anjani-mastani

vani, 19, she/her, enfp-t

[currysochaotic]

hibernating again.. exam season

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Hi you gorgeous gorgeous people im still alive! <3

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ok so i know im very late but HIII im the one whose cousin has the same name and age as youu

Ahhh haha hii!🌻

So your cousin is called vani, and what can i call you?🤭

[currysochaotic]

hey there 🌻

Just read your post about what you're going through. I know you asked to ignore it but I had to share that I've been in the SAME exact same situation girl. Two of my ex best friends just lashed out on me because I asked for space and wasn't really initiating convos lol. Like the audacity. It's been shitty. But hey, hang in there. People are selfish. They say they care but they don't. You have to look out for yourself even if it means letting go of people you love.

Tc ladki. I'm here if you ever wanna talk. You're not alone. You're amazing and people are genuinely missing out if they don't realise how great you are. ❤️🌻

Hii sorry for answering this late i was hibernating for a while hehe, quick update- everything is well now its all good and happy, im doing great now! Thankyou for being so sweet, i hope things work out well for you too❤

[no1cutiepatootie]

i would be nowhere without consuming the subliminal joys of milk and milk products

[currysochaotic]

and then there are people like me.. cursed with lactose intolerance😔💅

(my friends at college call me lactobacillus)

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im not a fan of rainfalls but just the way everything looks so bright and clean outside after a shower of rain uff.. fresh lush green leaves, sunlight reflecting on water puddles, dogs on the street all dolled up after bathing and ofcourse, sweet petrichor.

[potatoos]

<3😭

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# yes yes this is exactly what i meant uff

[secretsandevillove-deactivated2]

lemme suck your dick while we argue so i can taste where you're cumming from

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and then swallow the misunderstanding between us

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On loop. On loop. On loop.❤

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WHY DOES IT KEEP RAINING.. it has been 2 hrs

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so im vini (i go by winnie here but same thing), 19, she/her, enfp-t. i really had to come your inbox to mention it

ahhhh shit we're almost the same person hahah hello winnie!!🌻

[no1cutiepatootie]

im so tired i just wanna keep lying on my bed

[currysochaotic]

you n me both bud

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today's mood-

Jadi tor daak shune keu naa aase tabe ekla chalo re👣♾

[guccifloralsuits]

y’all

[guccifloralsuits]

I’m crying she saw him just homewreck a marriage and said ‘wreck my plans that’s my man 😍’

[currysochaotic]

What about diljit dosanjh?😔

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The only solution to not lose one's mind and blood and shit by overthinking and stressing about things is to keep oneself busy. I'll do that. Huh okay. Its okay. Tomorrow's a new day. I'll be okay. I'll be busy. Okay.

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*PLEASE IGNORE whats written below i just wanted to rant*

*I mean it please ignore i couldn't write all this on notes app hence rambled it all here, it wont make sense ignore*

my closest relationships are getting weird and fucked up rn. i cant explain. some not getting along with each other. some not getting along with me. something is my fault but its apparently not clear what is but im supposed to be apologetic and make it better because ive maybe done something to make them get weird vibes and emotionally distant from me and it sucks so much because idk man idk whats going on. this has been going on for more than a month its such a negative and exhausting episode. i know time will make it all better i have submitted my faith in the process now because im just done at this point. i dont have much energy left in me to deal with this many feelings and thoughts and fuck ups at once. i cant even say it all out loud irl because it'll feel like im victimizing myself or invalidating their concerns and their drained energy or overreacting or being dramatic or whatever. I just feel extremely misunderstood. Everybody is at fault, everybody is irritated and everybody is disappointed in each other in one way or the other here so there's no black and white here. But at this point idek if im wrong or right for feeling this way. I just want this episode to be over as soon as possible and over for once and all.

I AM JUST DONE. I CAN'T ANYMORE. I cant process anything anymore i cant tolerate all this dark weird aura im getting from everyone anymore (the irony is they seem to get it from me so uk its a loop)

I love these people. I just want everyone and everything to be okay and warm between us all. I am really putting my trust in time. I am tired. I want to talk it all out, let all my feelings and opinions and anger and disappointment and apologies and tears and everything out, to someone who'll get me. But at the risk of sounding cliche, no one will get me rn. Everybody will have a taunt to give, a comment to pass, subtly invalidating why im feeling this. I have no one to go to rn and its sad. Matlab i do have more friends but i cant talk about all this to anyone which makes it more frustrating.

*if by any chance you read it all out of curiosity, erase this from your memory, you didnt even see it okay?*

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AAGGGHHGHHH

I keep seeing such INTERESTING, FUNNY, KIND, CULTURED, SMART, WELL-INFORMED, NICE people on tumblr IMMA CRY😭❤.. getting on tumblr is the only best thing i have done in a while, they're all literally who 'young me' would look up to

y'all are inspiring me to become a better version of myself i am getting this sudden urge to explore and learn so much about everything.. i said it before I'll say it again, there is so much in this world i don't know of fuckk.. too much knowledge im missing out on i really need to do something about it

[pulihora-deactivated20240203]

*clears throat* urge kiya hai-

[caffineinducedvibe]

this is somehow the best thing ever.

[currysochaotic]

perfection