CURSE YOU TO DEATH.

"I CAN SENSE YOUR KILLING INTENT."

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          ✕ ｡ —— “Rain, huh? That never means anything good.” Brows furrowed over sharp eyes that cast a disgruntled glare towards the roiling sky. He always felt clammy and trapped whenever a storm rolled in. His jaw set square. The want to tear from his own skin once a few fat raindrops splattered against his forehead paled rose like acid in his throat. But that notion paled in comparison to the need for securing pay that would keep his electricity on. He hefted a large, bulging nondescript bag over his shoulder. “Guess some people don’t mind, though.”

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Thinking about how for 2/3 of his life thus far, Risu has essentially been a tool just as much as a symbolism for a pipe dream-- even down to his extremely rare magic type. He’s a single ant in a colony as part of the Cross Eyes, he’s a both a loathsome human and magic user in the eyes of many after discovering the truth of his smoke type, he’s brought back as a source of information for the very thing that got him killed in the first place, and then he’s a means to an end. Granted, many people within drhdr live like that. I just find it extremely on the nose that Risu doesn’t find any real autonomy until after overcoming the anger and bitterness that Curse brings and harnessing it for himself-- especially since that would probably be looked down on by most other magic users as suppressing his true power. It’s very much a mirror of the entire story itself, and Kaiman’s own “pipe dream”.

It’s also interesting how at the end of drhdr pretty much the whole cast is in the EXACT same position Risu was in once Hole materializes: aka being seen as a source of power to consume and then eradicate. Obviously the whole point of it was to be very forward about how poorly magic users treated humans and the rest of the world-- it’s just very ironic that Risu is sort of the humanized version of that very same mistreatment. I wonder if Q Hayashida meant for that sort of double allegory or if it was just coincidence.

[blackcatrph]

꧁poetry sentence starters꧂

from the first 70 pages of “whiskey words & a shovel” by r.h. Sin

 “ you’re so used to being mistreated. ” 

“ you’ve gotten so used to being hurt that happiness scares you. ” 

“ who robbed you of innocence? ” 

“ who was your first? ” 

“ and the saddest part of all? you’ll cling to the good memories, as if there were any. ” 

“ the pain will always be there. ” 

“ so many people are setting the bar really low. ” 

“ you get what you allow. ”

“ i was never what you wanted. ” 

“ i was just the one you settled for. ” 

“ you’re an experience. ” 

“ meet me here. ” 

“ you were never the one. ” 

“ this was never love. ” 

“ you were simply necessary. ” 

“ i had to be hurt by you. ” 

“ i hope you find what you’re looking for. ” 

“ i hope you find the truth. ” 

“ and that’s how they control you. ” 

“ our version of living feels more like death. ” 

“ i understand you. ” 

“ i was forced to survive in your absence. ” 

“ i was faced with the realization that I never needed you. ” 

“ you’re always apologizing. ” 

“ one day I’ll stop listening. ” 

“ we grew apart.” 

“ we stopped trying. ” 

“ i’m trying to get better. ” 

“ i’m trying to get better at walking away from unhealthy situations. ” 

“ i struggle with the idea of anyone loving me unconditionally. ” 

“ sometimes I wish you waited for me. ” 

“ i got tired of going through the same shit with different people. ” 

“ it’s not your fucking fault. ” 

“ you can’t change a man. ” 

“ the thought of being in love is blinding. ” 

“ bargaining using sex.  either way you get screwed. ” 

“ the memories hurt the most. ” 

“ sometimes i get tired of thinking about the things that i don’t want to think about. ” 

“ sometimes i get so fucking tired. ” 

“ tonight, you’ll be the death of me. ”

[hugchan]

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I’m going to hold off on making a starter call until I get a feel for Risu as a muse. Instead, have an inbox call. If you want it to be within his drhdr verse, please specify!

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ICK--- a magic user in the neighborhood already?

[kamibakura]

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No eyebrows? No problem. Just get crosses tattooed over your gotdamn eyes.