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begginer artist posting doodles to archive and share my progress:))

[sweetschizo-deactivated20190808]

Hey if you’re schizophrenic/psychotic I just want you to know that you’re a wonderful person and that you deserve so much better than the demonization, marginalization and stigmatization you face in this society.

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Please consider reblogging this/other positivity posts for schizophrenic/psychotic people every once in a while. If you have more than 100 followers, odds are that a couple of them experiences psychosis and that they rarely see positivity posts for people with their symptoms.

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

watched the finale ;-;

i have THOUGHTS and FEELINGS that i will wait until it comes out on YT, but i have to get at least one thing out so SPOILERS - - - - - - - - -

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why did my girl get so little screen time :((((

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Don't think I ever posted this? Doodled it way back when I was figuring out Gang :3 :D

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Zooble's First Day! - PART 2 (PART 1) Zooble retires to their room after meeting the circus members and having an incredible first day! Which definitely happened. You can only imagine how fantastic it went.

Note: I added a Keep Reading to avoid spoiling your eyes with the next part. Don't miss it! Zzz...

Boy I tell you, this is the one thing I hate about mirrors: everyone else is seeing the flipped canvas version of you.

FUN ACTIVITY IDEA! If you wanna see the Zooble's reflection reversed, hold a mirror to the mirror to see what they really look like!

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Okay look, I know this is going to age poorly in like 2 months but let me have this…

Caine has got a doozy of a human to deal with.

[democatto]

Wormy Gangle 🎭

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

doodled sum bugs 🐛 also found a coloring/sketch method and wow its fun, Midwife (top right) is my fav i did :)

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oops, i died for a while there, motivation HARD but ive still been doodling in the meantime a lil bit, so heres sum yuri 😎 and gosh zooble is so pretty....

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

Gangle's nightmare scene rambles bc, oh no ! ouch !

So this ep crushed me in some wonderful ways but HOLY WOW those nightmare scenes were *brutal.* All of them are absolutely diabolical but Gangle still had the one that gave me the most visceral reaction somehow, so i did the rational thing of pacing around my house picking at my brain and at this scenes symbolisms to dissect every second ! Woohoo ! Fair warning I relate VERY heavily with her, more than any character ive run into before so if it starts to veer into maybe my own experiences, oops, sry tumblr if i accidentally make you my unpaid therapist.

btw i dont think theres any order to this im just GOIN - The most direct and obvious thing to take away from the paintings deforming is her uncontrollable mood swings and how helpless it can feel at times to suddenly lose control. - i think theres something to be said about the fact that the paintings arent all happy then into sad, its happy AND sad paintings deforming into instability. My gut feeling of why this rattles her so badly is the idea of, well if your "default" is upset and anxious, then what does being "happy" even mean if eventually your just going to go back to your default. I can entirely relate to her dread of the possibility of being depressed and diluted is who she is as a default forever, it can feel like drowning sometimes which is kinda what the melting paintings give the vibe of to me (the audio going with the paintings melting does also sound like rushing water!(or ink)) - I think the selection of it being on paintings feels intentional, something about her stagnated art passion i think, and the fact that they spin around Gangle in this over stimulating way sorta give me the impression of how her life quickly moved on and how fast time had passed at her dead end job with nothing to show for it but diluted dreams of the comic shes always wanted to make. The melting paintings also representing the shame for being unable to follow something that would make her happy - Theres something about Gangle's character that tells me she might have some sort of imposter syndrome?(tho might just be extremely low self esteem) she usually downplays her art, she doesn't really fight back at all when being tossed around by Jax or Caine, and generally seems to put herself down in many cases. These Traits HAVE gotten better with Zooble's help thank GOODNESS, but oh gosh can i relate to still having that auto response of just assuming your still not good enough or unable to shake the feeling that you deserve it too some extent. So the paintings warping and subsequent truck really feels like that fear being confirmed, that she is always just going to be the crybaby pushover everyone knows (MAYBE THIS ONES A REACH BUT IDK) - I was gonna ramble about how her being placed in a dark room with the single spotlight gives me the impression of isolation she's felt before and maybe a bit in the circus too, but apparently everybody else got that too (except Ragatha, she got that fucked up an evil red lighting) but meh, still felt interesting to point out - Something to be said about how Gangle and Jax have a somewhat similar start and presentation of their nightmares, with Jax's issue being ridicule and fear of vulnerability from the outside, Meanwhile Gangle's is mostly about her lack of control of her own emotions and inner turmoil. idk, the two things circling around just feels similar to me, maybe its a reach - AUGH the fact she's just on her knees, crouched and small cowering in shock from everything, idk it just felt like exactly how it feels sometimes to spiral like that, you just want to hide away and it just crushed me seeing her like that :(

TRUCK THEORY, WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH THIS TRUCK!!1! IT HAS TO MEAN *SOMETHING* RIGHT?? ITS COME UP TWICE NOW But i do have an idea that is probably a total reach but it *feels* like it makes sense to me so fuck it here i go (TRIGGER WARNING, THIS THEORY INVOLVES SELF HARM) Okay so main main thoughts on the truck are entirely based around a theory a friend had told me on re-watching and it REALLY feels significant. What if at the end of EP 4, just like how Pomni made the exit door in ep1, Gangle accidentally subconsciously Conjured the truck. I think that ep 4 scene can be interpreted in a billion ways, but i tend to lean towards this particular instance genuinely being an accident but still caused by an unstable state she was left in. But heres my general idea, i think the Truck is a symbol for Gangle for an attempt at self harm. (On barely other basis) I think there might have been a significant moment for Gangle outside where she got incredibly close to getting ran over, but ultimately not being harmed, whether it was a failed attempt at self harm, backed out last second, or genuine accident. But what I think what the Truck is, is a haunting reminder of that impulse, bc ESPECIALLY being stuck in purgatory, the shame of that decision or lack of would be killing her. It'd be an incredibly easy spiral to go down with either blaming herself for not being an adult and just solving her issues to get on with life, or maybe wishing she could've just gotten out while she had the chance, and THAT feeling also bringing shame. Its a horrible spiral to be trapped in, but now in the nightmare, Caine uses this to punctuate the stagnant life Gangle had lead. further confirming Gangle's fear, that maybe she *deserves* this is this all entirely speculation and padded wall scrawling? most likely but this interpretation just feels right to me so idk. oh god this post is long uh oh These are just my crazed ramblings, puh LEASE comment or msg me if anyone has other interpretations for this scene, id love to continue rambling (and sry if mine were kinda dark)

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

more fav character of mine from an indie game i love :)))) drawin shapes is funnnn, i would finish the rest of the cast but i have to sleeeep, ill prolly edit and finish it laterr

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

simply had to draw dumbass 1 and dumbass 2 together hehe actually very happy with how jesse came out and also WOW HANDS ARE HARD, i sorta just rushed the arm cuz its late lmao but its done yipee

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decided to try and actually learn how To draw a person this time, and i just had to learn how to draw Lake from Infinity Train. I figured they may as well be the first character to learn expressions and such with:) still have no clue what im doing so i did follow closely to the original art (no tracing of course) whats funny is you can so easily tell what order i made them in hehe

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

started week 2 with doodled randomized pokemon with a friend on a whiteboard:)) (the Anorith was drawn by my friend not me ! !) actually starting to get really happy with my progress :D also i def spent at LEAST 30 min just giggling at this stoopid frog

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

the last significant doodles i finished by the end of the week with the tablet ganglezoobl im actually vry happy with. a bit ecstatic to be able to draw my fav characters of all time in a somewhat pleasing way 2nd doodle is my current Pathfinder character named Melancholy :) (who has zero inspiration from any other character i like, complete slander) playing her cello bc it happened in the session and the imagery made me giggle so i had to draw it (mel will probably be many other doodles later so i can answer questions about her if anyone cares) 3rd is a bot from an indie game i love, Steam world heist 2 :)) Beacon my beloved.. i honestly feel so silly having never actually really tried drawing more, because this first week was so so so nice actually having something exciting to get home too to do everyday (other than dnd/pathfinder but those are specific days) im hoping posting the doodles and art n such im proud of every week will motivate me to actually sticking with this hobby bc even just a week in i love it so much already

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

day two and three of week one learning to draw, heres just couple lil things i scrawled out, first being my fav thing i doodled on a whiteboard with friends, 2nd was me and a friend drawing rando pokemon on a white board, and then a 2nd gangle i doodled durin a dnd session:) (this one i was actually quite happy with !!!) during the pokemon one my friend informed me about the Stabilizer tool and WOWOW it feels like CHEATING it makes it feel so much more comfortable with certain lines btw this blog is going to get just completely filled with tadc gangle and droids/robots bc wow my obsessions are specific lmao

[criticalfailure3rr0r]

hellohello, i got my very first drawing tablet a week ago and have wanted to get into the hobby for foreva but never did. until now:) its not anything serious im mostly just gonna be doodling my fav characters and ocs a bunch. But thought it might be fun to archive my progress n such on here after lurking here for so long:)) heres the first little doodles i scrawled out figuring out the tablet n such, i just had to have the first thing i draw to be my fav character ever bc i thought it was fittingg. i have basically zero experience other than doodling a lot when i was a kid so basically gots no idea what im doing lol, but here it goes this was just on ms paint!