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Someone from Sweden? Seeking help

I already have a similar post on my other blog but since nothing really came out of it I am making one for this blog as well. I will try to not mess up with my blogging just because of it but if it annoys you, feel free to unfollow since I will be rebloging it from time to time. With that being said I will be thankful if you consider a reblog but even if you only tolerate my pitiful attempts to achieve something, it`s great. Truth is depression is so severe now that it has affected my physical health as well.

Long story short I am in relationship with a guy from Uppsala, Sweden and we`ve been together for 9 months now. It`s long distance relationship and I am from Bulgaria. At the beginning of this year he was diagnosed with cancer for a second time. He is younger than me, still studying and dependent and I am well, broke. I do have some savings but they aren`t enough to just start from a scratch in a country like Sweden. I am trying to apply for jobs online but I don`t qualify for many and nothing has happened so far. I also asked anybody I could think of for help and they either couldn`t or didn`t want to help. I understand those people in both instances since I am basically a charity case.

I can`t reach him and be with him completely on my own and no one is there for us. I am not asking for money even though, yes, I need it. All I need is maybe temporary shelter until I find a job or maybe someone knows a person who can hire me. At this point I`ll work pretty much anything because the thought of him dying kills me too. At the beginning he attempted immunotherapy and that didn`t give any results. Now he is undergoing chemo and it`s a nightmare to see him tired and in pain and not being able to do anything about it.

So please, help me if you can. Thank you in advance.

orthodoxcorner

In today`s news - my boyfriend is getting worse and chemo isn`t helping so they`ll try radiotherapy now. My uncle was also very sick and apparently it`s also cancer but he is beyond saving, so I have two dying people and no hope left which is why I haven`t posted nothing in a while.

If somebody could help me to at least reach my boyfriend so that we have some time together it would be nice I guess..

orthodoxcorner

My uncle passed away tonight. Please pray for his soul,

crimsonliutenitsa

Seeking help| Someone from Sweden?

Normally I`d never post anything like this but honestly at this point I am desperate, depressed, tired and hoping for a miracle. I wrote to so many people, both people I know and strangers and nothing came out of it. I have lost hope but I still keep going by default, in fact I wake up and live by default. I am sorry that this sounds like your regular sob story but to me it is quite a nightmare.

You see I am in LDR with this guy from Uppsala and it`s what now… 8 months, nearing 9. They discovered that he has cancer for a second time and a couple of nights ago he would have almost died if his sister hadn`t found him and called an ambulance. I need to somehow be with him but truth is that I visited him in November and I was left broke. I have some savings but it`s not enough even for a month given their standard of living. I have no friends who can shelter me for a while until I find a job hopefully since I have a super basic Swedish (I tried to teach myself some). My boyfriend is younger, still studying and dependent so he can`t help me whatsoever.

I tried to research on possibilities of going on my own. Like an idiot I buy lottery tickets everyday and the irony is that I win very often but very small sums of money. At this point my every day is a nightmare because I want to be with him and I can`t. I don`t even know whether he`ll make it and as dramatic as it sounds he is the love of my life. But we are alone in our efforts, completely alone.

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me: wants to be hugged and held, is totally touch starved and needs to be cuddled

also me: allows only a very limited number of people to touch me at all, let alone in a slightly intimate way. barely ever allows myself to show emotional weakness around people. gets anxious when someone hugs me for too long.