Beautiful Things

[maybenotboring]

sure, I don’t get a “healthy” amount of sleep like SOME PEOPLE do but can they do THIS *stands up, blacks out for a second*

[rimoonhb]

[beautiful-body-goals]

[beautiful-body-goals]

[materialcraze]

[fooo00ood]

[daydreaming-flowerchild]

[micdotcom]

23 times America failed black people in 2014

Without question, black people dominated news coverage this year, but often not for reasons many would celebrate. 

As America witnessed the killings of unarmed black people by police, the reality of a broken justice system, the perpetuation of various anti-black stereotypes and racism rearing its head within many major institutions, the country had no choice but to face its racial demons head-on. 

Here are but a few of the many moments when the country failed its black citizens in 2014.

[milkandketamine]

[virgohowell-deactivated20161015]

[yeawutevr]

preachhhhh

[xaun-deactivated20140906]

DIDNEY WORL

[b-ak3d]

Lmfao

[curiouslyelegant]

I love when we fuck and I can look at him and we smile at each other. And he's on top of me and I feel so safe. I love when I'm on top of him and we intertwine hands. And I love his breaths and his moans. I love when he stops and tells me I'm beautiful. I love when it happens and I don't really know why, but afterward I feel like there's nothing compelling me to want to feel anything else than that.

[curiouslyelegant]

It's kind of scary when I want to tell someone why I feel a certain way and why I act like this and I can't. I cannot find the words to articulate what makes me the person I am. I can't even find the thoughts. It's scary because if I don't know who I am, then nobody else really does either. Well, maybe someone does, but I haven't met them. I'm just so sick of the life I'm living. It's like I'm not good because I do bad things, but I'm not bad because well I still do good things. And I want to be treated well because I think of all of my combined thoughts and feelings and I think that I'm a pretty good person. And good people deserve good treatment. But I'm sure there are a lot of people who think that I'm a bad person. And if that's the case then I deserve all the mistreatment. But, does anyone deserve that, really?

[curiouslyelegant]

But, why is it that it's when I finally find someone I like? This wasn't with the guys I casually hooked up with. This wasn't with boys I talked to for a few months but then stopped cause there was nowhere to go. I just want a normal fucking relationship. I want to love someone who loves me and that's it. I want to talk freely to them and even if they're drunk and say they're sorry and say they don't remember I never want them to say I'll rip your fucking throat out of your head. I just don't understand how this happened. I was so careful. I was so so so careful. I can't even say anything cause I have so much fucking baggage. I have enough issues for more than two people. I wake up suicidal and go to bed the same way. And all I thought in my head for some reason was that you could fix all of that. And I just feel so much more confused now.

[curiouslyelegant]

I just want a supportive friend sometimes instead of a devil's advocate.

[curiouslyelegant]

I know girls always bitch about guys being awful and stuff and I really don't think a lot of them are, but obviously some are BUT it still isn't right to generalize. That being said, males have done terrible things to me as have females, but for some reason the opposite gender either hurts a lot more or I'm affected by them more. Boys have

taken my virginity when I consistently told them I didn't want to

kept thrusting through my cries

taken my pants off while I was sleeping to jack off using my body, basically

told me after a year and a half they have a girlfriend

used my own body against me

told me I needed to give them sex to be worth anything

told me I was fat

ugly

pig

used me

I hate every single thing on that list and it makes myself mad at myself for going through stuff like that. It is victim blaming but I will forever wish I had more willpower and self esteem. I still love boys, but they make me so goddamn mad

[accidentallyonporpois]