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I am not sure about students but is your bed or table usually like this when you study? 😂 Because mine is apparently like this most of the time, I have a hard time packing up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

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One year later, I still see no difference. My bed is still filled with books and files, BUT, even more this time round.

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Six years later, I am back here again and there is still no difference. Maybe, I should say... It got worse :’D

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I am not sure about students but is your bed or table usually like this when you study? 😂 Because mine is apparently like this most of the time, I have a hard time packing up. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

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One year later, I still see no difference. My bed is still filled with books and files, BUT, even more this time round.

This is really scaring me. Just one week ago, I got back my GCE ‘O’ level Chinese results and again... I did really badly for the exam. I only got a ‘Pass’ for oral/aural which is really unexpected yet isn’t. However, I managed to clear the exam by passing! That is the only bright side.

Yesterday I just registered for the retake and tomorrow I will be taking the preliminary exams, too fast and rush because I just got back my results and I have to retake the papers soon? :( I haven’t got the time to revise and recap on Chinese because I have been super busy completing my D&T coursework (p/s deadline is in 4 days, 28 August 2017).

Really cannot believe that time really files this year. It’s too fast and now I am about to take my final exams??? T^T I don’t know what to expect at all. The feels are so different from N level.

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12.1.16+2:45pm // spread 10: light/dark // so the stars aligned today because i had a decent spread made this week AND had a chance to post it because i was able to take off work. it’s almost the end of the term, so finish strong, everyone!

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Last adventure run before graduating one last time from this school.

after mye results thoughts

As expected or not, I failed every single subject for the internal exams. I got at least a D7-F9 for all 5 subjects so far. I have no idea what is my grade for D&T yet and I don’t want to know since I failed the theory really badly.

Pretty sure, my teachers are really shocked at my results as I spoke to them. Especially my Social Studies teacher, she was so upset with me as my behaviour this year is really horrible. Well, true... I don’t even know what am I doing at all. I guess I am slowly waking up? I have Chinese exams soon at the end of this month and I don’t want to think about my current results or even imagine the later outcome too much.

I have another problem now, my coursework... I don’t know if my heart is ready to start doing again because it seems like I had enough of it and I am tired. (Lmao, as if my schoolmates aren’t sick of it.) KEEP YOUR HEAD UP, GIRL.

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here is a fact.

for sure, i know that i am not the most hardworking person you know. but i have something that i really want to do in the future. but what hits me is that...

is this going to benefit me? am i doing it right? did i make a good choice?

in about less than a month’s time, i am going to apply for early admission exercise (polytechnic). and let’s be frank about this, none of us are ready to do the official write-ups after doing the first exercise in school. i am considering psychology as a course in poly. but at the same time, i want to do applied drama because i have passion in acting, but that course is not just about drama but also psychology. :)

i have been lazing around a lot lately, at such an important year. everyone is working so hard to do well for exams and for their desire courses in poly. and i am here, lying down on my bed everyday, waiting for something to happen while looking at my laptop, watching videos, tweeting about shits and people...

i feel useless.

i have zero idea why am i doing this at such critical timing. my mental is just not there to work hard and complete all required stuffs. example, my coursework, i am supposed to finish my cardboard model by weeks ago. i ended up not doing it, i am waiting for someone to help me with the work itself when it is individual. i have absolute zero idea what am i going to create for this coursework. i really hate myself being like this.

what make things even worse... i am starting to regret, JUST STARTED TO REGRET the decisions i made during streaming year aka sec 2. i don’t even know why i chose dnt. is it because of my results that i got? i did so well for my exams that year that is why i chose this as my elective course for upper secondary? *ultimate facepalm* i need to face this now even if i don’t like this subject anymore.

i know coming back for o level is good decision as the certificate i am going to receive is going to help me a lot in the future. but i can’t just come back for the certificate, i really got to work hard in order to achieve as such. it is okay, if i see people working really hard and suffering at the same time, i am gonna suffer too. just gonna do it. life is a hell ride but a fruitful one. i still have to do this for another decades and decades till death. it is okay, i am fine. i am not alone. this is for me. i only know myself.