[crunchyapple33]

"manifestation is always your default, so you can’t 'give up manifesting', you can only settle for less and give up thinking in your favor" - comment on taylor tookes' video on not giving up on the law of assumption

" . . but i know what i like, i know i like dancing with you, and i know what you like, i know you like dancing with me, oh yeah . . "

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hello everyponiii ^-^

my name is zachary, or zach, ! i am 9teen years old, and use he / him pronouns!!

i am a sagittarius sun, virgo moon, and libra rising . absolutely begging to be told what any of that means. i am a polytheist pagan (although with pretty bad inconsistencies with actually praying..), and currently mainly worship Apollo<3

i am disabled and neurodivergent! most important: osdd, audhd,.. ocd, c-ptsd ! these are the main disorders that dictate who i am hehe. i originally made this account to get back in touch with my spiritual side, and thankfully i have achieved this goal :3

so, shifting and related topics. i discovered manifestation when i was 11, and discovered reality shifting when i was 16. i go through phases of forgetting my power, to suddenly rediscovering manifestation and reality shifting. i'm really hoping having a shiftblr account will keep me disciplined with that LMFAO

as a quick 'get-away-from-my-blog-if-you-don't-like-these-things', here's a few other things i am: i am a gay lesbian, and both a boy and a girl (i only prefer if myself/my system calls us a girl). i am a therian, and consider myself nonhuman. i am an age regressor. i am ambiamorous (or: both polyamorous and monogamous). i am a baby witch, an anarcho-communist, and can be annoyingly opinionated sometimes.

extra: i have no dni.! i block when i feel uncomfortable.

okay.. now that that info is out there,.. what else can i mention . .

i see my relationship with my s/os, kori and lydia, as very real to me. like; including in this reality. i've seen others get anonymous hate for feeling the same way as i do with their own s/os, so i feel the need to share this info for that reason. just block me now if u don't like me for that reason, idk.

rupaul's drag race is my special interest! if you're also shifting to be apart of the show, PLEASEEE feel free to talk to me!! me, jimhuttons, and smellofemale can't be the only rpdr shifters </3

my realities:

rupaul's drag race

yellowjackets

college x marvel

summer camp

high school

and many others ~!

[depsidase]

[semataryyyy]

[crunchyapple33]

had a small vision of my drag race reality...... MY BLANKET IS PURPLE!!!!!!!!

[cloverapple]

Sue me, but I think you’ll make more progress in five minutes of spiraling than in five years of trying to shift.

Hear me out:

Ever heard binaural beats? Put 528 Hz in one ear, 520 Hz in the other. You don’t actually hear either one directly. Your brain locks onto the difference: 8 Hz. Your awareness detects contradiction because it effectively responds to dissonance.

Reality works exactly like that. When you're fully holding:

“I already have it” AND “But I don’t see it right now,” you're living in a frequency clash.

The system hates that. Awareness can’t remain in pure contradiction. So it starts syncing to the resolution. It starts looking for that “8 Hz” that makes sense of the noise.

And when you crash out—when you’re crying, screaming, losing your mind over how the logic literally does not add up, because you KNOW, in every fiber of you, that this thing is yours but it’s not appearing—that moment is not a failure.

It’s not you wavering, it’s your awareness detecting a mismatch and equalizing.

The illusion is that you need to “believe better” or “assume more correctly” or “stay calm” for things to shift. Noooo. Realizing the bullshit is the gateway and crashing out is the recalibration. You're slamming two contradictory states together so hard that awareness is forced to adjust the observable reality to match your strongest signal— which, in that moment, is: “I KNOW I HAVE IT, BECAUSE I CAN’T INTEND TO HAVE SOMETHING AND NOT HAVE IT, SO IT MUST BE RIGHT HERE. I KNOW IT’S HERE, THE LACK IS FAKE!”

That creates movement. Five minutes of looking around at your CR like “I know I already have it, so what the fuck is this??” hits your awareness like a seismic wave.

Don’t fear the contradiction because you think wavering and checking the 3d kills your intention. Because the frequency of that dissonance is the only sound awareness can’t unhear.

“Wait, but won’t I then be observing a reality where I have it, but don’t see it?”

Well, is that what you intend? I know you’re smart. You intend to have your desire already. To shift. Now let go of this awful idea that they implanted in your mind, that if you check for proof, automatically you’re done for.

Check for proof, because if you don’t see it in front of your eyes right this second while intending to have it, then what you’re seeing simply isn’t real. Remember that the proof that you have your desire, is not seeing your desire itself, but the action (intention) you took to have that outcome.

I know you feel crazy. I know you’re practically tearing your hair out and wondering what the hell you’re doing wrong, why you’re not shifting.

But your logic is fine. Your sanity’s intact. What you’re feeling is the pressure of suppressed knowing. Like trying to sit calm in a burning building because someone told you you had to “trust.”

No. Scream. Bust the fucking door down. Delete Tumblr. Tell these bloggers (myself included) to shove their advice. You don’t need all of this, because you already know what’s yours. That’s why you can’t quit or let this go.

When you’re crashing out in tears, you’re not “blocking your manifestation,” you’re sweating it out like a fever breaking.

Stop thinking the dissonance means you’re wrong. It means you’re too right to ignore.

Caveat: the way I shifted after two years (more like a decade tbh, I’ve known about quantum jumping since I was ≈10) was by questioning the glitch, crashing out, and calling out the bullshit.

Even now, the way I continue to expand my consciousness, simplify my way of shifting/manifesting, and learn (realize) new things always comes back to:

“if I know w, have x, and can do y, THEN LOGICALLY I HAVE Z”

That’s why—to me—calling out the flaw in the illusion always works no matter what.

[t4yce]

AQUARIA • give it to me straight ep 67

[t4yce]

JUJUBEE • rupaul’s drag race 2.06 "black velvet" lip sync ↳ for @surgicalgradedoll

[kittyshifts]

i love being me. i love being in fandoms. i love shifting and hanging out with my loved ones in another reality. i love manifesting and making my dreams come true. i love scrolling through pinterest and tumblr. i love being nerdy, not caring what others think. i'm happy that i'm still here. i'm happy that you're still here.

[crunchyapple33]

      — songs that remind me of reality shiftingㅤ! ㅤ

      — perfect places   .   lorde   ♪   

"send us to perfect places all of our heroes fading now i can't stand to be alone let's go to perfect places all of the nights spent off our faces trying to find these perfect places what the fuck are perfect places anyway?"

      — like real people do   .   hozier   ♪   

"i will not ask you where you came from i will not ask you and neither would you honey just put your sweet lips on my lips we should just kiss like real people do"

      — moves   .   suki waterhouse   ♪   

"i'ma put some goddamn moves on you, babe, i know you need it die a double death for you, death for your secrets i'll find another way for you, wait 'til you see it put some goddamn moves on you, god knows you need it"

      — fools   .   troye sivan   ♪   

"oh, our lives don't collide, i'm aware of this we've got differences and impulses and your obsession with the little things, you like stick, and i like aerosol i don't give a fuck, i'm not giving up, i still want it all"

hearts dividers by @cursed-carmine, post is here

[crunchyapple33]

ive figured it out . it's the tumblr community who are the most accepting of mspec identities, and twitter who still is a very unsafe community for mspecs

[crunchyapple33]

starting to be convinced im never finishing my drag race script

[crunchyapple33]

i still havent finished it 😭😭😭😭

[crunchyapple33]

im going fucking insane my chest hurts im dizzy IM LOOSING MY MIND

[crunchyapple33]

toooootally am not thinking about scripting an entire apocalypse / dystopian ar based off of this tweet ............

[crunchyapple33]

heyyyy dont mind me im just . holding a new dr gently in the palms of my hands rn ( and posting this to make a tag for said dr teehee)

featuring the absolutely amazing @smellofemale who's comment may have drove me up the WALL last night /vpos

(if u want me to delete this plz say !!! i wasnt sure if you'd be fine with me adding ur @ to my screenie , which is why it's gone , but if you'd like me to remove ur comment entirely im more then happy to do so!!!)

( something something . poly buttkingsian in another dr. are we surprised)

(elysian is my drag last name in my main dr . idk what else i can put for my part of the ship name )

[crunchyapple33]

heyyy i made a strawpage with a wikipedia page of me in my rpdr dr i hope everyone likes it <3

[crunchyapple33]

"basic dni criteria" is so vague nowadays. are u a good person or are you going to be a pos

[crunchyapple33]

i dont understand "i am" like . what do you mean affirm 'i am'?? like LITERALLY "i am, i am, i am, i am" on repeat or am i supposed to like . finish the sentence while affirming???