Im Learning How To Live Again

Recovery is a process. A struggle. and my challenge. Everything happens for a reason. Lucky to be alive.

[neverforgetyourdreamsssss-blog]

“If you want me in your life prove it, don’t just say it. Actions speak louder than words”

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[cutthroatgf]

I wanna be worth fighting for!!!!

I want you to scoop me up in a hug after a long day at work and I want you to be scared of me moving into a dorm out of fear of spending less time with me. I want passion outside of sex. I want to feel wanted like I want you it’s as simple as that. Why don’t you want me back. Why can’t it be you? I’m not ready to let go.

[cutthroatgf]

Love

Relationships are there to teach you things about yourself so that you have a companion to journey with you along your path. Sometimes your paths are leading to the same place. Sometimes there not. I think that you have to be true to yourself to stay on your path. And if each person in your relationship does not stay true to themselves, even if your paths are leading in the same direction they either aren’t able to keep up or are choosing a path that’s not their authentic selfs. A mistake with love comes from the saying “ you can’t wait forever for someone” because YES YOU CAN. The real question is what’s more worth it to you (not what is easier but) what is more important to you your future and happiness or potentially waiting forever for someone. Relationships are a choice you are choosing that person every single second of every day that you are with them.

[hannah-houghton]

“I want you to want me they way I want you”

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[cutthroatgf]

So why don’t you?

[thoughts-within-thoughts]

I wonder if you still think about me, if you still want me, if you still dream of holding me

- Or was your “forever” shorter than normal

[cutthroatgf]

You are everything to me. So what am I without you.

[shyracoon]

To anyone with an eating disorder on Thanksgiving: I know it’s scary. Stay safe. You deserve to enjoy your dinner. Treat yourself kindly after you eat. You can do this, and I love you.

[queenabbey-lynn]

I’m so happy I saw this

[cutthroatgf]

🙃

[cutthroatgf]

I’m just not worth it.😐

[cutthroatgf]

If I gave up on life would you give up on me?

[cutthroatgf]

Stuck in the middle of know I should eat and not wanting to so bad it hurts.

[cutthroatgf]

I used to be so good at keeping my composure and being strong for others. Now it just feels like I’m breakable around others feelings.

I hope I work this out but as for right now. I just want to give up.

[cutthroatgf]

Is it bad that I want so badly to be the girl in the pictures. I wan abs and to. Be the perfect inbetween of masculine and feminine. I just wish my body reflected my mind more and I could feel whole. 😖

[cutthroatgf]

How can someone so loved feel so alone.

[cutthroatgf]

Describe yourself in two words.

Never enough.

[enjoy-the-life-baby]

[hipster-and-thoughts]

[cutthroatgf]

PIZZA

[thisismyhalfroomcutie]

For anyone who has ever watched a show that queerbaited you (Riverdale) or completely missed out on a queer opportunity (Supergirl) or has even straight up killed their wlw characters (BTVS, The 100, etc.) this is for you

Interested in seeing how that show would’ve gone if the writers weren’t afraid to go queer? Ever wish you could bring that beloved gay af character back from the dead? If so, please let me know if you would be interested in a complete rewrite of the entire show from the very beginning where it does indeed go queer. Message me or shoot me an ask, I’m thinking about starting a Patreon for it if it gets a big enough of a following.

If you wanna know what my writing is like feel free to check me out on AO3 as marissalyn14