Crouching Red Head

This is my art tumblr, my main tumblr is Hiddenjumprope. My Deviantart is Buzzybuzz

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I’m trying to give my character Elliot a final color scheme. Which one do you like more?

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This was a project I did for my Information Graphics class! I drew a bunch of cute little rats, who are my rats! The Agouti/White one is my recently passed rat  Pippin, and the grey one is my new baby Neville! (I drew him bigger than he is currently, to avoid confusion.) 

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“Th-his is my f-favorite history book...”

Can you tell I like Undertale....

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“However, when you leave... please do not come back” -Toriel

AKA The part my roommate says is where you break her heart. Ugh I wish I could stay with Toriel.

(yes I know her dress is purple, wanted to stick to white/grey/black)

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More doodeling, testing new tablet.

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Instead of working on my storyboard for a class I drew some SU doodles.

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Probably should have posted this here first woops.

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I can't believe I never uploaded this. I need to be better about updating this thing.

So this is a series of self portraits I did last semester for my book making class. It was a book about my transition and these where the illustrations I did for it. Color scheme changes from pink to green.

Tried to be a bit honest with these, so I showed my weight and acne, or at least tried to, in the teen and current drawings.

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For my Illustration class we had to do a 3 hour challenge. Our prompt was a portrait of us as a 5 year old and how we were.

I considered doing something typical, since pictures of me around that time showed a smiling, making silly faces kid. But as we know pictures don't always show reality. I was a depressed kid, bullied at school and my father physically and mentally abused me. I don't remember much of what he did, but I do have enough vague memories to know my mom isn't lying when she told me he physically abused me more than a couple times.

So I wanted to portray that. Maybe as a way of therapy, I don't know. I'm nervous for critique because I do not look 5 years old and it's so personal. I realized during inking I didn't look 5 but I didn't have time to fix it. I have problems with making kids look like kids.

Anyway, some of this is combining events from the future. My mom didn't separate from my dad till I was about 6-7, and when I was 7-9 I was stupid when visiting my dad and I took a suction cup to my forehead to see if it would stick. It did, and it also left a huge bruise on my forehead. When I went back to my moms she wasn't sure if I was telling the truth so she took a picture of me with a newspaper to show the date. She wouldn't have done this when she was still with my dad, but I wanted to show the newspaper thing to make it more of a portrait/photo and to show something else is going on.

It also references a time after my mom separated my dad and my dad beat me up that I kinda remember. All I remember is my mom looking at me in horror when I got home and her saying "Oh my god even your ear is swollen" and me going to look in the mirror to see. I also kinda remember my mom having me take a bath and seeing bruises all over me. My mom didn't take a picture but did take me to the doctor and there are records of it that way.

So yeah. kinda combining various things that happened before, during, and after being 5.

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I did this for my experimental painting class. We had to do a painting that would challange us, so I did something that scared me and I've never done before: Digital painting.

Holy cow this took a lot of time, but I'm proud!

I was going to do Pippin and Noodle too, but ran out of time so I only did lightning. :3

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Welp Elphaba looks awkward but I've tried to draw her so many times and I'm running out of time.

Still, I am glad I decided to listen to my classmates advice (sorry cottna if I seemed dismissive) and re-work it. I feel it's a bit more dynamic.

I hate how defensive I can get in critique. In and out of critique, if I feel overwhelmed and that everyone is "hating" on me (sometimes even if it's needed/helpful) I get defensive and kinda shut down. It's leftover from when I was bullied and other issues. Sigh.

2nd pic is what it looked like before.

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Can you tell I am a bit "done" with doing this?

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Did a drawing in markers and ink of my ponyself. Wanted to iron it out more. I think I have it down to where I want it to be permanently, hairstyle might change (because I just like changing it) but everything else is how I want it. Now I just need a damned cutie mark lol.

In other news, I really need to update this blog more woops. I have so much art from school too.

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I am working on a thing.

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Character of mine from a Doctor Who story I really should work on. Along with all my other stories.

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My girlfriend is trying to get me to update this art blog more so I'm going to try. 

This is a mermaid trans woman character of mine. Basically a trans little mermaid. I really need to do this story. 

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I’m in class trying to work on my typography self portrait.

It succksss…

*tumblrs*

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A little drawing I did for my girl. ;)