Cunliffe

.✦ ݁˖ Song witch .✦ ݁˖ disabled independent artist will be adding to my soundcloud soon I promise

[cunliffe-music]

So happy I finally resorted to writing things down and now I feel immensely better about everything and I feel like I have an album name and a track list that tells a complete story 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[cass-c-c]

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[cunliffe-music]

I feel like there are so many decisions I have to get right and I’m making them all alone. BUT it’s also hard as a creative to try and get someone else involved cause then they start saying and suggesting things and you’re like no I don’t wanna do it like that urgh just let me do it myself 😭

[cunliffe-music]

Bringing back this fabulous photoshoot that I did with my angel @behindkieraslens a few years ago for Disability Pride Month.

I am a queer and disabled artist and very proud to be. I just did a performance and I’ve seen a call out for local artists at a festival in my town but even though I’d like to apply, it’s in 5 weeks and I don’t know that I can handle it physically. I’m living my 11 year olds dream of singing the songs I wrote but I have to respect the pace that I can realistically go at. What is meant for me will find me while I am taking good care of myself 💗🌈

[cunliffe-music]

Friday was so cute 💖

I had been feeling almost like I didn’t have it in me leading up to the performance, but I’m so pleased with how it all went!

[rosieandthemoon]

By Konstantin Vasilyev, 1967

[daisylambs]

[cunliffe-music]

I’m soooo excited to finally get to perform my Secret Garden song next week!!

[cunliffe-music]

The quote in my last post had me thinking about how fun it will be to sing this song for my mum the first time! I’m there to share it with her, not be really impressive. Obviously I hope it will impress everyone and it bloody well should but it’s just moving with a different primary intention.

[cunliffe-music]

Latest entry into the diary of a disabled performer.

I’ve just decided tonight that I will be sitting down for all of my songs instead of making myself stand for some of them cause I feel bad and want to make up for the sitting and feel pressured to ‘put on a good show’ in an internalised ableism way. I feel so relived. And I had also previously decided to perform on my spinny computer chair instead of my (very pretty and higher) wooden stool because I realised it made me too stiff, perching on the edge trying not to fall over.

I can’t believe I’m gonna be so comfy and feel and move at ease. I saw a quote on Pinterest that really helped me feel differently about performing too. @Zoeylytle on tiktok posted a quote from a choreographer at an audition that said ‘you have something to share, not something to prove’.

I felt like I got the wind knocked out of me. I was like OHHHH these people are here to witness my heart as I open it for them. I’ve always felt like I had to captain a ship when I performed and outwardly signal that everything is alright to everyone.

It’s interesting that I’ve been performing since I was so young, and in such a formal, reverent setting too. I think I have some old habits to break

[daisylambs]

[cunliffe-music]

I’m soooo excited to finally get to perform my Secret Garden song next week!!

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“…music and poetry burned in her blood like fire.”

— Edith Sitwell, from “Fire of the Mind: The Complete Anthology of E. S.,”

[whimsigothix]

Star girl ⋆⭒˚.⋆

[cunliffe-music]

I feel like there’s a pretty huge spectrum of musicians that fall under the umbrella of ‘independent artist’

Maybe “poor, disabled, producing art off the back of the good will of my family and friends that agree to help me, don’t earn much and what I do needs to be spent on treatments so that I can even continue to physically create and perform, can’t drive and don’t know what I’m doing” artist might be more appropriate

[gotiskk]

𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔢𝔠𝔯𝔢𝔱 𝔤𝔞𝔯𝔡𝔢𝔫, 1993

[cunliffe-music]

Sending scary emails is getting kinda fun

[cunliffe-music]

I am infinite

[cunliffe-music]

[mariaangels]

Nona Limmen

[measureformeasure]

I put the omen in women