I want to announce to everyone; friends, family, followers, and strangers that I will be remodeling everything. I made this account on a whim see a bunch of post in many fandoms. It was only later when I started to post art that’s not even good anymore. I wanted to wipe almost all of it and make a clean slate for my art and my identity. I wanted to make it clear that this is all my choice and it’s for myself.
When I started to open up to people on the internet I was finding myself. I was 18 and in college when I started to come out of my shell on wattpad, where I met my first friends who became family to me and stuck around through thick and thin. I had a lot of dark moments and had a toxic friendship that ruined my confidence in my ideas and creativity. It might’ve been the worst years of my life because I trusted someone so easily. I was really naive and believed I wasn’t good enough. I had a couple of other toxic friendships that just gave me a lot is stress that I had to cut them out of my life. Then there was a year when I had no motivation to draw anything because a discord server I was in made me believe I wasn’t good enough.
I have gotten back to drawing but hadn’t shared any of them mainly because I forgot and I was busy with work. But after finding myself I wanted to get back to sharing my art here with the new me. While I had “abandoned” tumblr I was working on bettering my character design, art style, and story telling. Back then I was just absorbing ideas from other artists that would sometimes clash and turn into a jumble mess. And looking back it didn’t look good.
As for myself I wanted to express myself better when I was happier and safer. On top of finding what I like there was also another issue regarding my old sona “Dovey”. Back when I first design it I was just playing around with a old Tokyo Mew Mew character design flash game on deviant, I don’t think it’s around anymore since flash games have gone extinct. But I was messing around and thought it looked good as a base, this was back when I was in high school and didn’t have any friends to get feedback on. Then I saw playthrough of Until Dawn and thought it would be cool if my sona was a [redacted] since I am part Native American. But then years later I was told it was offensive and I couldn’t keep it anymore. I was upset at first because it my sona for years, but I was able to come up with a new sona for myself and worked on it.
Then some personal things happen that lead to me moving to another state. After settling in it gave me the idea to start over here and make a fresh start. I really needed this to separate from my past when I didn’t had a chance to express myself or be a individual. When I was afraid that no one will like my ideas or believe my art wasn’t good enough. My confidence still isn’t great but I am working on it.
So now with a new face, name, and fresh new ideas this account will be under construction. I can’t say for sure when it will be finished with me having to work but this is what I want for my account.
What am I hoping to post?
My art such as character designs and hopefully comics. I am in the Zoophobia fandom but I have concept ideas for a original series. I don’t want to share too much but my original series is going to be wholesome.
That’s all I have for today and I hope you’ll be looking forward to the remodeling.
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