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[crya-pear]

Firsttt ever post on tumblr!! (or any other social platform lol)

!! I v3nt/r5nt a LOT !!

This place is my diary or some sort

Intro under read more~~ .𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁ ˖.𖥔 ݁

Hi!! I'm Pear !!

I'm a potential dropout in uni and this is literally my first post on the internet if we exclude the art i shared on dc groups! So it's kinda exciting to do it here on tumblr and im very nervous too aaaa

I do have a main acc but this one will be a vent acc where i share whatever comes into my mind depending on my mood AND I WANNA REPOST WHATEVER TF I WANT!!! >:DD without thinking what others might say about me (;_;)/~~~

The reason why i'm doing this impulsively rn is that i wanna have a place on the net to leave something behind before i go bonkers

Bl0ck D0n't rep0rt please!

⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖random stuff about me⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖

And also about this acc :D

♡ I support pro-recovery but if you are, plz dont come here, it may affect you badly

♡ I love love buying new clothes and trying new styles. I want to sew my own clothes one day ... and i love nail polish!! I WANT THEM ALL!!!

♡ I listen to lot of genres,,, to angelic and slow songs like Sophie Woodhouse to indie rock or F0LK PUNK RAAAA (i used to listen J0hnny hob0 like there was no tmrrw)

♡ Multifandom

♡ Non-eng speaker! Please excuse my lack of words and grammar

♡ I'm bad at talking to new people ... but i would like to become moots!!

(Although, i am not an active mootie..)

⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖ my tags ⋆.˚⟡ ࣪ ˖

# pear is arting ~~ art

# rambling a pear ~~ talking random stuff

[oshikatsutenshi]

the (best) collection! i'll cherish all of these beyond the limits of death...

[oshikatsutenshi]

admires admires admires

[crya-pear]

As opposed to my intro, I'm now an official dropout. Gonna re-enter the entrance exams next year. My studying-for-the-entrance-exam ptsd is coming back like a nightmare but fuck it we ball i can do better than where i'm at rn

(Dw about the family stuff, it's definitely better this way)

[crya-pear]

Yeah so imagine being both a computer major and a security major teacher and getting trojan into one of your student's pc.

Under read more cuz its long again and im fucked rn

Teacher downloaded that trojan when said student got their pc on day one, so the student doesn't notice any "abnormalities" CUZ IT'S THE FIRST TIME THEY USE IT. They are like "ohh ok it's slow since it's a low end pc". So the trojan stays there for like 2 months. The student is like "i only do silly codes" so they dont even think about scanning for viruses.

Fast forward to today, the student realize they downloaded a wrong version of ReVanced yt on their phone, which they've been using for like... 5 months... so they need to root their phone just in case of any malware. They'll send the photos to their pc. But the student is like.. hollup lemme scan my pc first too.. AND SO, THEY REALIZED EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TILL NOW

Wtf you mean i've had "application hack tool"s and "trojan generic"s for 2 months..

According to my friend, they can still access my data (phone, gmail, steam) even if i change my passwords. Fuck my life man

IF MY GMAIL OF 8 YEARS GOES DEAD I'LL FUCKING SUE THAT BITCH HOE OF A TEACHER

"Yo but u got malware on ur phone too? Cuz u downloaded the wrong yt shi" first of all there are no sighs of malware on my phone atm- GIRL I'VE SEEN PEOPLE USING THAT WRONG REVANCED YT FOR 3 YEARS. UNAWARE. AND ITS AN OPEN SOURCED FORK. it didnt even use any unnecessary battery or heated my phone. at best they are bitcoin mining out of me BUT THIS BITCH GOT ME TROJAN. ON THE PC. WITH MY PERSONAL MAIL.

[crya-pear]

I have school work i have places to be i dont have time for them making me wanna kill myself. Im not in spring break anymore i dont have time to fight w them and be miserable. I dont have time for them making me the black sheep again. But here we are. I WASNT EVEN INVOLVED IN WHAT HAPPENED it was literally like someone made a crime and you happened to be on the crime scene. And i still cant wrap my head around this, it hurts so bad.

This shit can't go on like this. I can't rely on getting better. Because im still in the same household. I'll drop out, period and try find a job. I won't be able to do my presentations so i'll fail anyway. There is no reason to keep going. Maybe if i start next month i can save up enough till the end of the summer to move out. Im not even sure cuz economy sucks here

[crya-pear]

Hey people how are you

Answer the question and then read the bottom texts >:[ (jokes aside, Im sorry i keep coming back here when things in my life go shit. But nothing makes me more safe than this place and communities, even if i dont interact as i used to, dont read them they are cringe and long asf.)

If you are wondering (you do not) im back in the cycle again and they put me back in the same situation which they made me go thru for 1.5 months. Im screaming on top of my lungs rn i cant fucking wrap my head around it. I tried to talk with a friend from my school about what happened but she shove it off so bad. And i think the jirai community is not that active like it was before?

Man everything was going great, my grades and mentality were improving, i was so into my major and fulfilling lots of certificates. I have 3 big presentations this week which will decide 30% of my grades each.

They fucked me up again. The cops involved and im in really bad stuff because of my mom. I wanna explain it in the next post cuz im sure as hell i'll type it long, but to be short, i had nothing to do with the situation and now 4 people of the family are threatening me again. I cant believe what's happening to me rn. How was i involved and how did they made me the one who started it all. I have no idea. I dont understand. I got caught up in this mess without even being there. This time it is so bad too. Like bad than everything i had been thru before. And this fact fks me up so bad.

I had plans for today and tomorrow which i looked really forward to. I wanna try killing myself instead. I cant do my presentations like this too. Why does she keep choosing the times where i have my life at full. Why

[crya-pear]

I FOUND YOU

IM SO SORRY MY OLD ACC GOT HACKED SO I MADE A NEW ONE BUT I COULDNT FIND YOU

If you couldn't tell my username was the same but without the 1 at the end :')

I'm sorry for not finding you sooner!!!

OMG HI HIII WB IM SORRY U GOT HACKED OMG

Its okay dw!! I kinda logged off for a month or so, and logged back in like an hour ago hehe and i remember your username ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ,<)~✩‧₊ its hard to forget such an iconic name yk

How are you doinggg

[crya-pear]

Another reason to love and lock tf in to my major is so i could understand what was going on at first glance in the scene where kinger was doing coding stuff like this guy did

https://www.instagram.com/p/DWLoozEjioK/?igsh=eDk1NGV4N3lmdzV3

(My eng is thrown out off the window atm)

And i forgot i opened this acc so i could vent, follow and like all the mentally ill stuff on tumblr but i started to follow and like people's post about art and fandoms in general. I hope no one who i followed/liked posts sees my acc and thinks about rporting me. I have a main acc but im just too lazy to log out off here..

[crya-pear]

Guess whatttt !!

My mom is home cuz the holiday has ended :))

And she went for a fight with me right after she came home and i broke into tears cuz my mentality wasn't in survival mode anymore and it couldn't handle the 180 turn of events within an hourrrr

Yippieeee :DDDd (im still crying and screaming. Literally. But im better now ig.)

[crya-pear]

These bitvhes in my group project are making me nuts.

I told yall, they'd say that i "didn't anticipate in anything". AND THEY LITERALLY DID THAT i gave like 3 damn ideas, bring the fucking team together cuz no one was even answering the chat msgs, AT ALL and i made the arts so they wouldn't use ai are u srs AAAA

I tried to talk but now it gives the impression that the two (2) people who didn't do anything did more than me. Fuck ts man. I was gonna prepare the presentation but looks like some guy did it without telling anyone. I SAID IT IN THE CHAT THAT I WAS GONNA DO IT. And he brags that he did the "animations" all night (he made the presentation itself with ai) HE COULD'VE TOLD ME MAYBE??? HM???

Oh and another thing! A girl, who only did one (1) thing, goT 3 TASK SHARING PARTS?? WHAT??? THE MATH DOESNT ADD UP.

Fuck group projects, im okay with getting bad grades but now THEY'LL get more points than i in the same project. Just because they have more parts under their names. I cant except that.

Anyway, have some really weird hands and art of my mood

I forgor how to hand. i wanna electrocute that group project people

[tired-shipper]

being a tumblr user is fun : the staff look like they're trying their hardest to kill the platform, half of the internet thinks we're dead, the other half reblogs our posts on pinterest, and we celebrate the murder of julius caesar every year.

[crya-pear]

do you like pears

Woah i never hear of such fruit, may i make a cult about it perchance (*-`ω´- )人

[crya-pear]

Meep meep :o

Meep meep :OO

[crya-pear]

Its like 8 pm and the first thing i have is a fucking vodka

[crya-pear]

It just makes me wanna cry more

[crya-pear]

I wish i had a friend to share this drink with

[crya-pear]

I wish i didnt bring my laptop w me like what was the purpose?? Its just empty heavyness