I 💕 Suffering, ya Dig?

Used to be a dumb poem I wrote in secondary here. Now memes! Growth™️. 21 (🥳) F SW: 172 CW: 136 LW: 131 GW: 125 Just blew in from Stupidtown.

[teenagerposts]

Me: *makes a small irrelevant mistake*

My Brain, banging pots and pans together: YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUCKED UP YOU FUC

Me: *makes huge mistake that will directly affect my future horribly*

My Brain, lounging on a lawn chair with shades on: ....acknowledged

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[anxietyproblem]

[brianmalik]

if i sigh loudly enough will all of my problems go away 

[capacity]

Why are you single

I literally don’t leave my house and I don’t talk either

[lovedrought]

when you’re not even sure if you can trust yourself

[shadio]

i always forget that i literally don’t owe anyone anything!

[mittenoftheearth]

Me when my student loan people send me an email

[witchesversuspatriarchy]

Please let this work 🕯️

[skiniidreamz]

🤲🏽🤲🏽🤲🏽🤲🏽

[calorie-issues]

[questshunself]

When I think I’ve been succeeding at restricting & exercising more but my eating disorder be like

[nudityandnerdery]

Make it a good one, kids.

[emerald-studies]

“The most disrespected person in America is the black woman. The most unprotected person in America is the black woman. The most neglected person in America is the black woman.”

-Malcolm X (1962)

[annastopdrawer]

quick story time:

This contributes to not believing brown women in the health care system. My mother, who is native, went to the doctor to get pain meds. She has Severe severe endometriosis that leaves her sobbing even after eating an edible and taking a percocet.

She was barely able to hold herself up in the office because she was in so much unmanageable pain. The lady doing the intake asked her how bad the pain was and she responded “it’s so bad I want to die”. She also said that all she needed was pain management and would feel better.

As any person experiencing worse pains than child birth would. The doctor (nurse? rn? idk?) then left the room and called the police on her.

Never once did she clarify if she actually wanted to kill herself. Never once did she ask if she would do a drug test. She just assumed that my mom was drug seeking and called the cops on her.

My dad picked up on this and went outside to ask what was taking so long for a mental health professional to show up and ended up asking if they called the police.

We ended up leaving before the police got there but it was terrifying. My mother was the only one with a job at the time and if she missed work it would mean we would be homeless.

The complete disregard for her life to the point of ignoring her and calling the cops was disgusting and to this day makes me scared of opening up to heath care providers in fear that i’m getting sent to jail or to the mental health ward. (especially because I am not just native but black and mexican as well)

[bbycas-deactivated20190121]

pls tell me im not the only one

[bulbasaur-propaganda]

Me at 4AM trying to sleep: