like that.
The shitty art was obviously all mine that was just to make me look more legitimate, I lied and said I was 18 on that account at the time which I think was the worst thing I did, I am 18 now as of December 1st but before that I was not as everyone knew.
Another bomb to drop is that me and Girlypop did not start talking when everyone thought we did, me and her have been talking since May 6th, before I even made the first deleted call out video on Fatal and Legs I believe, the account that was said to be my friend commenting underneath the videos Splatbox is kinda a creep, Splatbox is a creep and Here we are again as at least from what I have screenshots of(I'm sure people will recognize the profile anyways) LadyCandyKing was Girlypop.
Me and her agreed to talk on discord and at that time I had no idea who Girlypop was or that she was Girlypop, we talked for a bit and it got into the subject of her unhealthy fixation on the character Edgar, I expressed discomfort with this since the character is both a rapist and murderer and she seemed to be defending all of his actions.
I should mention that from the beginning of us speaking that Girlypop has always been aware that I was seventeen, in case that's important, we started talking again after she made me uncomfortable on June 4th, this is when we started discussing the Splatbox fandom on Tumblr and Girlypop brought up Fatal, this was after I came to an agreement with both Legs and Fatal and at that point I was still very passive about them and willing to keep up my end of the agreement, Girlypop said how Fatal was the worst out of all of the fandom and when learning I had spoken to him, wanted to know his discord so she could as well which I purposely did not give her as I didn't want him being harassed at the time.
Time passed and Fatal soon made that post saying that I was lying that alongside Girlypop's constant distain for him(we'd started to talk more and more) was when I first decided that I would not uphold my end of the agreement anymore, honestly now I think of this as really immature but yeah and technically even by just viewing his accounts I was not upholding the original deal.
Even when I began my channel I was very isolated, at the time I had no irl friends and only online ones, I lived in a very quiet place where it was only me and one of my parents who also stayed in most of the time.
It was very easy to get attached to Girlypop, to become obsessed over the internet stuff even though it made me feel bad all the time, I would start to let the Edgar thing slide, me and her would practically change his character to be a better person and different from canon, then she'd say how it was basically canon and we'd just put the pieces together, I knew it was illogical but I indulged her because if I didn't agree with her on something, she'd just bring it up again later until I did, so I learned to agree with her on everything.
She had lied to me once I started mentioning the tumblr posts about Girlypop, I knew it was her because she'd also bringed up the red room thing to me in our first conversation, though I let her lie and she eventually said to me that she lied I said it was ok.
She was my biggest support in everything I did on the channel since we started talking again in June, we constantly talked about it, she constantly talked about Splat's characters too even though, we both agreed he was a bad person, she could not let them go and even tried to make them her own, I suggested this because she suggested making a channel blatantly just using his characters, I wouldn't be surprised if the tracing stuff was true because a lot of the other stuff was and I knew that too.
I knew but I felt so alone especially when everybody went into my comment sections just shitting on me, that made me talk to her further, then again I think I knew she was harmful all along, maybe I just wanted to be hurt or maybe I was just trying to convince myself that Fatal and Legs were worse.
Because if I didn't have Girlypop I had no one and I was alone, I had nobody to support me, once I started telling my parents about what I was posting, she would discourage me from doing so, from having more support and my parents actually knowing what I was doing online.
We'd voice called multiple times and every time I was asked who I was talking to, I'd say some other online friend that I hadn't spoken to for ages, I'd lie about it, she didn't even tell me to but it was instinct practically.
I'd told my family about my first experience with her in May, the time it had happened because it had genuinely angered me and maybe that's why I didn't feel comfortable telling them about her, even though she'd turned into practically my best friend.
Maybe I knew my parents would see she was bad news and try to get me to stop talking to her, realistically that would've been for the best.
I know what Legs meant about her homicidal tendencies she's said the same to me, she's showed multiple signs of religious psychosis, uses ai a shit ton and has been extremely homophobic and transphobic.
I'm queer and she knew that she never really discussed it with me afterwards but on the call we were on idk she sounded pissed about it, she believes it's a sin and refused to even acknowledge Kai being trans.
Girlypop would always vent to me and I would share personal things back to her to show that I related so yk it was equal? She asked me multiple times for help with running away, among other things despite her being 20 and me being 17, eventually it got so bad she asked me if I knew any painless methods of suicide out of the blue.
I spent hours trying to make her reconsider, telling her I would do it if she did and genuinely considering it because my mental health was completely fucked at the time.
Eventually she calmed down to my relief on call maybe a few days later, she told me that we should totally die together referencing what I'd said that day, I'm going to say this next part since I don't want it coming out of her mouth, honestly she knows a lot of personal stuff about me and I think part of that despite the unhealthy attachment was why I kept talking to her and let her be, since I was scared she'd reveal that all online if I turned on her, now I don't care.
I was hospitalized around October due to a suicide attempt by overdose, I told Girlypop that it was because of Fatal and Legs, she brought up me dying for her and honestly I don't think it's fair to blame it on anything, I was suffering and am in therapy now.
I simply wasn't allowed to have space or disappear for a while when it came to Girlypop, even when she knew I was fine she would flip out on me when I would finally respond, often times saying delusional shit like how she thought I'd been tracked down by Fatal or Legs and murdered.
When I finally came to the conclusion that all of this needed to stop for my own well-being among others, she couldn't let it go, when I finally said that I was leaving all the accounts behind on TheStrawberryShortcakeQueen Instagram account(where we often talked for stuff, I just kinda abandoned the whole infiltration plan after a while, felt wrong) and logged out.
Out of curiosity I would log back in to find her still talking to my accounts, I said that I wasn't going to post anything else due to a promise I made but that I would stick around for her sake, after making the confession that I am trans masc myself(because fuck you Girlypop you're not outing me), she got distant, Crepe is a persona for my own protection, I don't think anybody has to be honest about anything but their age.
She would start to guilt trip me really badly, saying how I treated her like a monster and that I'd abandoned her, she kept me up for hours until it was morning comforting her as she said self depricating things about herself, saying how I should just leave her despite clearly not actually wanting me to leave, I tried so hard to communicate, to sort things but eventually all of the pent up anger I felt at her, the knowing it was all wrong spilt out of me, it was only then she started talking to me respectfully and without passive aggressiveness.
Only when I got angry not when I was kind and agreeable, I hate being angry, if that's how I have to be to get you to speak normally then I'm better off not speaking to that person at all, she's trying to sort things now but it's too late, I've blocked her and am obviously done with all this, I've already stated it privately, now it's being stated publicly.
There was also this one time when we were making up a backstory for Sean, that she randomly decided to add that Sean's mother(who we agreed would be Jasper's listener), tried to coerce him into having sex with her while she was drunk, I was weirded out by that and clearly she knew it was wrong to an extent, since she completely removed it for genderbent Sean and his dad, kept it for the original story though so I suppose pedophilia and incest is fine when it's a woman and a boy-
I never roleplayed that with her, I didn't even want it to be part of the story, that's how I also know she was likely doing similar shit.
This has been complete and total utter hell for me, I can see why the last person calling out Splat dipped, Crepe out.