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𝑾𝑹𝑰𝑻𝑻𝑬𝑵 𝑩𝒀 𝑬𝑼𝑳𝑨𝑳𝑰𝑬 !

this blog is a selective, mutuals-only rp blog for FAIZAH IBN ANAHITA AWAD, a fandomless character. please read my rules before following ! this is a multi-verse and single-ship blog that will have sporadic activity due to the writer (20) being a college junior and running two other blogs.

important links : rules, about.

#pinned.

edenmemes

cowboy bebop starters

❝ i can’t tell when you’re joking and when you’re not. ❞ ❝ you look ridiculous in that outfit. ❞ ❝ when we show fear, it jumps at us faster than light. ❞ ❝ go on, pull the trigger. ❞ ❝ guess you’ll have to chalk it up to bad luck. ❞ ❝ whatever happens, happens. ❞ ❝ how long were you there? i didn’t hear you come in. ❞ ❝ some promises are made to be broken. ❞ ❝ you’ve already caused me enough trouble. ❞ ❝ i’m fully aware of the danger. ❞ ❝ why do you do all of this? for money? some sort of revenge? or perhaps just for fun? ❞ ❝ the more you know, the shorter your life will be. ❞ ❝ let’s just say my past is catching up to me. ❞ ❝ go ahead and run. how far do you think you’ll get? ❞ ❝ i want to get out of this life. ❞ ❝ i’ll be with you. until the end. ❞ ❝ you’re lucky you got away with only this scratch on your arm. ❞ ❝ stick your neck out too far, and you’ll get it cut. ❞ ❝ i was starting to worry about you. ❞ ❝ i thought i’d say goodbye, since it’ll be the last i’ll be seeing you. ❞ ❝ you know the first rule of combat? shoot them before they shoot you. ❞ ❝ you’ve never told me anything about yourself. ❞ ❝ hey there, having a little trouble? ❞ ❝ do you have any idea what you look like? a ravenous beast. ❞ ❝ this is strictly business. ❞ ❝ are you pleading for your life? ❞ ❝ i love the kind of woman that can kick my ass. ❞ ❝ remember: a snake cannot eat a dragon. ❞ ❝ you came all the way here to see me? ❞ ❝ belonging is the very best thing there is. ❞ ❝ there was no place for me to return to. this was the only place i could go. ❞ ❝ they lead you like a lamb to slaughter. ❞ ❝ if we had met earlier in life, do you think that we would have been friends? ❞ ❝ i’m not a criminal. woah…that makes me sound more like a criminal, doesn’t it? ❞ ❝ you know what they say. easy come, easy go. ❞ ❝ no one can draw a clear line between sane and insane. you move that line as you see fit for yourself. ❞ ❝ don’t try to talk anymore. we’ll have a doctor in a few minutes. ❞ ❝ why do you have to go? ❞ ❝ i know who you are. i’ve heard about you. ❞ ❝ you should see yourself right now. ❞ ❝ so, you’re finally awake. ❞ ❝ either way, we were destined to end up like this. ❞ ❝ that threat doesn’t work on me anymore. ❞ ❝ a star just fell from the sky. ❞ ❝ we should’ve never taken such a risk. ❞ ❝ your heart is colder than any planet. ❞ ❝ of the days that i have lived, only those i spent with you felt real. ❞ ❝ what’s wrong? lost your nerve? ❞ ❝ hello there, my friend, welcome to hell. ❞ ❝ how long were you in there listening? ❞ ❝ i have no fear of death. it just means dreaming in silence. ❞ ❝ you’re kidding yourself if you think every person is like you. they’re not. ❞ ❝ you told me once to forget the past, but you’re the one still tied to it. ❞ ❝ before i knew it, the dream was all over ❞ ❝ angels banished from heaven have no choice but to become devils. ❞ ❝ having ourselves a little nap, huh? ❞ ❝ time never stands still. ❞ ❝ you are a part of me that i had lost. ❞ ❝ you’re a good shot. ❞ ❝ let’s go somewhere. just the two of us. ❞ ❝ so, there is no place for me after all. ❞ ❝ there is nothing in this world to believe in. ❞ ❝ when this is over, i’m getting out of it. all of it. ❞ ❝ shit. this whole thing gives me a headache. ❞ ❝ the same blood runs through both of us. ❞ ❝ if there’s anyone who needs pity here, it’s you. ❞ ❝ why are you still alive? ❞ ❝ so, how about it? you’ll have a little drink, won’t you? ❞ ❝ once you let your teeth in something, you never let go of it. ❞ ❝ i’m not in a great mood right now, all right? ❞ ❝ what, you think you’re too good to talk to me? ❞ ❝ everything’s broken around this place. ❞ ❝ didn’t your grandmother ever tell you to finish what you start? ❞ ❝ i’ll meet you at the end of this world. ❞ ❝ you were always waiting for me. and that’s all i needed. you. ❞ ❝ what are you spacing out about? ❞ ❝ what are you going to do? throw away your life like it was nothing? ❞ ❝ i’m watching a dream i’ll never wake up from. ❞ ❝ i’m not the type to be led around. ❞ ❝ it’s so like you to worry about things. ❞ ❝ come on out. you can’t run anymore. ❞ ❝ don’t give me that art of war crap. ❞ ❝ you’re a strange one, aren’t you? ❞ ❝ this could be a trap. ❞ ❝ for some reason, i didn’t feel sad. it just didn’t seem real. ❞ ❝ if i tell you, i’d have to kill you. ❞ ❝ now, don’t get hotheaded. ❞ ❝ there’s something you’re looking for, isn’t there? something you need to find? ❞ ❝ if you wanna know something, let me see some cash. ❞ ❝ hey, i said i was sorry. ❞ ❝ i don’t know who you are and i don’t really give a damn. ❞ ❝ if you want to receive, you must first give. ❞ ❝ i had a little trouble, but it’s nothing i can’t handle. ❞ ❝ tell me what you’re doing here. ❞ ❝ we either deceive or are deceived. we flourish or perish. ❞ ❝ you don’t give up, do you? ❞ ❝ if you want to survive, you’ll have to betray me at times. ❞ ❝ i had no idea the view from up here would be so breathtaking. ❞ ❝ damn…all that work and no reward. ❞ ❝ don’t come back. there won’t be a place for you. ❞ ❝ i haven’t committed any crimes. well…at least not bad ones. ❞ ❝ doing things like this won’t bring you any good. ❞ ❝ what happened to your generosity? ❞ ❝ i’ve never had anything good happen to me when i trusted others. ❞ ❝ little by little, i felt something inside of me go numb. ❞ ❝ thank god i can finally relax. take a little breather. ❞ ❝ come on, hang in there, you hear me? ❞ ❝ do not fear death. death is always at our side. ❞ ❝ you’re in a good mood today. ❞ ❝ i don’t know why i’m telling you all this. i feel like i’m in a confession booth. ❞ ❝ you’ve never listened to anyone in your whole life. ❞ ❝ we’re supposed to be a team here, you know. ❞ ❝ you’re avoiding the subject and you know it. what are you trying to hide from me? ❞ ❝ to our new alliance, and perhaps even friendship. ❞ ❝ when something goes wrong, someone must take responsibility. ❞ ❝ what’s your problem? you wanna fight? ❞ ❝ don’t try anything. ❞ ❝ you’ve got a bit of mercy in you, haven’t you? ❞ ❝ i want to be strong like you. ❞ ❝ what’s all this? isn’t this a little risky? ❞ ❝ it’s no use playing innocent. ❞ ❝ you have something beautiful deep inside you. it’s hard for some people to tell, but it’s there. ❞ ❝ you’re trembling. ❞ ❝ how do you know so much about me? ❞ ❝ i’m okay. it takes more than to kill me. ❞ ❝ ‘survival of the fittest’ is the law of nature. ❞ ❝ i want to live my own life, make my own decisions…even if they are terrible mistakes. ❞ ❝ hey, thanks a lot for the warm welcome. ❞ ❝ what makes you think you can do whatever the hell you like? ❞ ❝ you’re just walking trouble, so stay out of it. ❞ ❝ i said i don’t feel like doing this. ❞ ❝ you’re just afraid they’ll abandon you, so you abandon them. ❞ ❝ and you trust me just like that? ❞ ❝ i never did understand you, right to the very end. ❞ ❝ unfortunately, we quickly forget the lessons we learn, and then we have to learn them all over again. ❞ ❝ you’ll survive this. be strong. ❞ ❝ how many lies are you going to tell me before you’re done? ❞ ❝ remember: i will always be cheering you on. ❞ ❝ what do you get by running away? ❞ ❝ do people ever tell you that you’re the silent type? ❞ ❝ i get a strange feeling when i look in your eyes. ❞ ❝ this time, i hope you have sweet dreams. ❞ ❝ will you rescue me if someone goes wrong? ❞ ❝ do you want to know a secret about my past? ❞ ❝ even if you play by the rules, nothing gets solved. ❞ ❝ you’re gonna carry that weight. ❞ ❝ so, you were going to betray me? ❞ ❝ that arrogance of yours will be your ruin. ❞ ❝ you’re the only one i can turn to for help right now. ❞ ❝ i’m not the delicate cautious type. ❞ ❝ i…can’t come with you. ❞ ❝ my love for you burns strong. ❞ ❝ they say ghosts appear in places where they have regrets. ❞ ❝ in this world, people must cherish whatever ties they have. ❞ ❝ you’re the one person i could never forgive. ❞ ❝ serves you right. this is poetic justice. ❞ ❝ i’ve got no place to stay. ❞ ❝ we’ll leave here and get out of this. ❞ ❝ what makes you think that you know anything about me? ❞ ❝ i’m telling you this for your own good. if you’re smart, you’ll stay out of it. ❞ ❝ of course, i can see now how stupid i was. ❞ ❝ did you sleep well? ❞ ❝ keep dreaming. it’s never going to happen. ❞ ❝ sometimes it’s good not to ask ‘what’s in it for me?’ ❞ ❝ does it look like i’m joking around? ❞ ❝ all is fair in love and war. ❞ ❝ i’m just glad you’re safe. ❞ ❝ maybe this is the one i won’t come back from. ❞ ❝ it’s no use. there’s nothing we can do. ❞ ❝ what a smile. so sad…so beautiful. ❞ ❝ i know why you’re here. ❞ ❝ well, it looks like all my good karma is finally paying off. ❞ ❝ could you be a little quieter, please? ❞ ❝ if we do not show fear, it casts its eye upon us gently and then guides us into infinity. ❞ ❝ i’ll take care of this. you can go back. ❞ ❝ this is the real world. this is no place for pretty ideals. ❞ ❝ i’m just watching a bad dream i never wake up from. ❞ ❝ for once, just stick to the plan. ❞ ❝ this is the first time i agree with you on something. ❞ ❝ you haven’t changed, huh? ❞ ❝ maybe…or maybe that’s just part of the legend. ❞ ❝ if i get caught, nothing can save me. nothing. ❞

#yes.#inbox.

you can’t just kill people, misha.

“ you’re not still mad at me, are you? ” there’s genuine confusion upon his face, completed with that classic puppy tilt. “ you can’t get mad at me for doing what i do best.”

he’s looking for a fight, deep down. though the demon slumbers, that drive to agitate still lingers. so he will. he’s earned it, hasn’t he? after all he’s been through? “ you knew the risk of letting me out. don’t complain, herzchen. ”

❛ i’m not mad. ❜ he tells himself not to feed into misha’s provocations, not to accept his notions of gray morality. ❛ you know full well you didn’t need to kill him, so live with that weight. ❜ when he faces misha, they stand closer than is proper for their stations. no doubt there’s a snide comment in faizah’s future, but he takes the opportunity to brush some imperceptible dust from misha’s suit and straighten his collar. ❛ i accepted the risk. i accepted you. regardless of what happens. ❜

#soulrot #thread.#caretaker of a former shadow.#as a wise man once said OOGA BOOGA

🎉 OOGA BOOGA BOOGA

the party erupts into action in the minutes leading up to midnight. the noises, the heat, the crowding of people; faizah feels a coarse friction beneath his skin as anxiety prickles at the back of his neck. he excuses himself from a less-than-riveting conversation with drunk partygoers and steps out onto the patio for fresh air. when he looks up, all he can see is venus — the planet of love, the only star that manages to shine beyond the skyline lights. how poetic, he thinks, listening to the patio door open again and (he listens to the footsteps to tell) his husband steps out. faizah lost track of the seconds before midnight, but couldn’t hear any drunken cheers to celebrate the new year.

❛ come to give me my pre-new year’s kiss? i’m beginning to predict your g— ❜ and suddenly, faizah is spun around and kissed as the clock strikes midnight, fireworks lighting up the sky and dwarfing the love-star that captured his attention moments ago. against his better judgement, his foot lifts as misha places a hand on his hip and the other on the nape of his neck. they part just an inch and misha gives a smirk that would drive faizah insane if it was any other day.

❛ what were you saying, about predicting something? ❜

faizah raises an eyebrow, then delicately grabs misha’s chin and begins to pull him in for a post-new year’s kiss.

#soulrot #answered.#husband.#this is an hour after new years BUT THATS OK #HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

vaememes

Send ’ 🎉 ’ to kiss my muse at midnight on New Years Eve.

Alternatively, send ’ 🎉 + diss ’ to turn away from my muse trying to kiss yours at midnight on New Years Eve.

#inbox.#AHEM

soulrot

@crownrust - " do you regret it? coming with me? “

there’s a temptation to say sometimes, yeah, but he doesn’t. partly because he knows it’d make faizah upset, mainly because he’s not even sure if he means it. where would he go if he did? he’s lost, they both are but especially him, and he’s clinging to faizah as if he’s the last lifebuoy on sinking ship. he has a lot of regrets, he resolves. but none of them have anything to do with you.

i regret myself. “ no. i don’t. ” he settles on that, squeezing the remnants of his cigarette that fizzled out a long time ago. “ you weren’t gonna let me stay anyway. don’t ask such impossible questions, fai. ”

#EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP OJ YMGOD THE GAY PEOPLE #GAY MEN IN LOVE #husband.#soulrot #saved.#YYEYEYYEEAHHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

deviledevil

karna and arjuna prints i made for AX! i had a ton of fun painting these, actually (and no, they did not take as long as they look like they did) these will be in two sizes at table B18 in the AA! 11x17 posters are regular satin stock, and then 5.5 x 8.5 (LIMITED) will come in holographic stock.

you can also find these in my FGO book (check my catalog before you ask questions), and they will come as a bonus item with the first 15 people that grab a copy of the book. thank you!

#* : 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄 — the first / a revolutionary.#* : 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄 — the second / a commander.