Looked at a bunch of old messages between me and the only guy I’d claimed to love and I truly pushed him away. The most lovely person, I pushed him away with my pushyness, insecurities, and immaturity. I drunk texted him soo many times and embarrassed myself. I was young and going through some real shit…so I can forgive myself. But he truly liked me back and I just lost my mind. I wish I could just reach out and apologize but we haven’t spoken since 2019.















