Just a girl and her problems

really this place is a space for me to vent because I have no one to talk to

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I'm growing my hair out for my wedding. im not even dating anyone

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I'm homesick for a place that doesn't exist anymore.

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The progression of my cat's name is interesting to say the least. Chubbs to Chubby, Chubby to Chubothy. My mom called him Chunk. But somehow along the way he now responds to Pretty Boy. And somehow I've also started calling him Little boy. And he's only 10 months old. I've probably confused him.

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Sometimes. I feel like an extra in my own life.

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I get that it not always about me. But sometimes can it just be about me an not everyone else?

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You know what- I'm gonna travel the world. It might take me a while to get there. But I'm going to do it. Why wait around until I'm old and can't do anything. When I have enough saved, I'll go. Then when I can't be there anymore I'll come back and do it all again.

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So far I've done

October 2022 Sacramento CA

May 2023 Pensacola FL

September 2024 Niagara Falls, NYC, Nashville TN, and Pensacola FL

Soon to come

September 2025 Ireland, mainly Dublin stretching to the north in the rurals

(P.S. I live in Oregon and have explored much of it, I still have some things to cross off)

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Am I that unlikable? Most people never stay friends with me for long, I've never had any interest shown in me romantically. I know that even most my coworkers prefer my sister, whom I also work with, over me. It feels like I'm just wallowing in self pity, but this is something I genuinely wonder.

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I asked chatgpt for star trek themed dog names because I was curious. My fave are:

1. Bajoran Wormhole

2. Borg Collective

3. Klingon Bat'leth

4. Romulan Ale

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I don't know why I'm crying we've never celebrated birthdays, and I have had many bad ones... But when they forget it's somehow so much more hurtful.

My 9th birthday they stopped me from going down the waterslide even though I was tall enough (big thing for a 9yr old)

My 19th birthday my mom kicked me out, for telling the truth about how she treated us.

My 20th birthday my dad had an aneurysm

My 22nd birthday my mom forgot

My 23rd (this year) everyone forgot. My mom remembered, and as you can tell my mom has never been the nicest so while it was nice, I've learned not to let anything good or bad she does affect me.

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My 24th my dad showed up to dinner drunk, (nobody really remembered it was my birthday till I asked them to dinner) and spent the second half of it gambling in the back. (This place has a room in the back with a few machines)

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my father: *attempts talking to me ever for any reason*

me: if you want beef old man we can have it

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I havent said "love you" to anyone in a year. I can't say It if i dont mean it. Not to my dad, not to my mom...Not even go my sisters. And to be honest I don't think they've even noticed

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I'll be honest. When I was younger, I really truly thought that id be married with a little one by now. I know for certain that my purpose in life is to be a mom. But, it seems so far away. I've never even kissed a guy.

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I don't know why I'm crying we've never celebrated birthdays, and I have had many bad ones... But when they forget it's somehow so much more hurtful.

My 9th birthday they stopped me from going down the waterslide even though I was tall enough (big thing for a 9yr old)

My 19th birthday my mom kicked me out, for telling the truth about how she treated us.

My 20th birthday my dad had an aneurysm

My 22nd birthday my mom forgot

My 23rd (this year) everyone forgot. My mom remembered, and as you can tell my mom has never been the nicest so while it was nice, I've learned not to let anything good or bad she does affect me.

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I work with a rec district, and I supervise kids basketball games. One of the teams playing, has a sub coach. And like this coach is getting so pressed. He's the dad of one of the players. Like dude chill, these are 10 year olds.

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Ten absolute truths from me.

1. I sometimes still fall off the bed

2. I still find comfort in sucking my thumb

3. I want children, I know I'm meant to be a mom

4. Sometimes I can get angry for no good reason

5. My mental isn't good, but I'm trying

6. I'm a night owl I prefer the night

7. I have insomnia

8. My dog is my best friend

9. I find it hard to build relationships

10. I wish I had someone who loved me

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Umm??? I just found out that idaho is trying to take on parts of other state like... Where I live in Oregon would become the border of idaho like I could drive 20 mins one way and be back in Oregon and and hour the other way and be in Oregon but I would suddenly be living in idaho. And I don't like the sound of this at all

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As a latinx woman who struggled to identify with my culture I was hoping the update for the Sims would be something I could relate to... It wasnt I was disappointed to say the least.