Gore/Guro Sideblog

I reblog gore and guro and eyestrain and horror and s/h shit. #MoS

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

God dammit. I KNOW I'm not entirely in the wrong this time, but I'm scared to say anything because I don't want it to become a whole big conversation. Like if you had just TOLD ME what your plan was, I would have just waited!!! But instead you stayed quiet, completely changed your plans, and sat and stewed without saying a word to me. You didn't tell me until after I was done that I had apparently ruined your plan instead of just TELLING ME?????? Why??? How does that make sense????

And now I feel like crying but I can't fuckin do that around you because then I'M guilt tripping YOU. Then I'm just adding to your expectation that you can't fuckin tell me anything.

[vampira-carmilla]

Dark art by artist Emil Melmoth

[feastofsnakes]

this is actually literally how every day felt in high school

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

WRONG wrong wrong wrong I'm wrong I was wrong I am wrong I always have been wrong and I always will be wrong I tried so hard to be direct and obvious and and I still did the wrong thing

I asked him straight up what he wanted to do for his birthday, he listed several things that he had never done, I picked one of them and made reservations and planned a whole trip, and he tells me 8 hours before we're planning to leave that he doesn't want to

How did I get this so wrong? I explained to him how I came to the conclusion that I did and he told me that I misinterpreted his words. I didn't understand that he was joking and being hyperbolic. I've been talking about these plans for a couple of weeks. I asked him if he wanted me to keep it a surprise and he told me no, so I told him what the plans were. I kept him in the loop, I sent him the itineraries, I included him in the planning and the ideas. He tells me less than 12 hours before we leave that he is not happy with the plans.

Like. What do you want me to do about it now? What do you expect me to do?

[datadegroove-deactivated2026042]

yooo how do I get out lol 😂 how do i get out of here 😅😭

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

I was trying to tell you about how fucking tired I am. I was up at 7:30am and I got home at 2am. I had so much shit to do today. And I forgot several things I needed. And you have been procrastinating on one particular errand all week so I offered to help. But I forgot. And that apparently ruined your entire fucking Saturday. You slept in until 2pm. I drove over 150 miles today and did so many fucking things. I napped for 15 minutes in my car on the side of the freeway so I didn't fall asleep at the wheel. And I ruined your Saturday because I didn't do the simple errand that wasn't even my responsibility to begin with. What the fuck.

[porcelain-rob0t]

the european mind cannot comprehend the 48 oz dunkin bucket

[derryderrydown]

Excuse me while I look something up...

1.4 litres????

[politenotice]

[interestingmistakes]

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

I DON'T. DO. ANYTHING. RIGHT.

I never have and I never will. And I feel like I've been very fucking clear about that since I met you.

And you chose to stick around.

You saw the ways that I could change, couldn't change, and chose to change.

And you decided to stay.

So don't fucking blame me.

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

I really don't want to do this thing that you decided to start without asking me, but I can't tell you that because you'll think that I'm trying to make you feel guilty

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

Sometimes I feel like it's more of a sense of obligation toward me rather than a sense of desire.

I feel like I'm more of a stepping stone toward the ultimate goal of a legacy rather than a human being that he loves and wants.

I feel like I'm something that is supposed to give his life purpose instead of someone that he wants to share his life with.

I feel like he Did The Math™ and decided I was good enough to make a baby so that he could feel some permanent sense of success and satisfaction in life.

I love working with kids, but I never wanted any of my own, and he's been telling me for our entire relationship that the only way he would feel fully satisfied and accomplished in life would be by sharing his knowledge with a child of his own. Who am I to deny that? I would be a bad partner, a bad person, if I said no.

I'm so scared because I'm so selfish and I'm so afraid that I would feel resentment toward this life that I created, but I know that's the only thing that he ultimately wants from me and I know that's the only way that I can truly prove to him that I'm a good partner, so I'm going to do it.

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

Hurt

Hurt hitting myself

Hitting

Hitting hurting hurting slapping

Slapping smacking slapping myself

My face

I'm doing this for him

He should be doing this for me and

I'm doing it for myself because he disagrees

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

And he shouldn't know

He can't know

He can't know and I can't tell him

Because it's not his fault

[cut-my-arm-bleeding]

Hurt

Hurt hitting myself

Hitting

Hitting hurting hurting slapping

Slapping smacking slapping myself

My face

I'm doing this for him

He should be doing this for me and

I'm doing it for myself because he disagrees

[cottoncandylesbo]

i like it when people compliment me. i like it... when people like me. (looks around to make sure nobody is about to shoot me)

[yaldabaothadeez]

(source - plan039 on twitter)

[fairycosmos]

#mygapingwound #mychildhoodghosts #myfleetingexistence #myfatheadache #myunexploredidentities #myendlesshame

[headslikekites]

don't think about your life past 9pm teto

[emotionaleating]

i feel like no one really talks about how this all is a permanent condition, the sadness never really goes away it just brews in the back of your head. no matter what you’ll always be reminded that it’s always lingering. sometimes i can’t accept it’s always going to be like this. i swear i’m fun and chill i just have this irrevocable ache inside of me. it’s a part of me now and i don’t think i ever wanna let it go. oh i wish to be a normal girl. what is wrong with me?.