the difference between a kink and a fetish is that kinks are fun and cool and they can spice up the bedroom a little bit and a fetish is a curse that makes you feel like you're missing the part of you that makes you a real person
I am kinda always thinking shit like "thus I am asserting that you are the kind of thing that is pet and I am the kind of thing that pets you" or "if I pet it good enough it'll melt in my arms and become mine forever" while I pet someone. I think to some ppl "pets you" is kind of neutral action but not to me. I'm going to win at pets and you're going to become mine forever because of it. I spend a normal amount of time thinking about this.
She worked at a gas station when I found her. Long overnight shifts, from 8 pm to 6 am, she arrived bleary-eyed and left hyped up on caffeine. She was the sole employee most nights, and it was obvious how much the loneliness got to her. Weeks would go by where I was her only customer the entire night-- twice a night, every night, sixteen minutes after she started her shift to buy a pack of cigarettes, two hours before the end of her shift to pick up something sweet. We never talked about my work, I think she assumed I was in a similar position to her. If she ever saw me as a danger, she didn't show it. Dark eyes, dark hair, face covered in middling attempts at make-up that seemed to be done out of a feeling of obligation rather than any personal desire. Her arms shook whenever she carried anything more than a few pounds, she struggled whenever she had to move too quickly. I knew right away that she was absolutely perfect.
I kept conversation minimal at first. Come on too strong and they tend to pull away immediately. The temptation to force a rapport can be extreme, but these things take time. In my case the best opportunity came when I found her crying while restocking the back of the store. She tried hastily to wipe her tears and apologize, and I pretended I didn't know what was wrong. When I offered her a hug she took it like a woman in the desert stumbling upon water. I was almost shocked at just how eagerly she threw herself into me, pressing her face into my shoulder, quivering as I closed my arms around her. If I had any doubts before she was who I wanted, that killed them.
My nightly visits started taking longer. I'd pull her away from her work to draw her into long conversations. She was eager to talk about herself--I got the impression few people ever asked about her. It was all the sort of mundane intimacy you talk about on first dates. During one such conversation she asked me: "If you could be any animal, what would it be?" And before I could answer, interjected: "I think dogs have it pretty good. I'd rather be a dog than a person, sometimes. They just get to sleep and eat and hang out, and dog people are crazy affectionate. Y'know?"
The second step of my plan was easy to execute. I found her manager's phone number and begin issuing complaints. Slowly at first, then a torrent. People like her already operate on such thin ice, I suspect it would have taken even less to get her fired, but it's important to always minimize your points of failure.
She was crying again the next time I came in, beautiful little tears cascading down her cheeks, failing to muffle her pathetic sobs. I let her fall into my arms again. "I think they're going to fire me," she whimpered. "I'm sure it's going to be okay. You're wonderful, who would want to get rid of you? If you worked for me, I'd never let you go."
She thanked me profusely and handed me my cigarettes without me even needing to ask for them. She'd moved the box to under the counter, so I spent more time there, and less wandering through the store looking for them. On my way out, I sent one final message to her manager, accusing her of sexually harassing me.
They fired her at the end of her shift, the parasites. Waited until they'd extracted every last dime from her and then dropped the bomb. Withheld her last paycheck, too, claiming suspicion of theft of company property. It didn't matter, of course, she wouldn't need it soon enough, but it just makes the blood boil, doesn't it? How could they mistreat something so precious?
I was sitting in my car in the parking lot, eating some wretched sandwich from a nearby early morning cafe. She staggered out of the store looking pale-faced and ghostly, her entire body a leaf in the chilly wind. She looked lost. She looked desperate. I pulled my car alongside her when she was a block away, in a secluded stretch of her route home I'd canvased previously to ensure there were no cameras nearby. "Need a ride home?"
Self preservation was never her strong suit. She climbed into the passenger seat without hesitation, and broke down sobbing. "My landlord is going to kick me out. I was barely surviving, I have nothing in savings, I'm fucked, I'm going to die," She babbled when her voice wasn't choked by tears. I comforted her with one hand while doing everything I could to suppress my smile.
She didn't notice at first that I wasn't taking her home. She didn't notice at first that the lights of the city were getting dimmer, and the roads quickly swallowed by dense forest on either side. By the time she did, it was much too late, of course. Even if she leapt from the car while it was still moving, she wouldn't make it far into the woods before I found her again.
"Where are you taking me?" She asked.
"Somewhere nice." I said. "You deserve something nice, for once."
I was used to more resistance at this point. Kicking, screaming-- I kept my taser on hand in the event I needed to quickly subdue her. This was usually the moment they broke and realized what was about to happen, after all. But she didn't start fighting. She just settled back into her seat and stared at the road ahead. "Oh. Okay."
My heart skipped a beat. She truly was perfect in every way.
Down the road. Up the driveway. Out of the car. Into the house, where it sat alone in those woods I knew so well. She did not say another word, and she had stopped crying altogether. Her eyes were wide and empty. I took her by the hand and guided her to the living room and sat her down on the couch.
"I normally don't give girls this choice," I confessed. "But you told me once you'd rather be a dog than a person. Do you still feel that way?"
She nodded slowly. I pulled the collar I'd already prepared out of my jacket--wine dark with silver inlays, and a little tag with her new name embossed onto it. Though she shook, she offered me her neck. It took everything I had to not rip into it with my teeth, and instead simply click the collar into place. The back was secured with a tiny lock. It looked so right, sitting around her neck. She was born for this.
"Welcome home, pup." I took her into my lap, and in that instant the last of the fading humanity she clung to died. She was finally, finally mine.
mutual caretaking in incest dynamics is my favorite honestly because I love being my dad's kid and having decisions made for me and my hair brushed and food cut up into bites but I equally love making their coffee in the morning and tying their shoes when I notice they've come undone and doing their laundry. the soft smile and genuine appreciation in, "thank you kiddo" makes my heart erupt into a thousand butterflies!!!
I think I have like a usefulness-breaking kink or something. taking someone who's so desperate to be useful and taking it all away from them, softly, sweetly, gently, until they can't even try to help at all... Forcibly relaxing them until they don't even protest about what they "should" be doing....
Awwwww, somebody went and ripped out all that usefulness you hold so dear but guess who's still loved? that's right, it's you!! No, silly, there's nothing you can do for me, but I can do some things for you! here, why don't you just put your head in my lap and let me tell you what a good job you're doing by relaxing for me~
She walked in on me using her little panda plushie to jerk off and said "Daaaad you keep fucking all my friends" which was just so cute I had to use her too
This applies doubly, x10 tbh, to transfemme doms. You NEED to be nice to her, you NEED to let her know she is doing a good job. That transfemme dom might have a lot of issues with her self worth, she may have been used up and left a discarded husk so many times.
Sorry but I got sick of scrolling through the notes on this on desktop and seeing all the red usernames marked by shinigami eyes reblogging this.
I'm a transfemme dom and I'm proud of it. Take care of us. Love us.
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