UnBlurringEdges

A day will come when Im done seeking truth...fuck that! I will fight and dig until my fingers bleed because we all deserve honesty. Trying to skirt around the truth is so exhausting isnt it?

[cursethesehumans]

I wish I had good memories of you... I feel so stupid for believing in love. I cant trust anyone ever again it's time to take my own life

[cursethesehumans]

The sinking feeling that I only know 10% of the truth and theres 90% hidden from me.

[cursethesehumans]

I just want to scream until I turn into dust

[soft4youu]

This the ONE

[feral-ballad]

I often lament how pain is tidal—it leads us away from and returns us to our bodies, again and again. It is both the blanket that smothers and the impetus to burrow. This is a difficult way to live. But pain also reminds me that I am a body, that I am in a body. It is a great irony of my life that pain is what prompts me to discover how to feel, with my body, things other than pain... When it's pain we're talking about, I can describe it clearly: its exact location, temperature, movement; its length, depth, width. But defining the shape of anger, for example, or the climate of pleasure, is difficult. I have learned to be afraid of feeling. Connecting emotions to physical sensations—feeling my feelings—is rarely a familiar or safe place for me. But I want it to be.

Jennie DuGuay, numb is a feeling: embodying a body of pain

[evilbuildingsblog]

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

I suspect quite a few people on this site don’t realize they are struggling with the effects of chronic trauma. In particular I think more people need to learn about the symptoms of C-PTSD.

Distinct from general PTSD, Complex PTSD is caused by prolonged, recurring stress and trauma, often occurring in childhood & adolescence over an extended period of time. There are many risk factors, including: abusive/negligent caregivers, dysfunctional family life, untreated mental/chronic illness, and being the target of bullying/social alienation.

I’m not a mental health professional and I’m not qualified to diagnose anyone, I just remember a million watt light bulb going off in my head when I first learned about C-PTSD. It was a huge OH MY FUCKING WORD eureka moment for me—it explained all these problems I was confused and angry at myself for having. The symptoms that really stood out to me were:

Negative self-perception: deep-seated feelings of shame, guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, and stigma. Feeling like you are different from everyone else, like something is fundamentally ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ with you.

Emotional avoidance of topics, people, relationships, activities, places, things etc that might cause uncomfortable emotions such as shame, fear, or sadness. Can lead to self-isolation.

Learned helplessness: a pervasive sense of powerlessness, often combined with feelings of desensitization, wherein you gradually stop trying to escape or prevent your own suffering, even when opportunities exist. May manifest as self-neglect or self-sabotage. (I remember watching myself make bad choices and neglect my responsibilities, and having no idea why I was doing it, or how to stop myself. Eventually I just stopped caring, which led to more self-neglect.)

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[modernhippiemindset]

With the new moon in Aries with Chiron, energy this week will have a lot of people speaking out of term. Saying things out of instinct and triggers within their response. The way things are worded will be misconstrued or taken harsher than meant.

Be more aware of this bluntness in yourself also. Mercury in Aries will make this worse. With mercury conjunct Chiron, you may unintentionally hurt others also with your words. Keep consideration and perspective on what their going though.

Reflect before you respond. You may be easily triggered also. Don’t react, respond! Watch for the defense with others.

Excercise mindfullness in your response. Whether your reviving information or giving it. 💚

Mars and Saturn will also be in a conjunction. The thing your feeling urgency around you can give it a little time. Things will feel heated up but it’s just fate stepping in. Unexpected challenges will be arise but they’re for the better. Journal, reflect and sit with the energy and use it, don’t let it use you.

#modernhippiemindset #Astrologicaltransits

[yms1]

tumblr isn’t considered a social media because everyone on here is just talking to themselves

[yms1]

me, every day: i just dont have the energy for this today

[carpethedamndiem]

King of Cups represents mastery over the realms of emotion, creativity and the unconscious.

[carpethedamndiem]

Henryk Płóciennik, Sunset № 3

[carpethedamndiem]

Eventually everything connects.

[cursethesehumans]

I think I survived another meltdown 2022. Trying to enjoy the moment but I cant help it when my mind starts to wonder about how long will it last before this pendulum swings the other way... the fragility and delicate balancing act of our emotions.

[thecollectibles]

Spellbound Felines Series by Sam Hogg

[macgyvershe]

What a masterful series of kitty cats. Thanks, Sam Hogg. You Rock!

[cursethesehumans]

I am doomed to fail I need to escape I am trapped I need to escape my body, I need to cross over somehow this isnt really happening I need to find a way

[cursethesehumans]

Actions speak louder than words but my words hurt more somehow I am in a nightmare I cant wake up from. It shouldve been me who died because she loved you more.