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besties! im officially a graduate! with a first class degree!

It’s taken 6 years and many interruptions. You know just to save my life by being admitted on to an EDU three separate times.

I spent a lot of my early twenty not even wanting to be alive. So to have finally made it and graduated feels incredible.

I’m so grateful for life and all the happiness it now fills me with.

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recovery kinda be like ok I’m good now in comparison to the people I was in hospital with but still have a lot of disordered habits to address

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it seems the only time I come on here now is to post the occasional selfie! But ya girl is doing good ~ I’ll be graduating with a first in July. Very proud. 😌

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I keep finding myself missing the simplicity of my eating disorder - I miss being in therapy and being unwell and looked after

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do you ever just come back here and wonder what in the world happened?

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It’s one week until my last therapy session. Recovery is just wonderful x

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a little update x

hey friends! i know I’ve been away forever and actually I think that’s a really good thing. sometimes i feel as though this blog was used as something to keep me hooked on to my eating disorder n i think a way to make myself feel heard n validated which i really wasn’t getting in the real world.

life is wild n full of so many unexpected turns (something my therapist reminds me of regularly). It’s truly amazing what can happen when you put your all into creating a better life for yourself. It hasn’t been one straight road of recovery, yes i am still in recovery n wobble n mess up & completely convince myself im going to relapse. But here i am, not only feeding myself but ALSO my baby (wahey to breastfeeding)!! Elias is now three months old and he honestly fills my whole heart with so much joy and love💖. It’s coming up to our first Christmas together as a lil family of three and I’m so grateful to be in this world.

Here’s some pictures of me and Elias💜

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would love to see an update when you can! :)

Xxxxx

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being a mum is so dreamy 💜 also look at me go!!!!

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I've been following you for a long time and even though we only talked a few times, I wanted to pop in and tell you how incredibly happy I am for you. I wish you all the best and I know you'll be an amazing mum - you're such a kind and caring person and always had words of support for me when I needed them. I'm sending you so much love and wish you all the best for the future <3

my heart 💜 thank u x

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y’all I had a fucking baby!!!!!!!

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I’ll never forget how far I’ve come. From the worst relapse of my whole illness just 8 or so months ago. I’m not 7 months pregnant, and a lot happier than I’ve been in a very long time. My body has changed so much, but I’m growing a little baby so ofc it has. I am so proud of myself. And so grateful for the amazing things my body has done for me 💘

Yes I’m not completely ‘recovered’ but my god I am so much further along than I’ve ever been/ ever thought was possible. Maybe a life without anorexia is possible...

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Donna Tartt, The Secret History

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what’s the cheat code for stable mental health

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