~Creepy Marshmallow~

~ Kpoper ~ Jpoper ~ Otaku ~ I love the music, the photograpy, the rain, the cloudy days, and sing. / Jack My Loves (thai). Tokio Hotel. BVB. / Arg, 14 ~

[creepymarshmallow]

"I feel a sense of security when I am with Chen." Zhang LiYin♥ "Siento una sensación de seguridad cuando estoy con Chen." Zhang LiYin♥

[orange-sandeul]

Is he ok?

[creepymarshmallow]

Jinyoung: "Siempre sentí que tengo otra familia en B1A4. Por lo tanto, no me siento solo." Jinyoung: "I always feel I have another family in B1A4. Therefore, I don't feel lonely."

[creepymarshmallow]

"i want to give music which will give people energy to pursue their dreams." Shin Tae ho "Quiero dar música que les dé a las personas energía para perseguir sus sueños." Shin Taeho

[eikoshimizu-blog]

Happy :: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=didptMJxjpE

Come Back Home :: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLbfv-AAyvQ

[fridayfairytale]

Be happy and forget me I hope you’re H A P P Y Be happy and forget me I wish you’re H A P P Y

[changdeer]

Day 2:       ↳ seasons for dbskweek

[f-x-i-d]

[tienyeol]

B1A4’s win ヾ(○´▽｀○)ノ

[creepymarshmallow]

Proud to be BANA. Since 23.04.11 till eternity. ♥

[eteru]

Busan main vocal line

[soothingstar-deactivated2017040]

The cause of EXO-M NGs

[creepymarshmallow]

JAJAJAJ los amo.

[dyodoroo]

EXO Backstage :Kyungsoo(디오) Cut

[creepymarshmallow]

♥

[orange-sandeul]

The boy who loves confetti

[makeupasmedicine]

Mental Confetti

Joy and happiness can be big and loud or small and quiet. My doctors still seem to think I suffer from depression even though anyone who has gotten to know me knows I am about as far from being a sufferer of depression as is possible to get. My husband has even remarked that if I am currently suffering from depression, I must normally be the happiest person on the planet because of how I am on a day to day basis. I get why the doctors think that I do, because if you suffer from joint pain and migraines daily to the point that you cannot even get out of bed for an entire day or longer, it could lead to or be caused by depression, but it isn’t always and that is unfortunately where my doctors fall short.

I was inspired to post about finding joy and happiness in small things, things people don’t usually look at as something that could make them happy, when I saw this gif set of B1A4’s Lee Sandeul (the one in plaid standing behind the one in hot pink). Sandeul, who normally expresses joy and happiness in a very big way, but in this moment he is expressing it in a very small way, and it is still just as valid and probably making him just as happy.

Sometimes you need small things that make you happy. I cannot always dance when I want to, I generally cannot get as much out of the computer time I have as I want to, but if I can still tolerate some level of light I can and have pulled a bunch of bottles of nail polish out and spent anywhere from one to six hours arranging them in different combinations I think would look good together. And even when approaching that sixth hour I am still just as entertained by it as I was when I started. If I cannot tolerate light but can tolerate sound I will listen to music and let my mind wander around with it. If I cannot tolerate light or sound then I just try and find a day dream that I can keep running for as long as the pain lasts. Sometimes I have to start the day dream over and take a different route with it if it runs out too quickly, but you would be amazed how quickly time flies by if you stumble on a really good day dream.

I look at these things like mental confetti that you throw up in the air and watch float down around you marveling at all of the shiny pieces. Something that makes you happy, but is easier to do than the big and loud things you would probably rather be doing, but aren’t currently able to. If I could stand up and dance all day every day, I would, but I currently cannot, so I do when I can, but I also accept that there will be times when I want to but cannot and I have to have other things to entertain me during those times or I get really bored and that is just no fun.

It probably helps that I am very easily entertained and my brain seems to be able to be satisfied with what I have at my disposal, even if it is just a thought, rather than focusing on what it wishes it could have. But I also believe that everyone has something small that they can probably do even when they are feeling really bad, that is their mental confetti. It can be hard to find when people have been used to more high tech entertainment, but those things were not always around and people still found ways to entertain themselves before they existed so it is possible.

If you don’t think there is anything small that could entertain you when you have nothing else to do or more specifically nothing you can do, I would encourage you to look more closely at the small things. Something will click for you and once you have your mental confetti, even if it is just thinking about it, it will always be there for you.

[creepymarshmallow]

"Drop pants, not bombs. Break dance, not hearts. Draft Beer, not people. Make LOVE, not WAR." -Ashley Purdy

I love my savior ♥

[wellmeetagainwhenourcarscollide]

[creepymarshmallow]

Es tan knlasdlasd ♥

[destruyend0nos]

Ouch. 

[starvingforselfesteem]

Una vez más fracasé… Sucumbí a el control que toma sobre mí la comida. Eran eso de las 7:20 de la tarde. Llevaba menos de un día sin comer y la misma maldita fuerza de siempre. Eso que me atrae, eso que me lleva a comer desmedidamente sin pensar en las consecuencias… Una vez más comí como una...