blog for the dark times

[animentality]

[criesandprejudice]

I have found this to be one hundred per cent true, um how can I be a selfish witch who only cares about myself when I have strong bonds with the people I love and who love me back wholeheartedly including your wife and your siblings and your parents? Father, how?

[criesandprejudice]

where's that webweaving post about fathers it's that time of the year again

[inkskinned]

she asked me if i believed in god and i told her that when i was four i almost drowned in a public pool and in my panic mistook a stranger for my father. i clawed my way up his leg. four years later he’d send my parents a picture of the scars alongside a tin of cookies. he said, “i hope she’s still okay. i carry her with me. it isn’t every day you save a life. it isn’t every day you feel like you were here for a reason. when it does happen, you have to cherish that memory. for once, i had a purpose. just being there was enough. she tore me open but she taught me a lot about love.”

[moonstoast]

—about god

[azulispector]

if we forgive our fathers, what do you we have left?

shameless // Desireé Dallagiacomo // Jamaica Kincaid // euphoria // jobless monday, mitski // Haddon Sandblom // ? // the end of the f world //Smoke Signals // Simone de Beauvoir, The Woman Destroyed

[criesandprejudice]

23/08/22

i need my father's motherly instinct

i yearn for my father to understand me

i ache

when my best friend's dad makes a speech at her wedding, oh so tenderly talking about her, describing her qualities, 'you are my sunshine, please don't take my sunshine away', i ache

i hear my roommate's father's genuinely concerning voice notes, everyday, asking about her day, her feelings, her health, and i ache

does my father know me?

there is a tsunami inside of me, threatening to unleash every time i talk with him, and if i let it loose, i'm afraid it will destroy me

'why do you get so emotional', he says