dear diary, i am a soulless queer monster

antisocial personality disorder narcissistic personality disorder vent blog ruby it/its/itself aux. she/her/hers empathymeter:

[hackedalien-deactivated20150201]

World Population : 7,810,521,683 

just in case somebody start feelin too important

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7,810,521,682 and me

[mooncoffin-deactivated20160403]

what i say: i feel like everyone is mad at me

what i mean: i got the impression that one specific person is mad at/dissatisfied with/disappointed in me and that feeling has bled over into my perception of literally all other people, because emotionally i cannot grasp the concept that negative feelings or reactions to me are not 100% universal, and as i mostly define myself by what other people think of me i can barely imagine what it feels like to be an individual with free-standing feelings and depth of character separate from what is decided by the judgement of others, thus enforcing the idea that when one person is upset at me then everyone is, because when someone else decides what i am it becomes true

[iguanamouth]

remembering that you inhabit a body and that your physical appearance is inevitably tied into how people perceive you

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[crimebrain-blog]

someone: y'know, you're so unique, and I really like your personality!!

me, slowly putting a piece of their personality into my pocket: my what

[crimebrain-blog]

them: don't pick at it!

me, bleeding: I'm not

[happydartist]

“Periwinkle” colored pencil and illustration marker, 8x11in. Original available at the link in my bio. (20% off with code “huanhuan”) 💖 #illustration #markers #coloredpencil #unicorn

[conceptualsolitude]

concept: at the bottom of a cave, there is a pool of crystal clear water illuminated by moonlight. as i lay in it, it cleanses my skin, my thoughts, my mood. i am still.

[paprikavaseline]

a hundred tiny daydreams about you

[crimebrain-blog]

related to gamer girl identity: cool cryptographer identity, totally in touch with the latest technology identity

[crimebrain-blog]

i have a gamer girl npd identity too. it pops out when i play video games sometimes, or when i’m talking to friends about video games

gamer girl identity loves eating snacks and drinking soda while playing all the cool fun new games and talking to my friends about it

i love the idea of sitting on a couch with my closest family and loved ones playing games with them and maybe having some beer

we're so cool and we're having fun in this fantasy/identity

[crimebrain-blog]

my npd identity when im manic: the same thing but LOUDER

[hairstylesbeauty]

IG: thedisneylandprincess

[witchprisms]

So pretty

[crimebrain-blog]

my unicorn identity is basically this color, and it tastes like vanilla and honey, and it smells like jasmine flowers

[crimebrain-blog]

identity update: i’m a unicorn right now. my horn sparkles and i run through an enchanted forest.

reblog and tag with ur identity rn

[crimebrain-blog]

tfw when

you’re vanessa from deadpool- funny, pretty, in need of protecting

and then suddenly you’re blody mary from the wolf among us- scary, violent, able to protect others instead of needing protection

and then suddenly you’re vanessa again

[crimebrain-blog]

being an npd bi lady

being captain america’s best friend and all of the avengers hang out at ur house and think you’re the best

okay so you’re on the beach right and you have an umbrella even though it’s only dawn and the colors in the sky are soft just like you and you’ve been drinking all night and you’re sleepily watching the sun rise with your best friends and you’re so beautiful and wearing a little thin sweater that keeps you safe and warm and you drink a little more champagne

but then you’re suddenly the most fearsome monster who will protect and defend your friends

but then suddenly you’re small and frail and vulnerable and your friends are protecting you instead of the other way around because you’re so important and vulnerable

and all of this happens in a matter of 10 seconds-- or maybe you spend 5 hours as the soft eyed girl but only a few minutes as the monster with sharp fangs

[crimebrain-blog]

having an identity that is based on social and emotional context is really very tricky