GorJESS 🦋💜
I think about you a lot
I wake and all I do is weep
All my pleas with god, but he could not hear
I know we all wish, we could keep you near
I call out your name, you answer not
I look for your face in every familiar spot
Everything feels so strange and surreal
Living in a world without you here
Where is the soft brown eyes of affection?
Where is the laughter and dimples?
When we would talk of childhood reflection
Where is the loving caring person
When I was sick or sad ?
Where is the GorJESS soul ?
For which I was glad to have,
To count on,
You never let me down,
You was always there to talk to me.
Looking backs on life’s assorted scenes
I miss the little ways you showed you cared
I keep searching for you
even though I know you’re not there
I realize now you taught me what love truly means
You was a sister, a mother, a daughter, a partner and friend
Who’s loving support we could always depend
I look at your smile in all of my photos
Memories flood my mind as I touch Mementos
From the happy times you and I had
but now these things bring me to tears and making sad
sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile
Other times grief takes over for a while
I should be happy your free of pain and sorrow
I should be rejoiced you’ll always have tomorrow
how can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry
begging God to return you from the peaceful place you lie
My heart breaks a little every time somebody says your name
wishing it was all a bad dream
I don’t know how to get up from this fall you’re not here to get me through it all
I know when God took you back he was happy to have you home
But did he think of what he was doing to our home once you was gone
pain creeps up on me,
cripples me and leaves me in tears
Pain; noun.
physically suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury
ironic because Our pain is not caused from either but we feel it physically
Did you know you can die from a broken heart? that’s a real thing
is that’s what’s in store for thee
the pain you left never goes away
it’s just gods reminder despite our best efforts, you could not stay
Pain funny how It can change so much
God must have seen your pain and realize it was too much for you to bear
so he took your pain from you,
split it up and gave it to those that care.
God gave us each apart of your pain to keep so you can be OK and at peace
I know for a fact we would have taken your pain if we could
we just didn’t expect this to be the only way
Maybe God explained it to you in a way you understood
I know we could hear you, you would be telling us “it’s all good”
But now,
A son misses his mother
Siblings miss their sister
people miss their friend
a mother misses her daughter
a partner misses his best friend
We will never be the same again
You was full of life and laughter
being sick didn’t matter
You tried to take care of everyone
even when you needed someone to take care of you
such a GorJESS soul
many people knew
We got to know and love you
Now we cry because your gone
Our hearts only solace is one day
we will see you as before
and one by one you will beckon us to come join you on that distant white shore
-C.T.S🦋
To my GorJESS sister Jessica, I miss you and I love you. I hope heaven is treating you right and god is holding you close and hugging you tight for me 💜 until we meet again beautiful 🙏🏼