tw ed

absolutely not pro ana, choose recovery before it gets bad. low key embarassed to be posting on edblr lmao

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did i just eat almost 3000 calories in 2 days? yes. do i feel guilty as fuck? yes

am i ever gonna do it again? no.

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WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO HAVE SO MUCH SUGAR IN IT

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i wish i could shit.

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I WANT TO JOIN A GYM SOOOOO BAD.

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food log day 2 abc diet

breakfast: bean burger patty (172), yoghurt and blueberries (96)

dinner: zucchini egg scramble w mustard (219)

snacks: kombucha (50)

total: 537

burned: 62

net: 475

49g protein

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AYO i did so good today

dinner: nonfat yoghurt and fruit (370)

snacks: bean burger patty w mustard (260), kombucha (50)

total: 680

burned: 183

net: 497

day 1 of abc diet is complete! im fucking stoked i cannot wait to hit 133.4lbs.

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starting the abc diet tomorrow

my goal weight by the end of this week is 133.4lbs. and when i reach it im gonna reward myself with new clothes and a mirror for my wall

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ate 2200 cals today, feeling v guilty but tomorrow im starting the abc diet!! im so ready for it.

also i had 125g of protein today so im definitely not mad about that

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yo i gotta lose this weight so badly

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lol ok so i thought i could do the abc diet for the last couple days of vacation but thats gonna be impossible, so im doing it on tuesday instead

for now im sticking to 1200

update: i ate over my limit😐 tomorrow has to be better.

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only hot girls have downloaded every calorie app to ever exist

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binged again td. found some motivation and a solution to my problem, so thats what ill be focusing on for hopefully the next few months. i download fatsecret and i really hope its good.

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metabolism subliminals work so well!! fr better than purging. it like, restarts your body its so nice (works better if you use headphones and play it while sleeping)

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i was doing fine today, but i binged SO BAD right at the end. 4110 cals is my total.💀

here is everything i ate today (im holding myself accountable)

coffee (82), artisan baguette (176), cheese bread (402), babybells (140), dark chocolate (232), pretzels (109), sun chips (696), granola bars (450), dried mango (141), dried fig (40), cherries (93), blueberries (144), focaccia (476), artisan bread (264), charcuterie (140), watermelon salad (196), pickles (43), werthers (80), peach (68), kombucha (54)

today was completely out of control, when the binge started i couldn't stop it, and i wish i could fucking purge. im in a hotel room w my family so i cant. all of my progress, gone, as per usual. im listening to fast metabolism subliminals atm and hopefully that will help. i swear to god i cant go three days without binging and its embarrassing and exhausting. im working to break that cycle, and i want to go at least 5 days binge free.

my goal for the next 5 days is to have a steady intake (under 1200), to stay active, and to work on rewiring my brain to stop binging. i would also love to lose 6 lbs but slow and steady wins the race ig.

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food log!

breakfast: coffee with ovaltine (110)

dinner: steak (400), grilled zucchini (120), grilled mushrooms (61)

snacks: werthers (40), gum (5), breakfast sausage (90), bread (110), beer (65), cookie (84), marshmallow (25), grilled zucchini (37), granola bar (20)

total: 1167

burned: 166

gonna be posting food logs every day this week to hold myself accountable lol

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weighed in at 140 this morning, pretty sure i gained so much because i binged over 3500 for two days in a row. im so sick of destroying my progress.

BUT i also wrote an anti-binge plan, and im positive its going to work.

i just need to STAY CONSISTENT!