Loving Lexi wholeheartedly
This is day IDKIDKKKK of being away from groups as often and I also don’t know the # of days without social media. (Before anyone in the world comes for me.... Tumblr to me isn’t really considered social media but at the same time it is. It’s 50 50 for me but I’m only here to keep up with this family especially while being away and to also be updated on the twins bc I know Darion will be definitely posting them here and to m have something for us. It’s also something I agreed to keep with the family.)
Now, this isn’t for you, it isn’t for attention, it’s not to bash anyone, it’s not to throw ANY shade.
As I said before... Idk WHAT # of days it is for this but I can say it is beautiful. It is peace. No, life isn’t easy and maintaining isn’t easy but I can say I have been AT LEAST 75% better already. I’ve gotten things done, I’ve learned and met someone. I’ve had tons amount of help along the way. My helpers @jay2cutee @lancey3000 @nbdybutkj❤️❤️❤️ I love you guys for one. Umm I’ve been falling in love with a lot of things around me, including myself. I laugh bc I’m happy sometimes I even cry. No sad tears ofc. But there are some of those bc it can be a lot but getting help, getting better, realizing, receiving help, doing other things to better yourself isn’t easy but I’m no loser, a quitter and I’m not the one to fall and not get up. I must continue on. The person I met.... She was beautiful. She was loved, she was sweet, she was something I’ve never seen before. She was waiting for me this whole time. I must revisit her again and do things for.... Well for her. She is now with me everywhere even if I go without thinking or checking on her. She is with me and to know she is with me, I am okay. I’ve been so much happier. I haven’t been stressing as much. I- the moment I had with her was beautiful and NO ONE can take that away from me. It is soooo nice to know that and have her. I don’t think I would’ve ever unlocked the door for her if it wasn’t for you 3.
Lexi.... We have been through so much. Some things that aren’t talked about with others, things we think about that would creep into our head and wouldn’t leave us alone. There were things we were vocal about and talked to friends about. Yes, you have worries sometimes but you’re becoming more and more fearless. Lexi I just want you to know that I choose you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I’m crying as I type and say that. I CHOOSE YOU my gorgeous babes. I want you to know that you are kind, you are loved, you are beautiful, you are sweet, you are smart, you are moving forward. Continue to listen to her and let things flow through you. Don’t give up on her. Remember the way she made you feel? The first time you saw her, the first time you hugged her and how it made you feel? The happiness, the relaxation, the calm and the warmth of your heart? Remember the way she looked and her demeanor? ALWAYS remember the way she makes you feel. She is coming and you’re changing. You are learning, take it one day at a time. She is going to change a lot. You are going to blossom. Don’t leave her alone again bc if you do or when you do, things will go back to normal or it’ll shatter her or you’ll continue a decrease and won’t do so well the next time. Right now you have an advantage and you have a team who’s helping you through this and you, yourself are bringing things to the table to help. Remember Lexi, she is here with you. I love you girl😘 KEEP PUSHING - Lexi.
P.S. Check on your team and gts, you have to be ready for work in 12hrs baby, you’ve been home for 2 hrs. Get some rest now.❤️
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