CuccumberYo

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The year 2020 (That Bitch!) pt.1

This is how I know 2020 was gonna suck. 

It was the year 2019. I was going out with a person and due to the start of our career choices we ended up in a long distant relationship. Yeah, i know these suck. I’m the one who did the moving and this person stayed behind until the current job gave the opportunity to relocate. Things were going great, there was a lot of communicating & supporting of one another. 

A little about myself, ive always been a hopeless romantic (in secret). I was one of those that will order you a bouquet of roses, on a regular day. Just to see you smile... but ill take no credit for it. Compliment me and you’ll receive and ass whooping. I’m al  about happy endings (no pun intended). Long Distance wasn't that big of an obstacle for me.

NOW,

The other person was definitely old school. Though a bit shy, it is very confident. Easy to talk to, talented & ambitious. It’s advises & communication skills were outstanding. Due to IT’S career in psychology & surgical tech. It needed to stay behind to finish some certifications.

Everything was going well...

Until one fateful fucking night. While living in different states. IT, butt dialed me, on the day of my birthday... while FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE!!!

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These past 3 months have been a roller coaster...

-My Husband proposed to me on New Years Eve. 

-We got married mid January.

-Vacationed with his family.

-Valentine was a blast. 

-He deployed to the other side of the world.

-Then i relapsed, emotionally of course.

      I ignored my goal to blog and rant about life. Due to my emotional stress and lack of motivation. Shit happens but wow... It’s like waking up in the morning after a night in the club drinking...with a little help from green friends. Then waking up to the sad reality of your life. 

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Introducing the Cuccumber (with two C’s).

Hey there, this is new territory for me and I'm not entirely sure how this website works but it was recommended. 

    First, about the photos I used to customize this account. I googled “free 2D animation”, pressed save and add. I’m not trying to take credit and if you want me to take it down, message me, I understand. 

   Second, I wanted to let whatever poor soul that is interested in reading my thoughts. That I literally just created this account. I needed a place to just vent, even if nobody reads it. Honestly, I don't expect anyone to read it. Just thought I’d be interesting to write anonymously. 

SO... ME, Cuccumber Yo.

 I don't have an obsession with Cucumbers. I cooked a beautiful dinner and it would've been perfect if I hadn't forgotten to add the damn thing to the salad. I'm going to have nightmares tonight: 

>Insert Ghostly voice.

 “YOU FORGOT THE CUCUMBERS!! IT WOULDVE BEEN PERFECT”. 

I chose YO because i thought John Dough. Dough is food and fucking cucumbers was going to be the “last name” of Jonh. John seemed kind of basic ( (no offense to the good loving Johns out there) and I happen to be watching the Netflix series “You”.  So i was like, “YOU FUCKING CUCCUMBER! No, no YOU CUCCUMBER... Nah, maybe YO CUCCUMBER! YES!!” 

That’s how Cuccumber Yo was born....It only took five minutes and Cucumber PTSD.

I have anxiety and my therapist said writing was a good start for releasing stress. Since its 2021 (New Year new me BS), my goal is to try something new.  Instead of writing on a notebook, ill write here.