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[buhhbi]

I support dudes moaning.

[cult--boyfriend]

every ex whose heart i’ve broken is dating someone who looks uncomfortably like me (or like i did during the time we weredating) and i was showing my brother photos of them because i needed moral support and he just shoot his head and said “why do you ruin men”

[cult--boyfriend]

hot take something i really enjoy about dating dylan is that i don’t feel like anything is rushed. all of my other relationships have been so shortsighted and circumstantial it made it difficult to enjoy every moment because things were up in the air. right now i cant just enjoy my time with the one i love because i’m never concerned that he’s not into me. cool.

[cult--boyfriend]

it’s after midnight!! so i’ve been dating my darling for a year. i am so deeply in love with him. never thought the person i’d end up with would also be my best friend in the world

[cult--boyfriend]

the other day i was feelin shitty (in hindsight it was bc i forgot my meds) and i asked dylan if he was really actually in love with me like a dork and his response was “BABE WHAT THE FUCK” bc he thought it was such a ridiculous question and that’s the kind of intense undying luv i need

[cult--boyfriend]

our anniversary is next week. i can’t believe our first date was almost a year ago, i feel like i’ve known him forever. i used to have this weird longing all the time deep down in my chest and i just... don’t anymore. one year without fights, with open communication and love and mutual understanding and support and just. ah. the first year of the rest of ‘em. he’s just so lovely.

[cult--boyfriend]

okay so i have no friends to talk to about dylan so i dump it all here but i’ve been going through some difficult things and he’s been soooooooooo supportive and it’s just a dream. i feel so incredibly loved by him and i love him so hard back. i miss him so much, earlier today he told me how badly he could reach through the screen and kiss me just one time. we have two whole months til we see each other again and it hurts my heart. 

i used to feel really bad because i’m so intensely motivated by love. it’s not supposed to be the motivation of a “strong independent woman”, but fuck, i am so motivated by romantic love and the dream of building a life with my lover. simultaneously, i feel a strength in myself entirely outside of him that empowers me in our relationship even more. it’s so wonderful. i’m learning it’s okay to let myself be driven by romantic love as long as i maintain internal desires. 

ps i’m doing great in school and love my full time job and hopefully will be moving to london to continue studying in 2019. i feel so good most of the time. i smoke way too much pot (about an ounce a week) and i need to chill but whatever we all have flaws right? 

[11-15-11]

Rita Hayworth on Hollywood Boulevard, 1939.

[nevver]

Northern Lights, Fuke

[cult--boyfriend]

so here is a bit of a ramble about things that don’t matter and the time someone i stopped paying mind to years ago tried to push me out of the car without bothering to hit the breaks 

when i was young i would stand on my tip toes to see over a man instead of simply asking him to move out of the way because i didn’t want to be an inconvenience 

and when i was fourteen i would wait and wait and wait and i’d walk down the block at 11:37 after you’d said you’d be only fifteen more minutes for the third time in a row and i’d buy a can of green tea and two bags of peach rings to pass the time because i didn’t want to be an inconvenience 

i moved all the furniture in my room right after our last night together just like i did after our last last night together and maybe i was too naive for reasonable expectations and too young to know my place but i moved my furniture again and again instead when i wanted to call you because i didn’t want to be an inconvenience 

idk man i gotta stop smoking weed and reading old journals 

[cult--boyfriend]

i spent the day with my lover today and it was beautiful. i’ve never felt so absolutely human and awake and invested. i crave dylan always, he is just to wonderful. when he’s actually physically present it’s almost surreal. 

i’ve never been loved this hard before. until now i’ve always loved harder than the person or people i’m with. i see the intensity of my love mirrored back at me every time we talk. 

[artist-schiele]

Portrait of the Actress Marga Boerner, 1917, Egon Schiele

[cult--boyfriend]

Hey, so, I’ve just been listening to Bobby and crying all evening and enjoy the most beautiful manic euphoria. All of the forward momentum in my life is so obvious. I miss Dylan Thomas so dearly. He’s so lovely, and I see him everywhere. He’ll be home in a week, and I’m going to kiss him so much and hold him tight and tell him in person how lucky I am to have him. I didn’t think it was possible to love one person this much, to feel so secure and warm and cared for. I have a job that I love. My classes start Friday. I see Dylan Tuesday.

[femmehealing]

 there is so much strength in healing by lora mathis

[jasper-rolls]

you ever see a straight white dude express a political opinion and it becomes very apparent that they listened to rage against the machine as a teenager but they thought the line “fuck you i won’t do what you tell me” was like, directed at their mom

[you1anna]

[smutandotherstufff]

Same

[woodmeat]

what the fuk u even suppose to do with ur hands while ur getting ur dick sucked

[jazzcochina-deactivated20180807]

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