Hi loves, Iโve missed you all & Iโm sorry Iโve been absent for awhile. This is the hardest post Iโve ever had to write. I donโt even know how to beginโฆ After struggling with health issues for the past few months, both of my beloved kitties passed away within weeks from each other. ๐ข I could try to console myself with the fact that theyโre no longer suffering & both lived long beautiful lives filled with love, but the truth is regardless, this grief is unbearably difficult. Iโve had Huan Huan since I was 13, and Boogerface since I was 18. Throug all of lifeโs major milestones, theyโve been by my side. Iโve built so much of my identity around them that I am struggling to figure out who I am anymore. They were my sense of home, and without them I just feel lost. During their health struggles the past few months I lost all my inspiration to make art, to enjoy life, to be present. I put on a brave face in front of others but inside Iโm always on the brink of tears. Iโve always been the kind of person who tries to live in the moment, but these days I find myself yearning to go back to the past. After a tumultuous emotional summer, I finally realized that the only way out of grief is through. As long as I love them, I will never stop missing them, so I will just have to learn to live with the emptiness theyโve left behind. I donโt need to be afraid of crying or feeling sad - grief is simply love without a home. And there is beauty in that kind of sadness. Thank you for reading this long post. My apologies for the roughness as I just let myself word-vomit without any proofreading. I will start posting again soon, but I just wanted to explain why Iโve been absent for so long. I am eternally grateful for all of the support you all have shown me, and I look forward to engaging with this wonderful art community again soon. ๐ And lastly, rest in peace, my beautiful kitties. Thank you for always being a source of joy, love, cuddles & emotional support as I attempted to grow up into an adult. Youโve been my most cherished friends for so many years, and now I have to finally set you free. Until we meet again, Iโll love you and miss you every day. โค https://www.instagram.com/p/CS-Q5veh_5Z/?utm_medium=tumblr