alive yet unaware

crow ☆ he/him ☆ 20↑ MDNI 🔞 DEAD DOVE AND PAPACEST CONTENT i also… take commissions 🎨🖌️

[creepricot]

☆ intro ☆

queer writer and artist who is autistic about ghost

i like to write and draw freak ghost fanart and media. i post 18+ specific content, if you are a minor for the love of god please do not enter or engage with adult spaces for your own safety. i post dead dove content— do not eat if you do not like it. block and move on.

you can find my ao3 here.

you can find my full, uncensored artworks over on bluesky, and whatever’s under the #my art tag here on tumblr.

[creepricot]

Ahh I really missed you Crow I am so happy you got this account back too🎉

I missed your artstyle so fricking much, it's so smooth and yummy I SWEAR

Also, how do you usually render your arts? Like the skin, clothes..

//let's call me 🌶 anon idk, I'm trying to figure out myself

YAYY and i'm glad to be back >:Dc as for how i render... that's so hard to describe because all i really do is the exact same process but for different layers. when shading, i use a large medium airbrush for the bigger areas and then go back to define either by erasing some parts or by drawing with a smaller, more hard brush on top of the initial soft airbrushing; usually i'll set the shading to a multiply layer. i'll add a layer underneath the shading layer for doing my highlights, using the exact same technique as i did for shading. i basically do this regardless of textures or material type, it kinda just works for Everything... hopefully that kind of makes sense lel

[scarecrowdrugs]

Throwing a grenade into the tags rn but my hot take is that every single Papa enjoys a little bit of substance abuse as a treat.

Look, Nihil was a grown man in the 60s. We all know he's hit the blunt. We've all listened to Mary on a Cross. Just throw some LSD into the mix and he's all set.

Secondo's the kinda guy who's snorting a line of coke in a Vegas casino before going to town at the poker table, no questions asked.

Terzo seems like the kinda guy who wants to come across as a classy guy with one of those fancy cigarette holders but you turn your back for five seconds and he's already brought out the heroin.

Cardi's probably just like his dad in that he enjoys the devil's lettuce except that he mostly just sticks to either his bong or some edibles because you hand him that blunt and he's gonna spend the next five minutes coughing his lungs out. Also he can and will get utterly blasted on some margaritas.

Perpetua's the kinda guy who went to the club for the first time when he left the church and just went absolutely hogwild. Ecstasy, poppers, ketamine, shrooms, etc. You ask him and he's probably taken it and may or may not have some in his pocket if you ask nicely. Stand-up guy about it too, absolutely the kinda dude who keeps an eye on you just to make sure you're having a good time.

Primo eats cigarettes for fun and is on the shit that makes you eat faces. Actually, he probably did that stone cold sober.

[creepricot]

ok i think from now on, @creepyapricot will just be my backup account... maybe i'll post my art over there too so that i don't risk my main getting flagged and taken down again? hrm, decisions, decisions...

[creepricot]

WE SHOULD CELEBRATE THEN DARLING✨️🎉

OKAY YAYYYYY YIPPEEE :3

[creepricot]

hey wow so i just realized that my account got reinstated . now what

[mephistopheles2022]

Twins 🤎💜

[creepricot]

fanfic author ask: 14, 20, 21, 27 and 38!

14. What is something you really like about your work(s)?

god as much as it makes me cringe and die to read some of my old work, i DO like knowing how far ive come and seeing myself improve a little bit more every time that i write something :) not that i have the balls to, but if i were to ever go back and read old stuff, i KNOW itd make me wonder "hey what the fuck was i thinking" but that just means i know what im doing nowadays... bettering yourself and your skills is what its all about baby

20. What made you start writing?

i think... i can trace my creative writing roots back to my warrior cats days as an 8-10yo?? granted all of my writing was about the cool, edgy, dark warrior ocs who were sooo powerful and feared but also cool and respected... good times... i think i seriously got into creative writing once i hit middle school though. something about detroit become human, fo4, and rdr2 just sparked this urge to start writing about these characters more seriously. fun fact, but rdr2 was the first time i was brave enough to admit to myself that i liked noncon and fauxcest shit. obviously it was all downhill from there ;)c

21. What is something that no one has caught about one of your fics?

afaik, nobody caught the small detail in Aegri Somnia where pet's scratches form a 'V' shape over copia's torso: He can see clearer now the horrid scratches that render across his frame. Starting separately over his nipples, guiding themselves down his gut, converging into one just inches above his cock, a strikingly familiar symbol leaving its violent claim on his body.

28. Fic idea you're most excited to get to?

ok this is moreso for my copiiia stuff, but for the longest time, ive had this idea where terzo recounts the times leading up to his and copia's first "breakup" through old letters and postcards and the likes. i think it'd be incredibly fun to try and draw these out myself, to have little sketchy visuals as terzo thumbs through all of these papers to go along with the story urggrh... really, any fics that allow me to incorporate more css editing and art excite the fuck out of me (even if itll probably be monthssss til i ever get to that)

[creepricot]

27. What is a question that you never get asked about your fics that you really want to answer?

god ive been sitting on this one because i honestly am not sure? though i suppose i’d really want someone to be curious about where certain details and things come from, how i come up with ideas and what i base them off of (with regards to my personal life and experiences)…? because every single aspect of my fics, whether it be something dynamic-wise between characters, scenarios, settings, general emotional states, dialogue, it all comes from something i’ve experienced in one way or another. granted, a bit of it comes from some trauma in my life — and i’m not the type to heavily trauma dump online, but i don’t mind vaguely talking about it — but a lot just comes from interactions i’ve had with friends too.

there’s a line terzo says to copia in this fic: “you kiss me like you’re starving” — and that was something said to me once, and that just Stuck With Me. there’s a detail in a WIP chapter for Swept Away By Rhymes that has secondo’s wristwatch ticking in the silence of the room, and that comes from a time i was being spooned by a friend (who fell asleep) and i just sat there, listening to that watch while i myself was waiting to fall asleep too. i like to think thats why at least some of my writing can be so visceral and hyper-specific i guess, because i basically relive parts of my life when i write?

but iac, write what you know of course. i’d just love to gush about all my very specific memories related to random lines and random details :)

[ahyperactivehero]

Fanfic Author Asks!

(I love these things so much, I thought I would do my own lol)

How many WIPS do you currently have?

Do you prefer oneshots or longfics?

What was the last thing you looked up for a fic?

Do you save your 'cut scenes' from your fics? (Want to share one?)

Where do you get your title inspiration from?

Do you listen to anything while you write? Or do you prefer silence?

What fic are you the proudest of?

Has anyone ever drawn fanart for one of your fics before?

What time do you prefer to write? (Day, night, etc.?)

How much do you write before you post?

Do you outline your fics before writing them?

Have you ever made a moodboard for a fic? (Do you want to share it?)

Have you ever made a playlist for a fic? (Share?)

What is something you really like about your work(s)?

Do you look at comments right away? Or save them for later?

How do you write your fics? (Handwritten, google docs, word, etc)

Do you regularly discuss your fics, or do you keep most of the info to yourself before you start posting?

How do you decide what POV to write in?

Do you work on multiple fics at once or only one at a time?

What made you start writing?

What is something that no one has caught about one of your fics?

What is one of your favorite tropes to write?

Do you post your fics on a schedule?

Do you have any writing goals? (Word counts, chapters, finishing fics, trying something new?)

Is there a scene you are dreading writing? (Want to share what it is?)

What is your favorite part about writing?

What is a question that you never get asked about your fics that you really want to answer?

Do you prefer canon compliant fics or AUs?

What fic are you the least proud of?

Is there something you would go back and change about a fic if you could?

How do you stay motivated?

Out of all your fics, what is your favorite title?

What is your favorite line from *insert fic name here*?

Have you ever done a collaboration? Would you?

Favorite review you've gotten?

Are/were you surprised by your top fic? (hits, kudos, comments, anything)

Favorite genre?

Fic idea you're most excited to get to?

Do you have a preferred writing snack/drink?

Happy Endings or Sad Endings?

Bonus: Readers, tell your fave authors something you liked about their fics/works!

[creepricot]

perpetua with a Fat prince albert piercing. perpetua who refuses to take it out when you suck him off just to make you gag and choke harder. perpetua who likes to watch the way you struggle and tear up and cough when it hits the back of your throat. Send Tweet

[creepricot]

What’s ur fav dead dove kink?

- @thepeacefield

noncon probably lol. really, anything that has a gross imbalance of power dynamics that includes someone being taken advantage of in one way or another (with a big humiliation element) is what i Love. that tends to fall neatly into noncon, so i default to that as an answer.

[creepricot]

Can I just applaud you for your Terzo x Secondo work? And just, all of your work? Bravo, here's a cake just for you 🍰

awgh i’m glad that terzo/secondo (and others!) have resonated with you - its the feedback i love to hear the most :,3c

i’ll be enjoying the delicious cake anon, thank you 🍰🍽️😋

[creepricot]

man not only are you a proshipper but you also like long hair primo.....double whammy bro cmon

yes i enjoy freak pervert shit but NEVER accuse me of liking men with hair

[flowerytale]

Susan Sontag, from As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980

[justsomeguycore]

#mycorner #mymonstrousneeds

[creepricot]

"i headcanon them as cousins so it's fine"

do you know yow funny you are. it is important to me that you know you're hilarious

HAHAHA i fucking despise pro vs anti discourse so this is the only way im going to ever respond to it

[a-perpetual-rise]

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