Speeding Up My Life

20 & trying recover

[diaryofacreativehoarder]

[destroymylife]

[crystallinemethamphetamine]

Tbh my heart has become so hardened over the years of trauma I can’t feel shit

If it hurts fuck ya it hurts but I get over it & it’s gone instanteously like waves in the ocean

The waves come & go they are are very fleeting sometimes they burn very bright & I wonder what they mean

But usually I let them roll off my shoulders & it all becomes nothing & I lay in another nothing bed & wake up to another nothing day

I’m so used to all the nothingness I am rarely caught off guard or surprised infact all the nothingness has made it to where I can no longer cry

the nothingness will sometimes make me very angry but then I get very high & the wave of anger rolls off my shoulders but if the new wave burns bright & I still wonder what it means

Until that wave rolls off my shoulders too & then I wake up to another nothing day

[fleshfeathers]

[richandhigh007]

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[crystallinemethamphetamine]

@paranoidschizophrenics

[sixpenceee]

Moonrise over Scoresby iceburgs. Photography by Daniel Korden.

[preschooldr0pout]

[thraxxhouse]

nightmare on elm street.

[forcedcconvalescence]

rude that my neck isn’t being kissed rn but ok….

[cosmonautroger]

[iamlaichici]

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Keith Haring Journals

[quentinderonzier]

Blinding light. 2019. Artwork by Quentin Deronzier

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