The day of your death I put a 50-mg dose of Testogel on my skin, so that I can begin to write this book. [âŠ] Iâm not taking testosterone to change myself into a man, nor as a physical strategy of transsexualism; I take it to foil what society wanted to make of me, so that I can write, fuck, feel a form of pleasure that is post-pornographic, add a molecular prostheses to my low-tech transgendered identity composed of dildos, texts, and moving images; I do it to avenge your death.
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When I take a dose of testosterone in gel form or inject it in liquid form, what Iâm actually giving myself is a chain of political signifiers that have been materialized in order to acquire the form of a molecule that can be absorbed by my body. Iâm not only taking the hormone, the molecule, but also the concept of a hormone, a series of signs, texts, and discourses, the process through which the hormone came to be synthesized, the technical sequences that produce it in the laboratory. I inject a crystalline, oil-soluble steroid carbon chain of molecules, and with it a fragment of the history of modernity. [âŠ] In this way, I become one of the somatic connectives that make possible the circulation of power, desire, release, submission, capital, rubbish, and rebellion.
As a bodyâand this is the only important thing about being a subject-body, a techno-living systemâIâm the platform that makes possible the materialization of political imagination. [âŠ] Iâm the molecule and the State, and Iâm the laboratory rat and the scientific subject that conducts the research; Iâm the residue of a biochemical process. I am the future common artificial ancestor for the elaboration of new species in the perpetually random process of mutation and genetic drift. I am T.
[âŠ] I am a copyleft biopolitical agent that considers sex hormones free and open biocodes, whose use shouldnât be regulated by the State commandeered by pharmaceutical companies.
[âŠ] It is a question of becomings, of multiplicities. In such a context, âmolecular revolutionâ could point to a kind of political homeopathy of gender. Itâs not a matter of going from woman to man, from man to woman, but of contaminating the molecular bases of the production of sexual difference, with the understanding that these two states of being, male and female, only exist as âbiopolitical fictions,â as somatic effects of the technical process of normalization. Itâs a matter of intervening intentionally in this process of production in order to end up with viable forms of incorporated gender, to produce a new sexual and affective platform that is neither male nor female in the pharmacopornographic sense of these terms, which would make possible the transformation of the species. T is only a threshold, a molecular door, a becoming between multiplicities.
