An Adventure in Tarot

Diviner | 27| Leo

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I had to throw my cards into my backpack because I had them out on my desk when I shouldn’t have 😅

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Been wanting to work closer with the Three of Wands! Mainly because the Two of Wands and Three of Wands have such similar vibes to me… I think a big difference is the Three of Wands feels like taking a bigger personal risk, where Two of Wands feel more like making a decision for a team?

What’s your personal experience with those two cards? What’s made you differentiate between them?

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Did a year reading for my writer fiancé, and she got a lot of wands in the 2nd half of the year, and I got excited it was her writing building steam.

She rained on my parade by reminding me that we’re planning a wedding 😭😭😭 I want her to write!!!!!!!!!!!!

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A good time to look ahead! I’ve been offering these readings to friends for about 5 years now, and I wanted to offer them here!

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A good time to look ahead! I’ve been offering these readings to friends for about 5 years now, and I wanted to offer them here!

Please dm me or email me at [email protected] for more information!

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Six of Pentacles.

Find a balance within yourself. Know the difference between enough and too much. If it is within your power to help others, do not hesitate.

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The Magician.

Trust in your intuition. The greatest source of deception is your own self doubt. Believe in the light and enlightened you shall remain. Turn away and you shall fall victim to the darkness.

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Eight of Pentacles.

The first steps are always the most difficult. But in time, what once seemed impossible will eventually become commonplace. When given the opportunity, do not hesitate to try something new. For you’ll never know how much you’re capable of if you don’t first try.

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People always want third party tarot readings like shit idk call them on the phone if you wanna know how they feel. “How does X feel about me?” I’m not going to invade X’s privacy like that!!!

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Ugh I did want to say in the reading it’s unrequited even though i got that feeling from the Queen of Cups but i was like “well, maybe tell them how you feel, i think your bond is something to treasure” and she took it as me saying this person likes her back. NO I DID NOT SAY THAT!! I specifically DIDN’T say that it was romantic. And she was like “well I told this person how i feel already and they don’t feel the same” HUH!!! Maybe!!!!! You should be happy with the friendship!!! LIKE I SAID YOU WOULD BE!!!

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People always want third party tarot readings like shit idk call them on the phone if you wanna know how they feel. “How does X feel about me?” I’m not going to invade X’s privacy like that!!!

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09/27/2020

What do I need to know for this week? The Four of Wands... Not going to lie, I am so super stumped on this. There isn’t really anything coming up I can think of that is the end of a step in a project or cycle. I don’t have anything romantic going on... Unless my friend’s letter comes, but I doubt she has sent anything yet. 

I’ll keep these things in mind this week, but it would be really cool if it means that I will be proud of the writing that I get done/ evaluated. I guess we’ll see. I’ll set a reminder for the end of the week to come back to this.

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09/13/2020

What Do I Need to Know for Tomorrow? The World 

Is tomorrow an important day for my self-development? I think this is pointing to the good feeling I get when I have things reasonably planned out. The watchers from the Wheel of Fortune are also on this card. Does the World have a bigger sense of deliberateness than the Wheel of Fortune has? The watchers are no longer studying. Instead they are reduced to their heads. Have they achieved the knowledge they have been seeking? What does this mean for me? 

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09/11/2020

What relationships should I be nurturing?

So the Emperor jumped as soon as I thought of the question, so I’ll allow it this time. I also pulled the Fool and the Ace of Swords.

At first I laughed at the juxtaposition of the stern Emperor and the Fool. It took me a second to zoom out a bit. I’ve been thinking about asking professors for suggestions for extra material to study for the JLPT N2, so I think this reading is telling me to get with it and ask. And to remember to sign up before the deadline. I worry about taking up space and asking for help, but the Fool is here to tell me to just take the plunge. I don’t know enough and it’s fine to go out and seek more. 

That’s really cool of my cards.

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I’m so angry at just… ugh. So anyways, I’ve been in love with my male best friend forever. My cards have told me before that our relationship won’t always feel so one sided. It was very beautiful. 

And recently, I don’t like to put stock in dreams, but they’ve been more realistic. Last night in my dream, I kissed him nearly everywhere but his lips. He was fine receiving my love, but when it came down to his participation he pushed me away.

I had a lot of questions for my cards, related to him and related to other parts of my life.

I know it’s not a great practice to ask yes or know style questions, but I needed to do it. I pulled the World and the Ace of Swords. I had to throw my hands up in frustration. A big part of me realizes I can’t let the delusion of us being soulmates consume me forever; yet, another part of me keeps asking to give him more time. 

We have other things in our lives we need to focus on, like our degrees, my romantic heart will hold on a little longer, I suppose.

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Discovered I’m a lesbian and I have been confusing my need for really close platonic friendships with romantic love. Geez. Thanks cards, you could have helped me with that maybe.

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06/07/2019

Japan Trip General Feelings Reading

For this reading, I decided to take a four seasons approach since I am trying to stay there Fall-Summer.

Fall- The Queen of Wands

This queen feels like me at the beginning of a semester. I’m always full of fighting spirit. Does the queen in me mean I will be able to internalize this energy? Could I extend a hand of friendship?

Winter- The Star

A pause. Some down time to just simply be and enjoy the nature around me. Walk through downtown Kobe at night? Walk around Osaka? Weekend visit to Kyoto?

Spring- The Five of Cups

Not everything will be okay, but good will still remain. Tough times are ahead, but it’s okay to be a little broken. there is a way of grief, if we choose to continue on. Maybe some plans will fall through. Maybe friendships will end, but the future still approaches.

Summer- The Seven of Cups

I usually read this as a big “beware!” sign, but since my plans for summer 2020 are to attend the Olympics in Tokyo, I was instantly drawn to the cups themselves and the laurels. There is always danger on this card. A warning to keep my wits about me. Maybe I will still be dealing with some of the pain from the spring. Some concrete actions I can take include: budgeting a little more money, not getting drunk, and being wary of offers that seem too good to be true.

I’m raising funds for my study abroad stay in Japan on ko-fi! As a thank you, I will do a three card reading per $3 donated for each person that donates. Click through to read more. Thank you!!!

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FUCKING CORONA. Winter really was the Star. I traveled by myself and it was so peaceful. I went traveling with friends and it was so much fun after the hard semester. 

SPRING THOUGH. I deepened so many friendships but we were pulled out of the program early. I feel like Summer was a combo of all the global turmoil and the struggles of online learning

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Gave a girl a love letter, and the cards gave me the world. She is such an important person to me, so no matter what happens, it will feel right. I’m nervous about getting a reply, but I guess I gotta wait for now

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Yesterday i pulled the world and tonight i pulled the nine of cups. Will I be happy enough with friendship or does it mean my wish will be fulfilled? Either is a cause for celebration, really

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Another update: I did a reading for her today and she had the World in the past position. She’s still very dear to me and now that she broke up with her ex she’s been answering my texts more often. I hope that means our friendship is mending

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Personal Reading 09/05/20

I asked my cards about the potentials of my relationships with the people I love the most right now. I wasn’t exactly sure how I was going to structure the reading, but the first three cards I pulled ended up being cards that the three of those people embody: the Knight of Wands, The Hermit, and The Hierophant. The next three cars is how I see myself when I am with them: The Queen of Swords, The King of Cups, and The Three of Cups. 

The Queen of Cups points to how I am always slowing this person down when they let their passions rule over them. The King of Cups matches with The Hermit. This person keeps to herself but is wise and introspective. I’ve helped her be more in touch with expressing her emotions. In turn, she has been the person to make me see paths I thought were closed or not for me. The Hierophant pairs with the Three of Cups. We were part of a triad of friendship. We all took great joy in having such a close connection. Even though we went through hard times, we came very close to salvaging the triad before we were forced to part. 

The last three cards I think reflect what would happen if I pursued more than friendship with them. The Queen of Cups lines up with the Knight of Wands. With effort, I can become more than a nagging presence. I can meet that passion with love and compassion. My biggest fear in pursuing this person has been in how I have treated them in the past. I worry that I am incapable of being kind.

The Four of Swords matched with The Hermit speaks to my fear of being ignored by this person. If I were to pursue her, it would force her to put me on friendship time-out. Recently, I have been scared that if this person gets a boyfriend, I will not be able to hide my jealousy. I have been contemplating confessing my feelings so she can reject me and I can be done with it. I think that option may still be an okay route, but I need to wait a little longer. 

The Seven of Cups is with The Hierophant. This friend isn’t in a place where she can navigate a romantic relationship. She is incapable of making a concrete decision when it comes to love. The kernel of love may exist inside of her, but her unrelated inner turmoil keeps her from uncovering. We are in different points in our lives. 

This has been an interesting reading because it is all information I technically already knew, but with the help of the cards, I was able to compartmentalize this information.